Okayy so this is a story about Bella and edward. Please please Read and review!!!

Summary: After Edward leaves in New moon. Bella loses control, and needs help years later. edward never returned to her. :O) what happens when she gets to the physchologists. (spellcheck??) to talk about how when Edward left she tried to keep herself together for him, how she lost control, and started cutting herself, and pretty soon decided to starve herself, and even attempted suicide, because Edward left. When she gets there, can she really talk about how much pain she was in to the angel who puts her through the pain? Can she really do that? Or will she chicken out? Will Edward and Bella get back together. (lets hope so!!)

It's been two years since my nightmare. My angel left me. I tried my best to keep myself together but i couldn't forever. Pretty soon i gave up, and that's when my life went to Hell. Charlie tried sending me to Renee's but i wouldn't go. no never will i leave Fork's this is where all our memories are. I can't leave behind what little of him i have left! Doesn't he understand that? Ofcourse not! He will never understand.

I graduated high school last year. I work at a Diner that just opened up in fork's. I don't talk much, i work in the kitchen. I'm a cook. (A/N: nooooo...... what a shock! Work in a kitchen and your a cook? who would of figured that?)

I was in my room, at the apartment i am now living in. I was waiting on hold to make an appointment to see a therapist. "Yes we have a spot open for tomorrow at 2:00 pm. will that be fine?" the secretary asked. "Yes that will be fine, thank you." I said in a sincere, voice. Then hung up.

After two years of hell i finally decided it was time to make some changes. No more sulking, and wishing for him to come back to me. I now know that he is NEVER coming back. Because he doesn't love me. Never did. I can live with that........ as long asi don't think about it...... or say,hear or think his name. Yeah yah see? I'm perfectly fine. I don't even need a therapist.

But i'm going to..... so Charlie will quit nagging me about it. He has been coming over here and sitting on my couch watching my TV, eating my food. And nagging me about how out of it i was. And how i need help. Well now Charlie will leave me alone. =] Something to smile about. Don't get me wrong, i love my middle-aged father. Just not his nagging side. I like him alot better when he keeps to himself. Like he used to do...... those were the days.

Ding! Ding! Ding! i went to the oven to get my food out. Pizza. Yum........... I got it out, and cut it into slices. I didn't have anyone to share it with. Not even a pet. I was alone........ forever and always. I ate about three slices, then put the rest up for later. I probably wouldn't eat it anyways, but just incase. I then walked to the bathroom, and almost fell over......

This bathroom.... had a lot of memories, i moved out before i even graduated. And this bathroom.... is where i attempted my suicide. But Charlie found me before i could escape, hell. My hell, life with out...... him. But i just swallowed the knot in my throat, and quickly got undressed and stepped into the shower, where the hot water made contatct with my skin, instantly relieving me of most of my stress.

I stayed in there for about an hour. I do that alot, i always forget about how long i'm actually in there. But it kills time. I got redressed in a pair or snowman pajama pants, and a snowman cotton tank top shirt. I then pulled out of my hair dryer, and dried my hair to close to dry, too lazy to finish the job, i then brushed it out, and pulled it into a lose ponytail.

I walked to the kitchen and got a glass of water, then went to bed...... I dreamed about tomorrow....... Edward was involved of course he was always in my dreams. Staring role everynight.

OKayy so please review review review!!!!! oh and check out my other stories!!! they rock too. :P also here is a preview of chapter two.

"Hello, i'm , and i will be your the-." He stopped mid sentence, and i almost ran out of there once i saw my angel. I turned around quickly and began to walk out. This could not be happening. "Wait!" He called after me, grabbing my wrist, i winced.

Well there was chapter 2 preview!!!! REview if you want to know what happens!!!!!!!