I was feeling a little down and well upset as well and decided to write my feelings in this seeing as I do feel like England in this from time to time however I don't act like him - Doesn't own Hetalia however wishes that I did

The rain poured down on them as well as the battlefield, England and America stood facing each other on opposites sides of the battlefield, England had battled hard to keep America however no matter what he or his men did America was winning this war, England wasn't going to let America leave him, He didn't want America to leave him alone he loved America too much to let America leave him now not now.

"Hey Britain all I want is my freedom!"America shouted over the thunder and lightning that came he wanted England to understand that he was getting his freedom no matter what "I am no longer a child nor your little brother, from now on consider me independent" America shouted

England tighten his grip on his gun before running at America, hitting the blade on the end of his gun on the side of America's gun and forcing it out of America's hands. When seeing England raised his gun and have it pointed at him he looked little shocked however had to stay strong for his country's "I won't allow it, you idiot why can't you follow things to the end" England says having his gun pointed at America. The American soldiers aimed their guns at England ready to shoot if they needed to.

America stared at England, his eyes wide "There's no way I can shoot you, I can't" England says dropping his gun and falling to his knees a hand came over England's face "Why, damit why" England cried tears falling to the ground "Its not fair" America watched England almost feeling sorry for him "You know why, what happened" America said with sadness in his voice "I remember when you used to be so great"

The Americans started to walk away cheering as they started to walk away knowing that they had won, America stood there watching England for a moment before walking away. England looked up tears still falling "Don't leave, please don't leave" England cried holding his hand out not wanting America to leave

England shot up breathing heavily sweat falling from his face, he for the past week kept having that nightmare as England would put it, he knew why he kept having the same nightmare for the past week seeing as it was coming up to America's birthday, today was the 4th July and well England wasn't wanting to deal with this day so he would do something that he normal did on this day. It was about 4 in the morning so he figured that he wouldn't be able to sleep anymore so there was no point in even trying to.

England just stared up at the ceiling wanting to go back to sleep however knew too well that he would end up having that nightmare again and he didn't want to deal with that again, he turned to lie on his side before bringing his hands to cover his face before crying. He would never or try crying in front of anyone seeing as that would make him seem weak to others so crying when he was alone seemed to be the best. He wanted it to end all the torment of this day many times had he thought about ending it all but in the end he couldn't find the strength to do so however he wanted this time to have the strength to finally put an end to his torment and anyway no one would care after all, everyone he had ever come to care about, even love had all left him in the end. "No matter how hard I tried, they all left, left me alone" England said quietly to himself tears fell down his face more than they had been before "No matter how hard I wished, I ended up alone in the end, I don't want to live this life alone no more"

England had received calls from America which England hadn't bothered to even answer seeing as he didn't even want to talk to America, he had gone out to do something that he normally did on the 4th July and that was to get completely hammered,

Where America was

America had a party going to celebrate his birthday as well as celebrating the day that he became independent, he tried to call England again however as like the others England had not picked the phone up and answered, the worried America seeing as England would have at least answered with his normal way of talking to him words such as "Git" or "Wanker" followed by "Leave me alone and stop texting or calling" well that depended on what America had done to talk to England.

America had spoken to France about it and well the same thing happened with him as well, both countries started to get slightly worried about England as well, America turned to look at Japan before telling him that he and France were going to go check on England.

"Ok America-san, I hope that England-san is ok" Japan says

"I'll make sure that he is, I'm the hero after all so it's my job to get Iggy out of trouble" America says happily before giving his signature smile "I'm going to need you to keep an eye on the party while me and France are away"

"I can do that America-san" Japan says

America nodded before going over to France and grabbing hold of his arm and dragging him out the door much to France's annoyance of that, France didn't necessarily want to be dragged out of the door "Amérique, je peux marcher par moi-même alors arrêtez de me glisser" France says more say that he said it in more of a half shouted angry tone of voice

"Dude where's the fun in that and as well as that we need to get to Iggy quickly as he might be in trouble" America says still pulling France.

Where England was

It was a few hours later that England returned home, he was not as drunk as he wanted to be however he was going to do this no matter what happened. He wanted to end it and now he would, he didn't care anymore. Knowing that countries could not die like humans could however it didn't mean that they couldn't die. England looked at the blade/knife that was lying on the side, he picked it up before smiling a little, he continued to look at it as if a child looking at a toy wanting to see what it would do.

England placed the knife down again before lifting his right sleeve up looking at his wrist, he lifted the knife up before bringing it up to his wrist, next thing England could feel was pain followed by something wet and warm fall down his arm from his wrist. The pain to England felt good, the pain that he had been hiding since that day it was all coming out, he moved to the other wrist doing the same. England stood for a moment before falling to his knees blood started covering the floor below him. England heard a sound of knocking on his door, England didn't think of it as anything dizziness was starting to take over. England picked up the blood covered knife, both hands on the knife before pushing it into his abdominal after that he pulled the knife out allowing himself to bleed out not caring anymore. He felt blood fall from the wounds, he started to get tired.

'You can sleep now, you don't need to worry anymore, just let go' a voice said in England's head

Translation

Amérique, je peux marcher par moi-même alors arrêtez de me glisser = America I can walk by myself so stop dragging me

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To be continued