A/N: Too vague to contain spoilers. Dedicated to LB-san because she mentioned she was tired of mindless Suzaku bashing and because I know the birthday dedication isn't going to be very good at all. If you're familiar with Greek, you'll know that Apology really means a defence or justification rather than an expression of contriteness. A Suzaku monologue.
Apology
With a helm of darkness, you stood alone like a lost angel who still believed he was no prince of devils. When you held your entreating hand out to me, I would not be tempted to follow weakness.
Because everything about you was forbidden.
That you keep your laughter in the gleam of amethyst eyes, and your frustration in the nibbling of crimson lips. That though you're afraid of any physical confrontation you're so quick to jump to the protection of loved ones or simply to those who need it. That as the protector you often need to be protected instead. That there was no friend I loved more, no matter how ill- fated that position was.
You were so beautiful and lovely, with eyes the colour of twilight and a sparkle within them that was the morning star before dawn.
I had to steel my heart because you were immersed in the same sins I myself had cast behind me. Only that you were unremorseful and thus damned yourself. But before you were cast down in judgement, I drew what meagre compensation you owed to Euphemia and me. Her dream of peace would not remained tarnished by the sin you forced upon her. Our dream to change things from within will be completed by my hand. Your ransom would ensure that.
Because we're friends I won't insult either one of us with pretentious apologies. In any case, someone who uses people all the time can't complain too loudly about being abused in the same way. The only thought in my mind is the image of that bloodied, cursed angel reaching out to me, believing my brief struggle against temptation was love. You realised too late that to me you had always been forbidden.