Here's the sequel my wonderful readers!
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Okay, okay...now read...:)
Now I know Kgirl used this song but, just to make sure...I'm not copying her. It's just a good song and it fits the situation. M'kay?
Tezz POV
It has been 2 years, 730 days, 17,520 hours, and approximately 63,072,000 seconds since we left Kerstin in a battle zone to explode, she probably thought we left her because…we didn't care about her. She already had to deal with that before she came to Handler's Corners.
We left her…
And I blamed Vert
Yes, I blamed him for something that wasn't his fault. It wasn't his, Sage's, Sherman's, Spinner's, Stanford's, Agura's, Zoom's, mine, or Kerstin's fault.
It was no one's fault.
So I couldn't say it was my fault that it happened, and I couldn't blame any other person for the one and only person I will ever love's death.
And I can admit that I have gotten more and more easier to anger. But, my teammates have not gotten short with me…yet. They know what I'm going through and are extremely nice…a little too nice.
But Stanford actually let me use his Ipod. He's never been so nice.
I scrolled through his songs trying to find one that fit how I was feeling, because I heard some songs can fit your personality or your mood or what you might be going through. I stopped at one song: Vanilla Twilight. (A/N: Don't own the song…Owl City does.)
I closed my eyes as I laid in my bed, with the lights turned off.
The stars lean down to kiss you, and I lie awake and miss you.
Poor me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
'hmmm...' I thought to myself, eyes still closed.
Cause I doze off safe and soundly, but I'll miss your arms around me.
I'd s.end a postcard to you dear, cause I wish you were here.
Amazing, it's already matching my terrible circumstance.
I'll watch the night turn light blue, but it's not the same without you.
Because it takes two to whisper quietly.
Stanford actually has good music…I'm shocked...and I'm a genius.
The silence isn't so bad, 'til I look at my hands and feel sad, cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly.
I'll find repose in new ways, though I haven't slept in two days, cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
Nostalgia…yeah, that fits me perfectly.
But drenched in vanilla twilight, I'll sit on the front porch all night, waist deep in thought because when I think of you…
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I let out a tired breath, for 2 years…I've been alone.
As many times as I blink, I'll think of you…tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.
I can't get her out of my mind…
When violet eyes get brighter, and heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
That will only happen if I find Kerstin.
And I'll forget the world that I knew, but I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I whisper in your ear, "Oh darling I wish you were here."
I wanted to cry at the last part, but I couldn't, I've cried so much I can't cry anymore.
"Kerstin, I am so sorry…I hope you're alive so I can kiss you and hold you again."
Vert POV
2 long years…2 long years since we abandoned Kerstin.
And 2 long years since Tezz has been…nice, or the way he was when Kerstin was alive…or with us, she could be alive, I'm still hanging on to the thread of hope. Praying she might be alive, so we can ask her for forgiveness and Tezz can be happy again.
I feel it's mostly my fault.
Flashback
"Not as much as I do." Tezz choked up.
"Tezz, we have to…we-we-have to remember her and never forget her." I said strongly, even though I was crying.
Tezz looked at me angrily. "Are you saying that I would forget her?" I shook my head. "It's YOUR FAULT…" He spat.
It was my turn to get angry. "My fault? It's nobodies fault Tezz!" I looked him right in the eye. "How could you blame me? It was the ONLY thing ANYONE could do! It was either bring her back and kill everything within 3 states or leave her there and protect everyone." I said dangerously low. "Did you want everyone here in Handler's Corners to die Tezz? Cause it sure sounded like it!" I yelled, barely above a whisper.
"Not everyone." I looked at him weirdly. "You couldn't save everyone." And with that, he punched me it the nose. I heard a crack, and groaned. He began to walk to his vehicle.
"You didn't have to brake my nose Tezz! We're ALL dealing with grief too!" I yelled at him, still clutching my broken, bloodied nose. That's when everyone who was watching us argue ran over to me.
"Vert, are you okay-no, never mind." Agura said, looking at the bloodstain on my battle suit. It might be red, but you can still see blood on it. "Come on Vert, lets get you to Sage, she'll fix up that nose in no time." She pat my back.
"You do know it's broken right?" She nodded, her face was still streaked with tears that were still falling.
"Yeah, but…you know what I mean." She sobbed. "I can't believe this happened."
I carefully wiped the blood covering my nose on my arm and made sure I didn't mess up my nose even more. I hugged her, and then everyone else decided to join in. I sniffled. "We need to talk to Tezz."
End of flashback
Now Tezz will barely talk to us, he won't come out of his room(only to use the bathroom and eat), and he hasn't went into a battle zone for over a week, and there's been at least 5
or 6 storm shocks.
And seriously, I don't know what to do. And I'm the leader!
We try not to talk about Kerstin because it makes us sad and full of remorse. So we don't really mention anything having to do with her…which is extremely difficult, so we just try not to think about her, I know that's terrible but, we can't keep crying, and that probably seems just as terrible, but she wouldn't want us like this.
That worked for everyone except Tezz, he just said "she would want us to remember her and think about her." But how could we? Every time anyone of us would think of her, we would cry…and let me tell you, it doesn't help at all.
We miss her as much as Tezz…
But he obviously doesn't see it…
Tezz POV
I wish I had never punched Vert, because of my stupid actions, I'm going to have to apologize. And trust me, I don't like doing that.
I turned off Stanford's Ipod and pulled my sheets over my chest. It might be exactly 2:37pm, but I could take a nap, that was all I usually do since…never mind, I prefer not to talk about her…
I closed my eyes as a soft knock was heard outside my bedroom door. Then a voice was heard. "Tezz?" It was Zoom.
"What is it?" I said, my voice sounded tired, exasperated and frustrated. "What?" I said again, when there was a long silence.
"Sage has tracked something in a battle zone, it keeps jumping from zone to zone…like it's trying to find something." Zoom said, his voice had a hint of hope and excitement in it.
My eyes flew open, and I jumped out of bed, then clothed myself.
Could it be? Is she really alive?
Ehhhh...too short...but I had to end this chapter like that...and I had nothing else to type...
Anyway...R&R!
Oh and the next chap will HOPEFULLY be longer... XDDD