Chapter one.
I'm in hell. No joke hell. My life used to be perfect: perfect life, perfect school, and perfect boyfriend. Life was close to peachy. Sure mom was still addicted but she was getting better and sure my dad hated me but hell! Beck made it all better. Until sheshowed up. This girl waltzes in to Hollywood arts kisses my boyfriend and thinks that she can just do that. Problem is she cant.
Any way. I was brooding at lunch one day sitting at the table watching her laughing at Andre. Beck came with his burger and slid into the seat next to me. He kissed my cheek and said "Hey babe! What's shaken bacon?" I glared at him and he laughed and started talking to her. "So Tori how do you like the school?"
"I love it! Its so much fun and every one is so nice! Well almost everyone." This last bit was directed at me. She looked hurt and I felt a pang in my gut. Scowling I turned to my burrito. I shouldn't feel guilt, in fact I shouldn't even care. But I did and I hated myself for that hurt look in her big brown cow eyes. I shook my head and turned to Beck. He smiled and leaned in to kiss me.
At first I felt a tingle start where our lips met. That same tingle traveled down my spine and made me get excited if you know what I mean. But then…. well we'll get to the then. I pulled back starring at him in surprise. He looked just as shocked as I was but he shook it off and went back to the conversation. I, however, stared down at my food not hungry any more.
I stood up and hiked my bag up my shoulder. I turned and threw the rest of my food away and the walked back inside. Beck, unfortunately, followed. "Babe what's wrong?" He grabbed my arm and turned me towards him. I looked up into those black holes of eyes and wished he was someone else.
"No! I wont think like that! I don't like them! I love Beck!"
Noyoudon'tyoulovethemasyoucallit.Youknowyoudo!
"But I don't I don't!" I screamed and with that I collapsed.
~Linebreak~
I opened my eyes to find my self lying in a cot like thing. The room I was in was too bright and somewhere some one was yelling about being high in the hallways. I groaned and grabbed my head.
"Easy Jade you took quite a fall." My eyes flew shut it couldn't be. Not here. It couldn't be who I thought.
"No. Please leave me be." I whimpered as I felt a cool hand on my head and I could have cried. This wasn't who I wanted here. This wasn't who I needed now.
"Jade, babe, listen. its ok. Your just a little stressed out right now. Its ok. Here." Beck said as he put his arms around me. I felt to weak to fight him. Suddenly I felt my stomach heave. I jumped out of his arms and ran to the bathroom. I leaned over the toilet and heaved. Some one pulled my black and green hair away from my face. I vomited again and lay against the seat gasping. A cool hand touched my forehead and stroked my hair. I sighed and closed my eyes.
"Beck what's wrong with her?" I knew I should know that voice but my sick brain couldn't place it and the cool hands where muddling my thoughts.
"I don't know. She started screaming and then she collapsed and I was holding her and she just kinda lost it. She ran in here and puked."
"Yes a gathered that last bit thank you. Poor Jade." The speaker sighed and I could tell both they and Beck where looking at me. The cool hands where combing my hair now and I sighed. This felt so good.
Itshould.Youlovethem.Youknowyoudo!
"No I don't." I murmured.
YesyoudoJade.Yesyoudo.
"No stop please I don't like them." My voice was getting weaker and I could feel bile rising up in my throat. The hands in my hair stopped moving and I felt them leave. panic filled me I reached out and caught them.
"Jade? What's wrong? Talk to us. Come on Jade." I sifted weekly and spoke in a voice barley a whisper.
"It wont shut the fuck up! I keeps telling me I love them but I don't. I don't." And suddenly I was sobbing my voice rising hysterically. "I don't I don't!" I screamed. Someone grabbed me and held me close. My black makeup smeared across their shirt and I sobbed harder. I felt something pinch my arm and I swirled into black oblivion.
~LineBreak~
Tori's POV
I stood out side waiting for Beck. My new blouse which had blue flowers on it was covered in makeup. Black makeup no less. God I didn't understand what had gotten into Jade. She had been acting really weird. Screaming that she didn't love them. I wondered who them was. It would be interesting to find out. But I almost didn't want to. Jade had always hated me and it hurt a lot. I carried this big secret around every day: I was bi and I liked Jade. But I couldn't tell any one. They would laugh and they would tell her and she would make my life a living hell. And I'm sorry hell is a pretty crappy place to live.
A door opened and I looked over to see Beck come out. "Beck!" I called. "How is she? What's wrong?"
"She's resting and the nurse said she can drive in an hour and that she can go home like normal. The nurse thinks she's just stressed or scared and you know Jade. She laughed at being told she was scared." We both smiled for a minute. Then Beck turned and walked away. I sighed and leaned against my car door.
I turned to the little black Ford Focus. I climbed in the drivers seat and started the engine. I glanced back at the building and saw Jade walking outside. I sighed. She would never love me.