Astrid POV
I thought today was a peacful day, but I was proved very wrong...
It all started when i had that idea... That dunb idea to see what Hiccup does when his dad is out on an expadition to find the nest.
I was talking to Fishlegs, Snotlout, and the twins like I always did, especially on days like this. Something caught my eye, and I couldnt help but wonder.
I saw Hiccup acting quite... well strange...
He was looking up at us like he always did, but this time, it seemed like bad vibes were comming from him.
He was looking up at us, hiding his face in his bangs, then looking at the ground.
As soon as I saw him, I thought, "I wonder what he does when his dad goes out serching for the nest?". I did the first thing i thought. When he walked away, ni dissmised myself from the conversation and followed him.
I saw him go in his hut, and i snuck in. I normally woudnt go inside, but i just had to know.
I tip-toed up to the loft and peaked throught the crack in the door. I had no idea what I was just about to witness.
Hiccup POV
I sat on my bed, my mind blank. I layed down to sleep, and the emty void took me. While I layed in my bed, the thoughts came. I had no way to stop them or black them out.
"they dont care about you"
"what they say is the truth, after all magority rules"
"They would be better off with out you"
The last thought hit me. i always knew that they didnt care, but as i thought, it sank in even more.
I was nothing, a nobody, some dissapointment. I should of had some huge dragon at the ent of my knife, but, I decided to turn the knife on myself all the time.
Every time I think of being usless, a waste of space, anything like that, i get cut.
I thought of endsing my life several times, yet each time i do, it hits me harder. And I was finally going to do it.