Okay well I know I should be updating my other stories. I'm sorry, but when a plot bunny is jumping in my head, he won't leave until I write it down. So here we are, um this fic is a little disturbing even for me. I really wanted to write it anyway. This is before Kingdom Hearts and mostly show the relationship between Riku and Sora. It's a little weird because it has rape in it, so beware of that. Um….yeah. Ohh and their will be a lemon in later chapters, so yeah…

Disclaimer: I Do not Own Kingdom Hearts or their Characters.

Born To Cry

Chapter 1: The New Born Pray

The many summers couldn't add up to this wonderful – yet exciting – day. There wouldn't be a single married couple that wouldn't want this blessing. She was happy. He was happy. The whole damn family was happy, except for one little newborn. The most platinum white hair with a slight tent of purple. The most stunning clear oceanic green eyes that would leave you speechless. And a small pair of matching hands and feet. All of these features perfectly placed by the Gods themselves. The little one, all so new in this world wiggled. A wiggle there. A faint cry here. This new member to the world cried like the rest, only wanting to sleep instead of being gawked at or poked by the nurses.

A mother of all mothers in the world held her child for the first time. She smiled at first, before holding him tight to her heart. She made sure he was comfortable and warm, but most of all safe. The all too proud father smiles at his first son; softly stroking the hair down to his child's little chubby cheek.

"What shall we call him?" the father asks as he takes his seat by the bed.

"I didn't think of a name yet…"the mother explains as she plays tug of war with the unknown baby's finger. The father feeling like there was nothing to bring down his day leaned in his chair.

"How about... Miku... Roka... Renji?" The mother giggles at the comment while softly shaking her head.

"No... maybe something strong yet unpredictable..." They stay quiet for the moment only the soft coos of the child remain. "I have it... strong like the Earth that brought you to me... Riku..."

The father nods while standing to receive yet another call from a friend. The mother sighs as the father leaves without saying anything. She turns her attention back to her blinking child in arms. "You will make everything better... won't you?" The child, Riku, raises his little hands for his mother. She smiles just in time for a nurse to bring Riku to the infirmary for babies. The nurse kindly picks Riku up and walks out of the door. She heads to the large windowed room and confirmed her identity. The nurse cleans Riku up putting him in soft dark blue cloths and places him in on heated soft bed. The section only consisted of soft blue plush -indicating he was a boy- with little white rabbit print on his blankets. Riku blinks at the glass looking to the side of him feeling warm and safe. The father walks up along with some other friends of his to get a glance at Riku. One male pointed Riku out, while another leans in to get a better look. He frowns.

The father states something to the others all while with a smirk on his pale face.

The start of Riku's survival begins

Two year old Riku plays with his toys while watching TV. He wasn't the type of child that would make noise and bang things like most his age. He sat at his little white and red mini table with baby safe toys upon them. Riku played quietly as mother cooked and cleaned here and moved there. He would pick up things ever so often and get thanked for not making a mess. This life was nice for Riku, for he didn't mind helping his mother like he did. She never minded him to help her at all anyway.

The front door clicked softly and opened to reveal the father. The mother looked up from her dusting and smiled faintly. "Dear... your home early?" She asked while making her way over to kiss his cheek.

"Yeah... Sai can you do me a favor?" The woman named Sai blinked at her husband.

"Yes dear what would you like?" He smiled and picked up Riku who was hiding behind his mother.

"Oh never mind dear..." The mother frowns and turns towards the kitchen.

Riku smiles while hugging his father as large as his little arms could hold. The father sits down on the sofa, places Riku on his knee, and kisses his cheek twice. Riku blinks not understanding why he was sitting there and not the lap, but didn't say anything. "You're starting to be a big boy aren't you?" Riku smiles as well as nods to his father. "Soon you will be joining a daycare... to give your mother and me a break." Riku frowns not understanding why or what a daycare was. "I'm sure you will love it! You will start tomorrow..."

He didn't know what his father was speaking of, but he trusted the man. After all it was Riku's father. Who wouldn't trust their father? After being placed in his carriage by the dad, Riku watches as the door slowly closes. He ignores the sounds of walls being hit and dishes being broken. He sits in his carriage and keeps thinking it was just the TV up too loud. With that in thought, Riku goes off to his dreamland.

S O R A

Sai drove without the music that morning, looking at Riku in the rearview mirror ever so often. She smiled only a little trying not to show off that bruise on her cheek. She made sure she worn her soft platinum hair down. Riku didn't notice do to the fact that he was going to some place new besides the park. While driving up to the little autumn orange building, Riku hopped gently in his car seat.

Sai slowed the ruby red Acura to a stop and started to unbuckle his seat. With a swift movement, Riku was on his way towards the building. He looked at all the drawings and rooms as they both passed. He was sure this was also called something like a school, but he wasn't really sure. He didn't really care either. Riku watched as his mother walked them up to a long braided brown haired woman. She had the softest green jade eyes matching her Chinese styled dress. Riku looked at her name tag which read Aerith. Aerith smiled and placed her hand out for Riku to shake. He didn't mind and shook her hand with a faint smile. After saying her goodbyes and her loving hugs, Sai left Riku.

Aerith picked up Riku with a swift moment and walked over to the other children. They stared at Riku and cocked their heads. Others just continued to play or just sleep. Aerith placed Riku down on the carpet and patted his head. "What would you like to do Riku?" He started at her for the quick second and pointed to the blocks. She nodded and went over to retrieve them quickly. "There you go, if you need anything please let me know..."

Riku ignored her and started to play with the blocks, building them up high. An hour passed without Riku even noticing until a cry was heard. He looked up from his work of art to see a small spiky haired child crying. He just spilled his milk. Aerith was trying her best to calm the child, whispering sweet words and hugging him. Riku blinked at the child and got up. He walked over to Aerith tugging her long dress. Aerith looked down a little. "Shh... shh... little one... Oh yes Riku?" Riku pointed to the crying child and reached his hands out as if to say 'Let me see him' Aerith didn't complain while bending down to let Riku see him. He held the crying child in his arms while sitting on the floor. After poking his cheek to make it look weird, the baby stopped crying.

Riku smiled at the little one, only to look back at Aerith. She smiled and nodded a 'Good Job Riku!' to him. Another woman called out to Aerith, wishing to talk with her, so with an apologetic smile she was off. Riku let the child sit up on his own as he blinked at him. After wiping his eyes dry the boy hugged Riku. At first, Riku didn't really know what to do. So he hugged back. "I-I'm Sora..." Riku stared at him before answering back to him.

"I'm Riku..." Sora smiled and hugged Riku again, soon after they were inseparable.

Until nap time came around

Riku didn't mind sleeping in a carriage, for he slept in one at home. It was different and didn't have the mini lights, but it was okay for a nap. He started to close his eyes until he heard soft sniffling. He opened his eyes and looked around for who the sniffling came from. Looking to his right, Sora sat in his carriage crying and trying to remain quiet. Riku stood up in his 'room' and waved at Sora. Sora wiped yet another tear and waved back. Softly whispering, "What's wrong Sora?" Sora looks back at his 'room' then announced in the same type of voice.

"I'm scared... of the dark..."

Riku, never really felt what it was like to be scared of the dark, nodded. Softly, he undid the lock that kept the door shut tight. Climbing down with small legs, Riku ran over to the other side of the daycare 'sleep' area. Sora looked down from where Riku stood. "Wiku... help me..." Sora was once again on the verge of tears. Taking a good look at the lock, Riku grabbed the mini stool. Sora's carriage was higher do to his 'escape incidents' that always seemed to happen. After stepping on the small piece of furniture, Riku undid the lock. Forgetting to keep his balance, Riku falls straight on his back with a 'thump'. Sora's eyes becomes wide with fear for his fallen friend. He turns his body and slides the rest of the way down landing on his butt. Sora crawls his way to a sniffling Riku. He rubs his eyes to keep from crying, but Sora already knows.

Sora smiled and kisses Riku on the cheek. "Thank you, Wiku..." Riku just rubs his head and nods while yawning. Sora yawns as well as he makes a pillow out of Riku's stomach. Sora places Riku's thump in his mouth and starts to fall asleep. Rubbing his eyes, Riku replaces his thump with Sora's own thump. After making sure Sora was okay, Riku puts the thump Sora was sucking on, in his mouth falling asleep himself. Aerith comes into check on the noise when spotting Riku and Sora asleep on the rug. Without getting mad, Aerith places a blanket over them with a smile.

R I K U

Six year old Riku stays quiet while he colors a nice picture of him and Sora. He draws himself playing tag with the younger boy. After picking up the red for more flowers, Sora tackles him from behind. "Ehyaa!! Sora!! Why'd you–?" Sora laughs at his older friend before only paying attention to the drawing. "Wiku what's that?" Riku sighs and pokes Sora's nose. "It's RI-KU….and it's me and you playing tag." Sora just nods and picks up a color. "You forgot the sun!" Drawing a not so good sun on the corner of the page. "See?!" Riku smiles and nods at his friend. "Yeah my mistake."

Sora walks over to the window and sighs. "Wi – I mean Riku... when can I be able to go to the island like you?" Riku looks out of the window and shakes his head.

"You can't your not big enough..." Sora turns to look at Riku with a large pout.

"Yeah well you can't go either!!" Riku frowns and yells back.

"Yes I can, because I'm older than you by this much!!" He shows his age with his fingers. Sora stares and tries to count them, and before Riku knew it he was crying and running to Aerith. Aerith sighs and picks up Sora.

"Shh... Shh... Riku!! Go to the naughty corner..." Riku frowns and places his colors down walking over to the corner which was close the coat closet. He didn't mind for the corner was also close to the window, if he moved the red curtains.

A few minutes passed and Sora started to feel bad for making his best friend go to the corner. He picks up his cookie and walks over to Riku. "Wiku are you mad at me?" Riku, who was just standing there looking out the window, smiles and shakes his head no. Sora smiles back and shows his cookie. "Here have this!" Riku blinks and takes the cookie.

"Why give this to me?" Sora stands in the corner with him. "If you stay here any longer you will miss snack time..." Riku smiles and breaks the cookie in half, leaving Sora with a slightly bigger piece. "Here, you have some too." Sora smiles and takes it, only running back to his table to get the milk. They stayed there until it was time to go.

Riku was shocked as he played with the green train. He looked at his father smiling at him from the window. Aerith smiled and yelled, "Riku time for you to go!" Riku turns from his spot where he and Sora were playing with the trains. "Okay Miss Aerith... bye Sora..." Sora pouts then making it go away after Riku kisses his cheek. Waving his goodbyes to Sora and Aerith, Riku walks with his father to the car. He opens the door and sits in his booster seat.

"Papa, where's mommy?" The father just smiles and turns to look at Riku. "Mother has a new job! She's working at the hospital now as a nurse…"

Riku buckles his seat belt and nods. "Okay daddy..."

As they made it home Riku felt his stomach turn for an unknown reason. Riku ignores it while walking up the stairs to put his stuff away. After a few hours his father calls him down. Riku just finished another drawing for Sora. They were both on the island playing and having fun. He even remembered to put a sun just for Sora. Making his way down the last stair, Riku walks into the living room. The father smiles and pats his lap. Riku walks over and takes a seat.

"Is there something you need daddy?" The father smirks and kisses Riku's cheeks.

"Why yes but you need to be quiet for Daddy okay?" He whispers softly in Riku's ear. Riku shudders a little not used to the hot breath on his ear.

"Okay, what do I do?" The father starts to undo Riku's pants and lays him down. "Now, just be quiet okay..." Riku blinks and that weird feeling in his stomach comes back again. The father places his index finger in his mouth making it wet. He places the finger at Riku's entrance slowly penetrating him. Riku fidgets only a little with the alien type of feeling. "Dad, what are you–"

The father laughs only a little while moving his finger in and out. "Don't worry, this is all I can do for now. " He smiles and kisses Riku's lips. "But wait until you get older..." Riku frowns as the feeling starts to feel weirder and weirder. "Now Riku don't tell mommy about this okay..." Riku nods and looks to the side.

Sai comes home tired and beat she walks into Riku's room. "Sweetie? Are you home?" Riku looks up from another drawing and runs to her.

"Mommy! You're home!" She smiles and kisses her son on the crown.

"Yes dear, now what would you like to eat?" Riku thinks about it and smiles.

"May mommy make hamburgers?" Sai nods and walks out. "Sure thing love..."

Riku walks back to his desk and finishes his picture of Sora smiling. He smiles and places the picture in a folder his mother gave him to place all artwork in. After all, Riku was really good at art considering his age. He'd draw anything that made him happy, sad, mad, anything like that. The mother just didn't know Riku drew what went on in the living room with father dearest. Luckily it was only a finger away.

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Okay yeah... I really don't know what to say after the story like this but yeah. Umm... well Ohh may you please click the little purple button and tell me what you think or if you have any questing.

If so, I'll try to answer them the best way I can.

Ohh and Thank you Anti-Form Sora for being my new Beta, you better love her!