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Uncertainty

Chapter one.

So it was all going so well for Emily. She had met a new man, the thoughts of being alone for the rest of her life never thought about anymore. It was already 3 months in and he didn't even mind the hours she worked, said it made there relationship more interesting and that they would want each other more when they were together. Which made Emily very happy. She knew he properly wouldn't always feel that way, they never did, but he just seemed so like mister right she didn't care, she had hope it was going to last, that maybe it was finally her time.

The team had figured she was seeing someone and after a lot of badgering she finally agreed to introduce him to them. They were very overly keen to meet him, especially JJ and Garcia as he seemed to be making her very happy, she had a very obvious spring in her step.

So the arrangements were made, the team had the weekend off and they were all going to meet him Saturday night at Riley's bar, it was the bar closest to all the team.

So the team waited eagerly at the bar, Hotch maybe a little more than the others, he had had strong feelings for his friend and co-worker for a while now, but he could never act on those feelings. She was his subordinate after all. It would destroy both of there careers! The new couple arrived, hoping they were there before the others, but they weren't and they spotted the team, Garcia, Morgan, Hotch, Rossi JJ and of course the young DR. Reid. They headed over to them and they all said 'Hi'.

"So introductions" Emily pointed out the team to her lover. "OK, the boss, Aaron Hotchner, then there's Dave Rossi, Derek Morgan, JJ, Spencer Reid and Penelope Garcia….and everyone this is Dylan Miller!" she smiled and sat down next to Hotch who had left her a space, Dylan sat next to her providing a block between her and her boss. Hotch was a little fearful he had spotted the jealousy in his eyes and had sat there on purpose. But he hadn't.

The night went really well everyone seemed to like him, except Hotch, which really pissed her off as she respected his opinion so when he made his excuses to leave she followed him out of the bar

"Hotch wait up" she called after him

He turned to face her, but actually looked at the car keys in his hand and not her face, she was a profiler she was bound to see his feelings written all over his face "What's up?"

"Hotch, you know I really respect your opinion, what do you make of him?"

"A little to good to be true" he snapped still not looking at her.

"Yeah maybe…but I have to give him a chance…right?" she was looking for a bit of moral support from her friend and boss, but he wouldn't even look at her, she wasn't sure what was wrong "Hotch are you ok?"

"No…" he snapped slightly but managed to keep it cool and looked at her "It's just…." he trailed off. She walked closer to him and his car and leaned on the bonnet

"It's just what?"

"You shouldn't be with this man…I don't know him, but he isn't right for you!" he was avoiding eye contact with her. She was hurt by his words, he hadn't even give Dylan a chance!

"What, who are you to say that, you don't know him, plus you never even gave him a chance tonight, you hardly said two words and when you did you were laying into him. He may not of noticed but I did" she said this calmly but Hotch knew he had pissed her off with his outburst, why didn't he keep his mouth shut.

"I know I'm sorry" he again looked down to his keys…he needed to go home before he said or did something he would regret, he hated rejection.

"What's going on Hotch? You have been acting weird lately with me, have I done something wrong?" she placed a hand on his arm and immediately felt him tense up at her touch

"No, not at all"

"Then what is it?" she looked at him forcing him to make eye contact. He looked at her deeply and moved closer to her, he knew he shouldn't, but he had to, he needed to, really needed too he placed both hands upon her face and kissed her, quite forcefully. Pinning her to the car. But she responded, she didn't reject him. The kiss become very passionate very quickly. They had to separate to catch there breath, then she had realised what she was doing. She had just kissed her boss. She never knew he felt this way.

"I'm sorry, I have to go. Right now" he said, then he got into his car and drove off. He knew she had to process this information, she was with someone after all and he didn't have her down as a cheat, so he left her to return to the gathering and think about the feelings her boss had just expressed to her.

She really wasn't sure what to make of this situation, she pretty much sat in silence until her and Dylan left. The others asked if she was all right and she told them she'd just had a little to much to drink, with that notion Dylan suggested they leave.

When they got back to his apartment, she couldn't get Hotch out of her head. She went to Dylan's kitchen, to grab a glass of water.

"You okay? You've gotten really quite"

"Yeah fine" she put the glass down and walked towards him on the couch in the living room. She straddled him and kissed him deeply

"Hey what's got into you?" he asked a little confused, she hadn't been this forward before, he made all the moves on her, now she was on his lap kissing him and grinding against him.

"Nothing" she replied and continued to kiss him. He picked her up by the hips and took her to his bed. The whole time they were making love she had Aaron Hotchner in her mind, which made her panic. They had barely even finished when she got out of the bed and got dressed.

"Where are you going?" Dylan was very confused she was so hot and now so cold.

"I have to leave" she turned and looked at him "I'm sorry" and with that she left his apartment and got a cab back to her place. Dylan had drove to the bar so her car was in parking space still. She got into her apartment and had a cold shower and tried to shake the thoughts of Hotch form her mind. She paced her apartment. Since when had he felt this way about her? Why now? When she was with someone! She was getting more and more pissed off at what had happened and the idea of driving over to his and having it out with him was getting more and more tempting. After about an hour of pacing and talking to herself, she made the decision to go round there before she drove herself crazy trying to figure out what was going on with him. Even though she said to the others she was drunk, she actually hadn't had a drop of alcohol all night, she had stuck to coke all night, but luckily the others were pretty drunk and never noticed her lie.

So she jumped in her car and headed out. If he thought for one second she was going to let him do this to her and leave her hanging, he had another thing coming.