All characters are Stephenie Meyers. I don't own them I wish I did ;o)
This is my new story. I hope you like it. I am not going to give you the exact run down of this chapter here. You will have to read it to see if you like it. It is going to be a long story. Not the short ones I have been doing lately. I hope you like it. Please let me know by Read and review. They are always welcomed.
~munchkin1978
Why?
Prelude
I watched as he was lowered into the ground. I felt lost, withdrawn, not worth of being in his presence. Even in death. I was ready on the other hand to yell, scream and shout to the world. To anyone who would listen. Anyone to answer my simple question. Why?
I curled into the arms that held me in place as the casket reached its final destination. The tears flowing freely now. Why? Why did it have to be you? Anyone else but you. I was struggling to go forward. I was ready to fling myself in with the casket, to be buried with him forever. We had too short of time together.
Roses were dropped into the depth that held the casket. I didn't dare move against the arms that held me in place until he released me from his grasp. I rushed forward and dropped the arm load of flowers, each one with a note attached. For the after life I had told myself. I didn't trust myself to come back to the strong arms that held me before so when I felt them tug me back to my chair I moved with his touch.
I watched through the tears the handful of dirt that was thrown, the final prayer said. The finality of it dawning on me. Life. His life. The closing of his life, the final farewell. Everyone rose to leave, not wanting to linger. I stayed. I stayed in my chair as the rain started turned to a pour. The heavens crying as I was crying.
He will get wet I screamed at everyone that had remained for a few moments. He will get wet. Did you not hear me? He will get wet. He will get wet. No body was listening. I was alone. I was alone in this world now. I wouldn't have anyone to care for me like he did. Why?
"Bella. Come on you need to get out of the rain."
I felt his strong arms grasp my shoulders, bringing me to my feet. They were making me leave him. I didn't want to leave him. Not yet. He wasn't safe by himself. Some one had to stay. I wanted to stay. I fought against the arms but lost. They pulled me away from the spot I'd remember. The person I'd remember indefinitely. Through the tears I saw an umbrella. I was under a black umbrella. The strong arm pushing me towards the sleek black car that was waiting with the door open. No I would not go in. I couldn't leave him. I wasn't ready. I moved to the right slightly to go back only to be stopped and placed into the car with a gentle touch. As soon as the umbrella went down the car took off. I was trapped. I couldn't go back. I couldn't die with him.
I wanted the driver to turn around so I could go back. If they could turn back time, I would wish that too. Just a year and I'd be happy. Realistically it would be perfect but I knew. I knew it would never happen. I felt the strong arms pull me closer. Pull me into his world. He was worried. Worried that I could snap at any time. His touch was tense yet gentle. Worry was evident.
"Just a little bit longer Bella." The voice said. I wasn't registering anybody. I was focused on one person today.
We arrived moments later. The car pulling to a slow stop. Cars lined the area on both sides of the street. The voice I had heard moments ago stepped outside the vehicle and held the umbrella up waiting for me to exit. I didn't want to leave. I wanted to go back. I wanted to see him. I resigned and moved forward taking the hand that was offered to me. I looked back at the car I just exited. Black. I knew this type of car. It had a death about it. I turned to face forward as the strong arms caught me as I collapsed. I couldn't do this. I couldn't be the strong one now. I couldn't face anyone else today. I can't be the strong one like you asked. I just wanted to curl up and die.
Well what did you think?
I am not telling what is going to happen next. You will have to read to find out. Did I throw you all for a loop? Let me know if you like it!
Song for this prelude is My Immortal – Evanescence (I just love this song way too much)
~munchkin1978~