Chapter 1

Carrie POV

There's nothing exactly easy about being a teenager. Above everything, it is absolutely terrifying. A large world and an unknown future lie ahead and there's nothing you can do to determine what will be definite. And now, with my wonderful boyfriend, Sebastian Kydd, by my side, everything feels more and less secure all at the same time. He makes me feel safe, but he also gives me more to loose.

Sebastian POV

It was just another ordinary Saturday... Bradshaw and I in her den, sitting on the couch, playing board games. Then again, nothing with Bradshaw was ever truly ordinary. When we were playing that game, and the die landed on two, I immediately assumed that she would go to the pink space. But I should have known better; this is Bradshaw that we're talking about here. She's very unpredictable, but then again, that's one of the things I love so much about her.

It took a few moments for those thoughts to fully register in my mind. I am in love with Carrie Bradshaw. I should have seen this coming... I have never cared for anyone as much as I care for Carrie. This is what I had feared all along. There's something about Carrie that pulls me in, and I can never get enough. Now I simply feared pain, the pain that can only come from true vulnerability. Vulnerability that I succumbed to by admitting, even to myself, how I felt about her.

"I like a challenge," Carrie's comment about her decision in the board game tore me away from my thoughts.

"Always keeping me on my toes, huh, Bradshaw?" I questioned her teasingly, hoping keep the mood light so she wouldn't be able to read the millions of thoughts racing through my mind. I didn't want to tell her how I felt; not yet. I wanted it to be the perfect moment, and a perfect memory.

"Well, that's the plan, Kydd." Luckily, the mood remained light; she hadn't caught on to anything I might be hiding under the surface.

"Well, it's working." That time, the feelings were definitely in my voice. Her jubilant smile ended it all for me right there, and I couldn't hold those words in any longer... "I love you Carrie Bradshaw."

I could see the shock take over her face; that was not how she expected this afternoon to turn out. But I also saw a sparkle in her eye, one that had always been a little more hidden before. My heart was racing in my chest, waiting to hear the words returned to me. I knew she felt it too. I saw it in her eyes, and her smile. I heard in her laugh, and I felt it when we touched. Her lips started to form the words...

"I want to have sex with you."

a/n: I hope you enjoyed it! This is my first fanfic, so please, read and review! Let me know if I should keep this going. I know right now it see exactly like what happened in the episode, but i have some plans for this. Unfortunately, the characters (and some of the story even...) don't belong to me :( although i sincerely wish sebastian did... anyways, please review!