I DON'T OWN ANYTHING! STEPHENIE MEYER DOES!
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What should I live for?
I asked myself that question everyday. Ever since he left, I'm just a hollow shell. Jake tries so hard to help me, but he cant. He never will be able to help me. I'm too far gone.
And with that thought, everything became clear.
Death. I could escape this all with one flick of a knife, one snap of the wrist with poison in the palm. One fall; and blackness would comfort me.
Charlie can take care of himself now that he has Sue, and Renee has Phil. Nobody would care, and if they did, they would forget. I'm not really that special, just like he said.
I wanted my suicide to be painful yet peaceful. I looked out the window and saw that their was raindrops beginning to fall. I looked to my left, and saw a blade from broken scissors. Perfect. I will die in the rain.
I grabbed the blade swiftly and rain out the door. I headed for the woods and once I got their I wandered aimlessly.
Thoughts swam through my head while I was walking in the mud.
Why were the scissors broken?
Did the other blade not want the one I'm carrying right now?
And now the blades that have separated are useless. Was HE useless like me? No, no, no he couldn't be. Probably out enjoying his distractions.
After about an hour of walking, I laid my head on a log and my body on the forest floor.
I looked at the sky briefly and then at the shining blade. The blade that would soon be covered in crimson. My crimson regret and hurt.
I picked up the blade with shaking hands, and then I heard a velvet voice in my head. I smiled.
"Bella, please, don't do this. To me. To us."
You left me, remember? Not the other way around. I whispered this. Afraid of the illusion going away.
"No." the voice was just a quiet breeze in the wind.
I put the blade directly over the pulsing vein on my wrist and slit. And at that moment two things happened.
A pink line appeared followed byred blood and Edward came through the trees looking slightly crazed.
"BELLA! NO!"
This wasn't an illusion. I knew. I knew he would try to stop me. Stop me from my sweet sorrow. Stop me from my pain.
I quickly used the blade on the other wrist before he snatched it from my hands and through it 15 miles into the woods in another direction.
Blood was pouring hot and fast through my chilling body.
"BELLA PLEASE! Stay with me! NOO! Bella no, no, no, NO!" his teeth went to my neck but I shook my head.
"No. Edward, don't."
"Why?! Bella I have to or you'll die. I cant live without you." his dark eyes blazed into mine.
"That's what I want. To die.", I could feel myself drifting into darkness. "I wont let you do something out of guilt."
And then my mind was black. But not before I heard a velvet howl.
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