Allo! Minorkae here with my first fic. You'll find that I'm a bit deviant giggle and my fave pairing is Hiei/Yusuke. So here we go!

Update!! I revised this chapter. Hiei was too OOC as was pointed out by the ONLY PERSON TO REVIEW MY STORY. Not that I'm bitter or anything…

Disclaimer: I don't own this stuff. It all belongs to Togashi and other important people.

Desperate

Chapter One

"Urameshi, I think we're bein' followed," said Kuwabara.

"Oh, okay," I replied. I kicked a can down the lonely stretch of dark forest. It made me angry that someone had littered on Grandma's property. I mean, show a little respect for the dead. We were only half-way to the temple but Genkai had owned almost the whole forest, and she left everything to us. Team Urameshi and our girls. Yukina still lived there with Puu.

"Aren't you at least a little worried that someone's followin' us?" asked Kuwabara.

"I'd be a bit more impressed if you hadn't said that about fifty-three times since we left for the compound," I said. "But who's counting?"

"Yeah, and they've been followin' us since we left."

Okay, I thought, Enough is enough. "Fine, I'll scan the area." I had worked with Kurama to beef up on Psychic Awareness (among other things), which is different from Spirit Awareness because Psychic Awareness lets you detect brain-waves.

-…she'll never like me…-

-…where am I?...-

-…kick his ass…-

-…they went that way…-

-… better rest…-

-…should I take a left?...-

-… have they seen me? Why are they stopping?- "Aha! You were right, we are being followed," I said. "Come on out, crazy stalker!" Nothing happened. "Don't make me come and get you!"

"Who is it?" asked Kuwabara.

"Who do you think? Who lurks in the shadows?" I asked. "I missed you too, but you don't have to follow me Sekshi na!"

Just as I predicted would happen, Hiei got so mad that he came out of the woods and pummeled me. I got behind him and held him to my chest. "It's been too long, Nushi. What's say we go back to my place and get wairudo?"

"Let me go, Fool!" Hiei yelled, squirming. I released Hiei and he turned around and smacked me across the face. "Shamelessly hitting on me and calling me 'lover.' You -punch- damn -kick- fool -slap-!"

Kuwabara stood there and stared at us horror-struck. "Inside joke," I explained.

"Inside joke my ass!" yelled Hiei. "Don't you ever do that again. You're lucky I don't slice off your-."

"Okay, okay, jeeze. I'm sorry!" I held up my hands. "But it was totally worth it." I grinned. Hiei smacked me again. "Still worth it."

"Worth what?" Hiei asked, fist raised.

"Your reaction was priceless."

Hiei drew his sword on me. "I'm going to have to kill you now," he said.

"Nothing personal, right?"

"Urameshi," said Kuwabara. "I think he's serious."

"He won't kill me; he would have done it already," I said. "Am I right?" I asked Hiei.

Hiei covered his eyes with a hand. "I suppose I over reacted. It was only a jest." He sighed and sheathed his sword. Hiei pulled his cloak around himself. "I really hate you sometimes."

"Not all the time?" I asked, giving him the puppy-dog look.

"No, not all the time."

I grinned and stopped just short of slinging an arm over his shoulders. "So what brings you to the Land of Inferiors?" I asked.

"I came to console Yukina," said Hiei. "I just heard of Genkai's death."

"Yeah, that's where we were going too," said Kuwabara.

"I knew that!" Hiei snapped. "Why do you think I was following you, Baka?"

"Chill, Hiei," I said.

"Don't tell me to calm down after being molested." -I wouldn't even be so angry if that hadn't turned me on so much-

I focused all of my energy on not reacting to Hiei's thought and closed my Psychic Scanner. "Well, let's get going," I said. "Things to see, people to do- I mean… the other way around." All that energy focusing and I forgot to focus my BRAIN!

"Is that all you ever think about?" asked Hiei. "Baka hentai."

"Freudian slip." I shrugged.

We started walking, Hiei on my left, Kuwabara on my right. "How long are you staying, Hiei?" asked Kuwabara.

"And why would I tell you that?" asked Hiei.

"Hey, I'm just makin' conversation."

"Make conversation with someone else. Anyone else, just don't talk to me."

"Why not?"

"Can't you follow a simple instruction?" Hiei hissed. "I am in no mood to be heckled by a human whom I despise beyond all reason. You piss me off every time you open your mouth. That's why."

"Like I said, chill," I told Hiei. "He's not being any more annoying than usual."

"Then I blame you," said Hiei.

"We need to talk," I said being very serious.

"About what?"

"Not right now. Just… just come to my house when we're done visiting Yukina."

Hiei inclined his head in what could pass for a nod.

Great, now how do I talk to him about this?

- -

The detective requested that I meet him back at his house. He said he needed to pick something up at the market so I let myself in to the nearly empty apartment. It looked as if he had just moved in or was about to move out judging by the boxes stacked here and there. I guessed that he was moving in as things were half-unpacked and several of the boxes were opened. Also, because he had a wide-screen television mounted on his wall.

I removed my boots in deference to the highly clean carpet and sat on the arm of a very soft leather chair. How long have I been away? I wondered, scanning the room for any clues as to the date. Yusuke's calendar proclaimed that it was July of 2004. That meant I had been away for three years and five months. Not long for a demon but very long for a human. I wondered how long it seemed to Yusuke, then decided I didn't care. There was nothing I could do now to… to what exactly? Make him feel better about it? Surely not but I had a lingering need to explain why I hadn't made contact in so long and as to why I had returned. After all, I was staying for good.

"I know you can't see in the dark," Yusuke's voice roused me from my thoughts. I hadn't heard, nor felt his approach so I was slightly shaken up by the abruptness of his return. "So why didn't you turn on the lights?"

"I didn't want to," I said.

Yusuke flipped the switch on the wall and several lamps cast a dim glow around the room. It wasn't much brighter now then it was before; I preferred the darkness. Yusuke seemed to agree because he said, "It doesn't make much of a difference," and turned the lights off again.

He walked over and sat on the chair I was perched on the arm of. I turned to face him and noticed that he looked very serious, as if he'd grown up in the last three and a half years. It wasn't as attractive as his natural state, which is playful and mischievous, but I supposed that Genkai's death affected him more deeply than he let on.

"So, you came back," Yusuke said, breaking the silence.

I hesitated. How to say this without sounding too emotional… "The Makai didn't have what I was looking for," I said.

"Hmm… and you think Human World does?"

"It certainly has many of the things I want."

"That's good." He paused. "I'm really sorry about earlier. It's just that I haven't had the chance to play a prank on you in a long time and frankly, I wanted your attention."

"You have it, I'm not angry anymore."

"At me or the world?"

I considered his question and how much I wished to share with him. "Both. At least, I'm not as angry with the world."

"I'm glad you found some peace."

It occurred to me then that he'd had many opportunities to pry information out of me but he hadn't taken them. Information such as what I was looking for and why I thought it was in the Human world. Then I realized that he hadn't questioned my motives once. He was being diplomatic. Not allowing his emotions to dictate his actions. This made me want to open up more until I realized that he was doing it on purpose. "Don't use psychology on me, I don't appreciate it," I said.

"Psychology?" he said. "This is me being a good friend. If you wanted to tell me something, you would have. I'm not about to force you to do something you don't want to do." His voice was so calm, so controlled. Gods, Yusuke, I thought What's happened to you? "I know I don't sound like myself but… it's 'cause Keiko broke up with me and then Genkai died, then my mom died… all in the same week and I'm really not as collected as I seem. My whole life just got flipped and shaken. I don't know what to do."

"Go ahead and talk at me for a while if it will make you feel better."

"Okay, well… have you ever had your heart broken so many times in a row that you want to say 'to hell with love; I wanna be alone'?"

"No. I don't believe in love. It is a foolish human emotion that only serves to cloud your judgment."

"I kinda figured. I also got the story of what happened to you from Yukina, but I didn't tell her who you are. Shit like that just isn't fair. You didn't do anything wrong."

I sighed. "I've gotten over it."

"So you don't like being alone anymore?"

"No. That is the reason I left the Makai. I was alone. No one cared about me except Mukuro. In fact, a good number of people there want to kill me. Besides, having a demon care about you, one whose soul has been as badly damaged as Mukuro's, isn't the same as having someone…" I broke off because I realized that I'd been whining; something Keiko had always done to Yusuke.

"S'alright, happens all the time. People trust me."

"What's so great about trust?"

"Do you remember at the Gates of Betrayal when I told you to flip the switch and save us all?"

"Yes."

"At that moment, I put my life in your hands. How does that make you feel?" I stared at him for a minute. "Like a wow with the warm fuzzies?"

"No." Like I want to tear off all your clothes and…

"Hiei?" Yusuke said.

"You can't read my mind, can you?" I blurted out.

Yusuke looked confused. "No… not right now. I could but I'm choosing not to. Oh, Kami, what were you thinking about that you don't want me to hear?"

"I'm just giving you fair warning to stay out of my head."

"'kay but really, I wouldn't tell anyone."

"That isn't why. If you could hear my thoughts right now, you'd run screaming."

"If you didn't want me to know what you were thinking that was the wrong thing to say. Let me tell you why. There are only two possible things you could be thinking when you say that. Either A. you're thinking of a fun way to torture me to death or B. you're picturing me naked. I'm gonna guess B. just because I know you don't hate me and/or want to kill me. Also because I was hitting on you earlier and put the thoughts in your head. So, don't worry. I'm flattered and I don't want to run away screaming."

"And you didn't read my mind?"

"Tch. Tactless much? I actually heard what you thought earlier about being turned on by my not-so-subtle advances. I'm only telling you this because I want you to trust me and even though it was a complete accident, you have the right to know that I invaded your mental space. Oh, and the reason Kuwabara was so freaked out about that was because he knows that I don't go after things, or people, I don't want."

Nani?! "You weren't joking?"

"'fraid not. I saw you and lost control. That happens when you get pent up."

I scratched my head in confusion. "So, it wasn't just me?"

"You're gonna have to qualify that."

"It's not just because it was me that you had that reaction?"

"Oh, that was 100 pure Hiei. Anyone else and I wouldn't so much as bat an eye."

"Do you realize that if you had sex with me, you'd be stuck with me for life?"

"You make it sound like a punishment. Yeah, I knew that. I asked Kurama how demons got married."

"My case is different."

"Who do you think I was asking about? Look, I know how possessive Koorime are. I know the consequences of taking a Koorime's first kiss. I'm aware that I can't even kiss you or I become linked to you for life. I have to tell you that I've weighed the consequences against the fact that I'm HEAD OVER HEELS TRULY MADLY DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH YOU and decided to let you decide what happens between us. There, you have my two-cents. I don't know how much my money is worth in Hiei-dollars but it was worth a shot anyway…"

"You know what'll happen and yet you still want me?"

"Well, yeah! What's so bad about basically being your property? I trust you not to abuse me. I love you, Hiei."

"I don't think you understand."

"From what I've heard, if you claimed me as your mate, I'd essentially be your sex-slave. I'd have to do it with you whenever you wanted. This for a mated Koorime is all the time. This means I'd have to live with you and go with you wherever you wanted to go. This, for you is nowhere. Also, from what I understand, if you give me a direct command, I'll be forced to obey. This is all apparently a test to see if I love you enough and if I don't, I die."

I stared at him in shock and disbelief. He had just recited the rules for mating by heart but more than that, he acted like he thought it was a good idea! "Are you insane? You know if you die you can't come back again, right?"

"I won't die because like I said 'I love you.' And I don't care about the test. I trust you , really." He pulled me off the arm of the chair and into his lap where he proceeded to SNUGGLE with me. "Besides, if you leave me again, I'll just die." He rested his head on top of mine and started to stroke my back. I became very relaxed and at peace within the circle of his arms.

So there's the first chapter, what'd ya'll think? Let me know by reviewing! Flames are not welcome but CONSTURCTIVE criticism is always appreciated

So I revised it. Although, I don't think Hiei was so badly out of character now that I've reread it.