...How is it possible...My life was perfect one minute and now, now its in ruins...could it be because I fell for a guy who I new I couldn't have? How could I...I'm no where near his level. People have told me they could never see me with someone that cool, no they could see me with one of my two friends, even though I explain to them that's all they are! Yes they are two very attractive boys but they are my friends, my family. They are there when I need them like I am there for them when they need me.
I suppose I should have guessed this would happen...there is nothing special about me; I'm just like everyone else in my neighborhood. Plain and with nothing to set me apart from them...sure you can point out that unlike them I can perform magic but really how is that special? When I'm not at school I'm just like my other friends, I go out and hang with friends, I drink, I meet new people and I unlike people seem to believe am not a virgin.
I died my hair blonde and it sits straight down to the tops of my breasts in layers, I now wear contacts that make my eyes a piercing green and my face is clear and unmarked. Though I am short my curves tend to make up for it and I now wear clothing that flatters them nicely. My breasts are a D cup and are perky which is more then I can say for the other girls I know and I have a tongue piercing. One thing no one knows about me is that I have a tattoo located on my shoulder blade, it's the Japanese symbol for love and under it also in Japanese is the name of the guy I like...wait the name of the guy I love.
I also think it's funny because I recently found out that I was pregnant...but I lost the baby, I lost my baby at 7 weeks. I didn't even know and I lost it...had I known I would have told the father because well he did deserve to know I mean come on with out him I wouldn't have even fallen pregnant...oh and if your wondering it wasn't a oh no the condom broke type of thing, me and him didn't use one that often so I suppose it was gonna happen sooner or later. So that's why I have been so out of my usual mood lately or so the doctor said, because my body is reacting to the loss of the baby...
I suppose if it ever came up I would tell him...but until that day comes I think I will just keep that little secret as exactly that...a little secret.
Well its eleven thirty now...I suppose I should get some sleep. I have a big day ahead of me tomorrow...goodnight diary.
Signed: Hermia Annaliese Garner
A/N all will be explained if i get reviews!! trust me it will be good.