Lindsay's POV
He thinks I don't get it, he thinks that he's the only one to go through grief and feel the loss of someone that they love, I lost my best friends and I was a room away when they were killed, as if I didn't think that was my fault. I didn't help, I didn't even try.
I can't believe he thinks I don't know he slept with Rikki. that morning I asked him to get food before shift, he didn't realise he hadn't put the phone down when he started having sex with her right near the phone, I think I actually heard my heart break! I ended up fainting; I mean I've never once even felt dizzy but that, well that was just gut wrenching.
I have just got back from what was supposed to be a 9 – 5 shift, turning out to be a 48 hour one, I'm exhausted and all I want to do is sleep. I tried I really did but all I keep thinking is if Danny has been seeing Rikki all the time he's been with me. I think I might take a hot bath, crack open a bottle of wine, put on Mr & Mrs Smith (mine and Danny's favourite movie) and have a date with two men who never let a girl down; BEN and JERRY.
I have been in the bath like 2 minutes when I hear the unmistakable sound of my buzzer. 'That best not be Danny I'm really in the mood to hurt someone right now' Lindsay thought to herself.
I jumped out of the bath to look for my robe and shuffled her way to the door, looking through the peephole I sighed in relief to see that it wasn't Danny. However, as I saw my elderly neighbour, John from across the corridor, I felt annoyed as I had a fair idea on why he was here.
"John how many times have I told you and Lisa that I don't want to buy a kitten off you?" Lindsay said whilst smiling at her persistent neighbour. "Work crazy hours and I wouldn't like to leave it on its own all day" Lindsay exclaimed when she opened her door to her neighbour after looking through the peep hole.
"I'm sorry Lindsay we just can't keep all 6 kittens and the 2 cats any more, were not trying to sell them any more were just going to give em away"
"I don't know, how about I think about it for a couple of days? and get back to you by the end of the week"
"Sure, see ya soon Linds, sorry for disturbing your evening" John apologised whilst kissing his young neighbour on the cheek.
I watched John walk back to his apartment before shutting my door, as I walked away from the it, I thought to myself 'maybe I should have one, what could it hurt? John said the other day he'd keep an eye on it if I was going to be working for too long and wouldn't be able to feed it for a while. It would make me put my thoughts on to the cat and take my mind off of Danny; yeah I think I'll tell them tomorrow I'll have one'
As I got back to my bath, I swirled my hand in it and realised it had gone cold. 'Well that's the story of my life; everything always turns cold around me, doesn't it?' Lindsay said aloud to herself. As she pulled the plug, thinking that that was a waste of water, there was another knock at the door. Figuring it was John back, forgetting to explain something, I shouted 'hold on John I'll be right there, and I think I've changed my mind, I would like that cat'
However, when I got to the door, I didn't think to look through the peep hole, as I thought it was John again. Opening up the door, I got a scare. He barged right in. 'what the hell do you think you're doing?' I whispered.