TITLE: Forgiveness

AUTHOR: Alimoo1971

RATING: R

SPOILERS: One hundred days, Shadows of Grey

CATEGORY:

PAIRINGS: Jack & Sam

SUMMARY: Jack hurts Sam and she transfers to area 51 after Jack leaves for Endora. When he returns, Jack tries to get Sam back to the SGC and ask her for forgiveness.

ARCHIVE: SJD, Yes. S/J NC17 Fanfic Archive, Fan fiction

DISCLAIMER: OK, don't own characters. Made this story up, didn't make any money out of it, yada, yada, you know the rest.

FEED BACK: Yes, Please.

NOTES: I was thinking about this story, so I decided to write it.

SONGS:

Chapter 1

The day before Jack left for Endora, Sam went to see General Hammond in his office. She couldn't believe what Colonel O'Neill had said and done in the past few days. Ever since he returned from Endora two weeks ago, he had been giving his team the cold shoulder and had been snapping at them, especially Sam.

It got to the point where Sam left the base early at night, so she didn't have to go to the mess hall for supper. Or she didn't eat at all, skipping meals by locking herself in her lab so she wouldn't see Jack at all when he was on the base.

When they did see each other, Sam would try not to look at him. It got to the point where she couldn't handle Jack's behavior anymore. So, Sam decided to leave the SGC and transferred to area fifty-one. She took a deep breath and knocked on the General's door.

"Come."

Sam opened the door and walked in, closing the door behind her. Then she stood in front of General Hammond. He looked up to see Sam walking into his office and closing the door behind her.

"Major, what can I do for you?" Sam passed him the letter.

"I'm requesting a transfer to area fifty-one, sir." General Hammond looked at Sam in shock.

"May I ask why, Major?"

"I… I need the change, sir. You know that the area fifty-one scientist have been asking for my help for weeks, sir." Hammond let out his breath. He knew the real reason she wanted the transfer.

"Sam,… what is the real reason?"

"Sir?" She looked at him.

"Sit down… please." Sam sat down, looking at the General.

"Sam, I read the reports about Endora, the way the Colonel treated you and the rest of the team, and then what happened a few days ago.… Why now?"

"I heard Colonel O'Neill and Colonel Makepeace talking, sir."

"About what?"

"Colonel O'Neill retiring… and returning to… Endora. I heard him say that he wanted to leave to… get away form all of us… from… me."

Sam tried to hold back her tears, but one escaped. She managed to wipe it away with her hand. General Hammond knew that Sam and Jack loved each other, but they couldn't be together because of the regs. He also knew the real reason that Jack was acting the way he was.

He knew Jack was baiting Colonel Makepeace, since he'd been seen with Colonel Mayborne a couple of times, in the past three months. He also knew Makepeace had been passing information to Mayborne.

He could see how it upset Sam to hear what Jack said. Knowing it wasn't true, he knew he would have to try to convince Sam to stay at the SGC until the mission has been accomplished.

"Is that why you want the transfer… to leave here? You love it here."

"To many memories…. Sir… I want a fresh start."

"Sam."

"Sir, please.… I don't want you to make me choose."

"Choose what?" He frowned.

"Transfer or quit. I'd rather transfer, sir."

"Are you sure about this?"

"Yes…. At least I can work on the X301 project that I helped design, sir."

"Sam, please stay."

"Sir, I'm sorry. I don't think I can handle it anymore. The way everyone looks at me, talking behind my back."

"Well… OK, but only for two months. In that time, I want you to think things over. Then, if you still want to stay, so be it, but you might be needed back here if there are any problems."

"I understand, sir."

"Sam, I hate to lose you. You're the best scientist we've got when it comes to the stargate."

"There are others here, sir."

"None of them built the computer programs. Only you know the programs."

"Others know what to do, sir."

"Your not going to give up, are you?"

"No, sir."

"OK, for two months."

"Thank you, sir." Sam stood up and walked to the door. She opened it, then turned to the General.

"I'll have everything sorted out by the end of the day, sir."

"Are you coming in tomorrow?" Sam shook her head.

"No, sir. I'll be busy getting things sorted out at home. I'll be leaving for area fifty-one the next morning."

"Very well. If you change your mind..."

"I won't. Good-bye, General. It has been an honor working with you." She stood at attention and saluted, which he did in return. Then she turned around and walked out the door closing it behind her.

General Hammond sat there in shock. He wanted to tell Sam what was really going on, but he knew he couldn't. He knew he had no choice. He hoped that Jack could find out who was behind the thefts of their allies devices as well as the moles who were at the SGC, so that the alliances could be saved. And he hoped Jack did it soon, so everyone would know what was going on and then he could try to get Sam back to the SGC and back onto SG1.

That evening Sam was at home packing everything she needed to take with her. She told Daniel, Teal'c, and Janet about the transfer. Sam sat down on the couch with tears in her eyes remembering what happened that afternoon in her lab. Daniel and Teal'c walked in to see Sam packing things up.

"Sam, what's going on?"

"I've requested a transfer to area fifty-one."

"What?" Daniel said in shock just as Janet walked in.

"What's going on?"

"Sam's leaving."

"Sam?"

She stopped and looked at them, her friends.

"Sorry, guys. After what's been happening the past few weeks…. Anyways, I'll come and visit."

"Sam, is it because of what Jack said to you yesterday?"

"Yes… no. I just needed to get out of here for a while."

"Sam?"

"Daniel, you're not going to change my mind, so drop it." She looked at him with a cold look. Then she turned and carried on packing.

"Major Carter, you will be sadly missed."

"Thanks, Teal'c. If you all will excuse me, I've got work to do before leaving."

"Sam, what about Cassie?"

"I'll call."

They watched Sam as she continued working and packing. So, they walked out, leaving her alone, not knowing that tears were falling down her cheeks.

Sam stood up from the couch as she wiped her tears away. Then she carried on packing. Sam packed all night, since she was putting everything into storage. She was going to be staying on the base for the first two months. Then, after that, she didn't know if she'd be staying there or transfer back to the Mountain.

The next morning, the trucks showed up. They put everything into the trucks, including her car. After they left, the real estate guy showed up because she called him the day before. She decided to put her house up for sale. Once Sam signed all the papers, the guy left just as an air force car showed up.

Sam picked up her bags and walked down to the car. She passed them to the airman who put her bags into the trunk. Then, Sam got into the backseat looking at the house she lived in for three and half years. The airman got in the driver's seat.

"Where to, ma'am?"

"The post office."

"Yes, ma'am."

Then, he started the car up and he drove to the post office, where Sam sorted out her mail. She would have it go to a post office box for the time being. When finished, there were a couple of other places the airman took her. Then they went to Peterson Air Force Base, where she caught a plane to area fifty-one.

While Sam was sorting out things in town, Jack was called into General Hammond's office.

"Jack, I hate to tell you this, but Sam is gone."

"Sir, what do you mean gone…. Kidnapped?"

"Transferred. After what has happened in the past few weeks and she overheard you talking with Colonel Makepeace the other day."

"Shit." He sat down with his elbows on his knees. He had his hands over his face and then ran them through his hair.

"Where?"

"Area fifty-one. I tried to get her to change her mind."

"You let her go?"

"I'm sorry, Jack."

"Damn-it! Mayborne and the others are going to pay for this, sir. I didn't want to hurt her… them."

"I know."

"I want to tell them, but..."

"I know son…. Look, concentrate on this mission, then we will find a way of getting Sam back.… Whatever it takes."

"Whatever it takes…. Great."

"I know you care about Sam."

Jack looked at him.

"Sir?"

"I'm not dumb. We will sort things out when you return."

"Well, Thor will owe me big time after this."

"I'm sure he can help."

"Yeah. I'd better get going." He stood up and picked up his bag.

"The sooner this mission is over with, the better."

Jack opened the door and walked out of the office, with Hammond behind him. They walked down to the gate room, where Jack looked at Teal'c and Daniel as the wormhole formed.

Jack turned and look at General Hammond before he turned and walked up the ramp. Then he stepped through the gate. Then it shut down. Hammond turned and watched Daniel and Teal'c walk out of the gate room with everyone else. He soon followed and walked back to his office... and back to work.

When Sam's plane landed and she got off with her bags, an airman walked over to her.

"Major Carter, will you follow me please and may I carry your bags for you?"

"Thank- you, airman."

Sam passed him her bags, then followed him to a waiting car. Sam got in the backseat while the airman put her bags in the trunk. Then he got in and drove to area fifty-one. When they got there, another airman showed Sam to the Colonel's office where she spoke to him for a few minutes. Then she was shown to her quarters. Once her bags were in her room, she was shown to the labs where she worked for the rest of the day.

Over the next four weeks, Sam kept herself busy with work. A week after she started at the base, she was called back to the SGC. So she got onto the waiting plane and headed to Colorado springs. When she got off the plane, Daniel and Teal'c were there to greet her. She gave them both a hug.

"Hi, guys!"

"Hi, Sam. We missed you."

"I've missed you guys, too."

"Come on. Let's get going."

Sam picked up her duffle bag and walked with the guys over to the SUV and got in. They talked on the way to the base. Daniel told Sam how things had been while she was away.

"Janet's got the day off, Sam. She doesn't know your in town."

"OK. How are things working out with Colonel Makepeace?"

"OK. But he's not Jack." Daniel looked at Sam when he mention Jack's name. He saw the sad look on her face.

"Sam, are you OK?"

"Yeah, I will be."

"You know, somethings wrong. Things don't add up."

"What do you mean?"

"Well, if Jack's gone to live on Endora..."

"Daniel, I don't..."

"Sam, please."

"Sorry."

"Sam, if Jack was leaving for good, why hasn't he sold all his things and his house?" Sam thought about it and looked at Daniel.

"Are you saying he left everything the way it was?"

"Yes, and what else is strange is that if he was leaving for good, why did he have his video on time record for the Simpson's? And he's still having the kid across the road mow his grass…. It doesn't add up."

"How do you know all of this?"

"I drove passed his house two days ago. I spoke to the kid. He said Jack gave him three months in advance to mow the lawn and asked him to collect his mail for him." Sam thought about what Daniel said until they reached the base.

They got out, walked to the elevators, and headed down to level twenty-eight. When the doors opened, Sam stepped out.

"Sam, go and put your bags in the VIP quarters."

"Thanks guys." Then the doors closed.

Sam walked down to the control room and said "hi" to the staff there before walking up the stairs to the briefing room. She smiled when she saw General Hammond talking to her father.

"Dad." He turned around and smiled. Sam walked over to him and gave him a hug. Then pulled back.

"How are you, Sam?"

"I'm OK." Then she turned to the General.

"Sir."

"Welcome back Major."

"Thanks, Sir. So, what seems to be the problem?"

"The tok'ra found a device. They asked me to bring it here and they want you to look at it in your lab."

"OK. Sir, how long do you need me here for?"

"Three days. There are other devices that the other scientist can't work out."

"OK. Well, I'd better go and change."

"Your BDUs are in your room."

"Thanks, sir." Then she turned to her father.

"Meet you in the lab then, Dad."

"Sure thing kiddo." Then she turned around and walked down the stairs. Jacob looked at his old friend.

"She's lost weight."

"I know. Colonel Smith has been keeping me up to date on her. He's worried about her. She's been working non-stop since she's been there and she's been sleeping four to five hours a night. She's been skipping meals."

"Just like here."

"That's not all, the Colonel walked passed her quarters two nights ago.… He heard her crying."

"Crying?"

"Yes, but she doesn't let her emotions interfere with her work."

"Well, from what you told me about what's been going on, Jack's got a lot of grovelling to do."

"I know…, but since Sam's not on SG1 or working here, well, it might give them a window of opportunity to get together."

"I hope your right, George. I still can't believe that people from our own government would do this to both the Asgard and the Tollen people. I hope Jack finds the ones who are behind it and soon."

"Same here."

"Well, I'd better go. Talk to you later George."

"Sure." Then they went their separate ways.