I squirmed uncomfortably in my chair; the wet clothes were beginning to chafe my body. The movement woke Jacob, who looked up at me will still groggy eyes.
'Do you mind if I get into those sweats now'? I asked him.
'Sure', he smiled, 'you are starting to smell like a wet dog', he teased. I got up off the chair, and walked into his bedroom. I struggled to get my wet clothes off, they were stiff and I was glad to get them off. I bent down to pull off my jeans, and in doing so felt myself begin to fall.
'Ouch' I yelled as my face hit the side of his bed. The room was so small I wondered how Jake ever got undressed in here. Jacob was inside the room in a moment.
'Bella'? he asked.
'Don't look Jacob', I said, conscious that my bra and panties were semi-transparent and that Jacob could well, see everything.
'Don't worry Bella, I've seen my sisters naked a hundred times', he mumbled, trying not to look at my near naked body whilst he helped me up off the held my hands for balance as I used my feet to stamp off the wet jeans. I felt grateful to have the wet material finally off my bare body. As I stood there, Jacob still holding my hands, I turned my face upwards to look into his eyes. I was grateful that the faint light which streamed in through his curtains was weak enough so that he couldn't see the embarrassment on my face.
'I don't know how you survive Bella, you are without doubt, the clumsiest person I have ever met', he laughed.
'Shut up Jacob, if your room wasn't so small...I don't know how you ever get dressed in here without falling over' I said.
'Practice', he said, and with one quick movement he took off his shirt, throwing it onto the bed. I could feel the heat emanating from his body, it felt nice. Almost like the feeling I'd get laying in the sun in Arizona, and the sun kissed my body. Instinctively I moved my body closer to his, I hadn't realised until now just how cold his bedroom was.
'You cold Bella'? Jacob asked, his fingers touching the goosebumps on my skin.
'A little' I whispered back.
'Well being a wolf has its advantages', and he drew my cold body closer to his. The warmth felt glorious, and without thinking I pressed my body closer to the warmth.
'One one thousand, two one thousand, three one thousand', I heard Jacob whispering.
'What are you doing'? I asked.
'I'm um, trying to distract myself', now it was his turn to look embarrassed.
'Oh', I gulped. He started to move away, but I didn't want him to go, I wanted to stay in his warmth.
'Don't go Jacob', I pleaded.
'I have to Bella, this isn't right', he said. He turned and walked out of the bedroom. As I stood in his bedroom, the familiar abandonment flooded through my body, and I was cold again. But Jacob hadn't gone far, I could hear him breathing on the other side of the door.
'Jake'? I whispered through the door.
'Yeah?' he replied. I opened the door. He was standing looking at me, a pleading look on his face.
'Don't leave me Jacob. This is right, you and me feels right'. He tried to interrupt me but I continued.
'What if all of this has been fate or God or whatever trying to push us together? Well here we are, together and alone in your house'.
'But...', Jacob started.
'No Jacob, I don't want to lose you again', I asserted.
'You're not going to lose me Bella, but I can't be him, I can't be...Edward', he said his name through clenched teeth. I felt a pang of loss on hearing his name, but I tried to ignore it. He wasn't here, he had left me, alone. And hadn't this been what he'd wanted? For me to have human experiences? Well I couldn't think of anything more human than this.
'Kiss me Jake', I cooed, knowing too well that there was no way he could refuse me. Before I could take a single breath, I was in Jacob's embrace, our mouths kissing fiercely. I felt the familiar stirrings, and waited for him to pull away as Edward always had. But he didn't. Jacob's hands pulled my hips towards his, and I felt the hardness of his body against the softness of mine.
'Bella', he mumbled as he pulled his mouth away to kiss down my neck.
'Yeah Jake', I whispered, my voice quivering.
'The others...they'll know', referring to the others in his pack.
'I don't care', I said, moving his hands back onto my hips, 'Let them see'. That was all the encouragement he needed, he picked me up and wrapped my knees around his body. His mouth was now kissing my neck, my ears, my breasts. The feeling was unlike anything I had ever felt before. There was warmth spreading between my legs. We found the bed, and lay down, staring at each other for a moment.
'You sure you want to do this'? Jacob asked.
'I'm sure' I said.
'You know I've never done anything like this before right', he said sheepish.
'Neither have I' I admitted.
'Really? Not even with him'? Jacob questioned.
'No, he couldn't, well he was too strong and worried that he might loose control'. I whispered.
'Oh', was all Jacob could say.
I knew I had to work quickly, I could feel my resolve slipping so I unhooked my bra, and threw it to the ground. Jacob looked at me through half-closed eyes, his eyes taking in my small round breasts. He reached out to touch my breasts, his fingers tracing my nipples. I gasped as I felt the warmth between my legs increase. My nipples hardened under his touch. Jacob moved towards me on the bed, his mouth finding my breasts, as my legs entwined him around him. He began to kiss down my stomach, his fingers teasingly fingering the waistline of my panties. His mouth moved further down, pulling down my panties, teasingly slow. He through my white panties onto the floor, and gently put his hands inside my legs. I was embarrassed about the wetness, but he seemed to like it. He began to slide his hand up and down the wetness. Instinctively my hips began to move in time with the movement of his hands.
'Oh Jacob', I whispered. He looked at me through his half-closed eyes, and smiled. He bent his head down and began to lick at the wetness. For a moment I was embarrassed, but it soon faded as he began to rhythmically lick and suck, as he continued to move his hand up and down. I felt my breathing quicken, faster and faster. But then the movements stopped. I opened my eyes to see what had happened and saw that he was removing the last of his clothes. For a moment we lay side by side on the bed, taking in each others nakedness. His body really was quite amazing, his rippling muscles, his tall body. I couldn't take it anymore, I wanted that feeling of warmth back.
I leaned forward and became to kiss him, slowly edging my hand towards his hardness. When it reached it, I put my entire hand around it and moved my hand up and down. It was strange that although I hadn't done this before, I instinctively knew what to do. He became to moan quietly. I enjoyed the noise, it made me feel powerful, it was something I had never felt. It made the warmth start again in between my legs, but this time there was a throbbing, a yearning coming from the area. I sat up, and let my other hand run along the muscles of his chest and stomach. The hardness felt beautiful. I bent down and started slowly kissing in between his legs and slowly kissing closer and closer towards his hardness. When I reached the hardness, and cautiously took it into my mouth. Nibbling softly on the edge, kissing it up and down, and then finally taking him whole into my mouth. There was no taste, and it smelled of him, the musky scent of a man. His moans became louder, and I was glad that no one inside the house to hear him. I heard the rain begin to fall upon the iron roof, as I continued taking him in and out of my mouth, and nibbling gently on the end.
'You better stop Bella', he moaned.
'Why'? I asked innocently, I was enjoying myself.
'Come here', he purred. And he gently pulled me back down onto the bed. He reached for something inside his desk drawer. I could see in faint light that he got a small package and put it beside me on the bed.
'Where did you get that?' I asked.
'Dad gave it to me when I started to fill out, he was worried about all the attention I started getting from all the girls at school...and some of their mothers', he laughed.
'Well I guess we better open it', I smirked.
'I just hope I know what to do', he said sheepishly.
'I can help', I smiled. I felt him kneel beside me on the bed, and the sound of plastic being torn. He moved towards me on the bed, and placed himself between my legs. He began to kiss me, more softly than he had before. Slowly he moved his lips to my ears, and down my neck. I could feel his hardness against me now. He moved his hands in between my legs and began the rhythmic movement again, but this time he used his fingers to spread my sex apart. I felt his hardness against me, and he used his hand to move himself up and down, replicate the movements he had moments before done with his hand. I began to move my hips, trying to make him push himself into my wetness.
'Oh Bella', he whispered into my ear, 'are you ready' he asked.
'Yes', I replied.
Instinctively I pulled him on top of me, and pushed his body in-between my legs. The feeling was strange, almost animalistic. The hardness of his body, the warmth it emanated, I wanted that feeling inside me. He took hold on one of my hands, and we entwined our fingers together. With the other hand he took hold of his hardness and placed himself at the spot I yearned for him to enter. I moved my hips upwards towards him, and heard him moan as I took him inside me. He slowly moved his hips closer to me, so that I could take more of him inside me. The feeling of Jake inside me was something I had never known before, and I wanted more. We soon found our rhythm, as our bodies became one. We moved our hips in time together, whilst our hands caressed each others bodies. Our mouths were against each other, but not kissing, almost as if we were breathing the same breath. Our bodies moved as if they had been made for one another. He seemed to reach into my soul with his eyes, his eyes never leaving mine.
The rain began to fall louder now, and our moans increased against the sound. I could feel something building up inside of me, a feeling of pressure that needed to be released. I could hear from Jacob's breath, his moans that he felt the same pressure building up inside of him. He pulled me on top of him, so he was flat on his back and I was knelling across him, my knees on either side of him. I moaned for him to come closer, to go deeper inside of me, and all the while feeling the pressure continue to build up. We clung to each other, holding on so tight that my nails scratched against his back.
Our movements were so frantic that the bed began to move, thudding loudly against the wall. The wetness inside my body made me able to spread my legs wider now, as I pushed my body onto his hardness. I never wanted this feeling to end. I moved my hands up to my breasts and fondled the hardness of my nipples with my fingers. My hips continuing to move up and down against his hardness. His body reached up towards me, as he kissed me frantically, moaning louder and louder. The pressure was uncontrollable now, even if I wanted to stop I couldn't, my own moans becoming louder and louder. I didn't think I could handle the pressure, it seemed to have taken over my whole body.
Jacob was now moaning 'Oh Bella...Jesus Bella...Bella...God yes'. He picked me up and in a fluid movement he had me laying on my back, as he slammed his hardness into my body. Over and over I begged him to come deeper into me, and his body responded by slamming his hardness into me. He grabbed my legs and pulled them closer to his body, as his body began to shake. His hardness became even more so, and I could feel the pressure inside me begin to erupt. I began to moan, a deep guttural animalistic groan that I was shocked was hear coming out of me. The pressure exploded inside me, feeling like a million explosions going off inside me, my body contracting against Jacob's hardness. Jacob cried out loudly and his fingers pressed hard against me as he yelled 'Bella', and then I felt his shaking subside.
He collapsed onto of me, our bodies wet with sweat and contracting in orgasm together. After a couple of moments Jacob moved out from in between my legs, and we lay side by side waiting for our breathing to go back to normal, while we languished in the after effects of our orgasms. My body felt so relaxed, all the tension of the past year seemed to have disappeared. But my body was tired as well. We curled up against each other, closed our eyes and drifted into a dreamless sleep. We were awoke a while later by the sound of a car on the wet ground outside the house.
'That must be Billy', I whispered in the dark.
'No matter what Bella, I love you, always remember that', Jacob whispered back.