I know I'm already working on one TMNT story but I hear 'Broken' by Seether today and all I could think about was Raph while listening to it. It made me wonder what he is really like under all that rebel stuff.

Title : Broken

Rating : PG – 13

Summary : Set a month after the new TMNT movie. Leo and Raph get into it bad. Raph runs away and makes a suicide attempt. How will this change him? I'm bad at summaries. Just check it out.

Raphael wasn't even sure how the fight had started. It was usually that will Leo. Raph was just going to step out for a little training. He knew it was late at ten at night but he had two whole hours before his midnight curfew.

Splinter had slapped a curfew after the events a month ago. It was his punishment for fighting Leo on the roof top and all the other fights he had started with him since he had been back.

"I'll be back in plenty of time for curfew," Raphael growled at his older brother.

"Splinter left me in charge while he is out meditating," Leo explained.

"That is fine and dandy," the other turtle said. "If I'm not back by midnight you can punish me but I'm going."

"Let him go," Don said from his computer. "You are being unreasonable. All Splinter said was that he had to be home by midnight. Aren't you being a little power hungry?"

"If I let him go he won't come back and I'll be in trouble," Leo explained. "I've been in that position with Raph before."

Leo wasn't lying. Whenever Splinter had ever left them alone and with Leo in charge. Raph had always manged to get Leo in trouble.

"You think just because Splinter always leaves you in charge that you're better than me?" Raph screamed. "You are so dumb."

"He leaves me in charge because I'm responsible," Leo said. "He doesn't need your temper getting in the way. No one does."

"Fine," Raph snapped. "I'm out of here and I'm not coming back."

"Yea right," Leo said to Raph's retreating back. "You've said that at least once a month since you were seven!"

"What the hell has gotten into you Leo?" Don asked getting up from his computer. "For once Raph was in the right and you blew up at him."

"He never had plans on coming back," Leo said. "He was going to come back when was damn well ready too. Not when he was supposed to. It is that way every time."

Don shook his head at his older brother and slipped off to his room. He was starting to think all that power was starting to get to Leo's head.

Three hours later Leo sat in the living room staring at the clock. Midnight had come and gone. He had expected Raph to stumble in around one and stomp off to his bedroom. Splinter would be coming home anytime and Leo knew he would have some serious questions to answer.

Splinter liked to go off and medicate some where else in the sewer sometimes late at night. With four teenagers in the house it was often hard to meditate.

Leo jumped to his feet when he heard someone walked in. He sighed when he saw it was his Sensi.

"Is everyone home?" Splinter asked headed for his bedroom.

"Raph is gone," Leo said quickly.

"What happened?" his father asked sensing his son's tension.

"We had a fight," his oldest son explained. "I was unfair. He said he was going and not coming back."

"Wake your brothers," Splinter said at once. "We have to find him. The less time wasted the better. The foot is still out there. It is not safe for him to be alone so late. Search the sewers and the roof tops. I will meditate and see if I can not find him."

Leo rushed to wake Don and Mikey feeling the lowest he had felt in a long time.

Raphael was sitting on a roof top near Casey and April's apartment. His face was in his hands and he was crying heavily. It wasn't like him to cry but once in a while he broke down. He always made sure to never cry in front of his family.

He couldn't believe Leo. Who did he think he was? His brothers always complained that he wasn't responsible but they never gave him a chance. It wasn't fair.

He hated him and he hated himself. He hated the fact he couldn't control his temper. He hated the fact he didn't know how to talk to people. He hated the fact he wasn't as good as his brothers. They all had their talents. Even Mikey. There was no one better on a stake board. What did Raph have? Nothing. Just his temper.

"I wish I were dead," he whispered.

Raph just wanted the pain to end. He pulled one his sias out and looked at the blade. If he took his own life he wouldn't feel anymore pain. Of course he wouldn't feel anything but the pain would gone.

He knew Splinter would be broken if one of them died. He loved them all very much but he would deal with it.

"I guess it has come to this," he said thinking of how he would do it.

The least he could do was do it in a place where his body would be found easy. That would help his father's pain. He looked over at Casey and April's apartment. Their lights were off. He could slip in and slid his wrist without them hearing him. When they woke up in the morning they would find his dead body and alert his family. It sounded like the perfect plan.

He slipped along the roof stops separating him from the apartment. He went through the window and stood in the living room. There wasn't any noise. The place was silent and dark. He walked over to the kitchen and found and pencil and paper sitting next to the stove. On it he wrote :

Dear Family,

I am sorry for all the pain I've caused you all. I've done nothing but get the way my whole life. Leo was right. My temper has done nothing for any of you. I'm sorry I've had problem controlling my temper. I know you said that you loved us all father but I feel I am causing you unneeded stress. I am not the son your deserve.

I am sorry,

Raph

He walked over to the refrigerator and moved a magnet onto the paper. He wanted to make sure the note was found. He wanted his family to have it.

Raph walked over to the couch and sat down pulled out both his sias. He ran the blade up his left wrist before forcing it through his skin. Pain shot through his body as he cut through. The blood began to pour out. He forced himself to do the same to his other wrist.

The world was already starting spin around him. He slipped down off the couch and hit the floor hard. He could hear a phone ringing through all the haze. He wasn't sure how long it rang but finally the answering machine picked up.

"Hello," came Splinter's voice. "It is Splinter. I am calling because Raphael is missing. If you see him please call."

The machine beeped off and he heard a door open. Before his world went totally black he heard April's voice.

"Casey!" she screamed. "Get out here. Raph is hurt!"