Is it Love or Not?
Disclaimer: I don't own Rurouni Kenshin, though I wish I did.
WARNING: Shounen-ai
Pairing: Sanosuke and Kenshin
Outlook: What would happen if Kenshin was the first to tell Sanosuke that he loved him instead? Find out in this fic.
Should I tell him how I feel or will I feel like a fool if I did? Sometimes I wondered if I should let him know or not. But if I did I might look like a fool, so for now I will hide my feelings for him until I know who he truly loves too. (if you didn't figure this out, Sanosuke is the one saying this to himself lol.)
"Good morning today, isn't it?" Sanosuke asked.
"Its the same every morning, that it is." Kenshin answered.
"Well go onto a spot in the living room." Sanosuke then told him.
Kenshin walked into the living room, as he sat himself down at the table. Oddly those brown eyes never seemed to leave his view, though Kenshin didn't know what was bothering his friend today. All the other times he could read Sanosuke, but it didn't seem like he could today.
"Breakfast is done." Kaoru explained, as she placed the food onto each of their spots.
"Finally." Yahiko announced as he went to eating his food right away.
Kenshin ate rather slowly, wishing that Sanosuke would stop watching him. Kaoru smiled as she sat herself beside Kenshin, though finally it seemed those brown eyes drifted off of himself. Kenshin then went back to eating.
"Very good food today, that it is." Kenshin told Kaoru as she smiled more.
"Alright, why aren't you eating?" Yahiko asked Sanosuke this certainly wasn't like him to not eat!
"Oh, just not hungry." Sanosuke said before leaving the table and heading into his room within the dojo.
"He sure is acting odd." Kaoru now said.
Yahiko nodded as he continued to eat his food. Kenshin sighed though wondered what was with Sanosuke today, he didn't seem like his usual self. Sanosuke sat himself against a wall within his room, having his hands against his knees. Sanosuke sighed, he couldn't tell Kenshin, he just couldn't, and with how things looked right now he didn't want to ruin the moment.
"Maybe I should call up Megumi to check on him." Kaoru replied.
"That you should." Kenshin told her.
So when they all got done with their meal, Kaoru called up Megumi and told her what was going on. Megumi then told her that she will be glad to come over, also check on Sanosuke. After the call, Megumi shown up and asked where Sanosuke was, so Kaoru just pointed toward Sanosuke's room. Sanosuke heard footsteps coming toward his room, so he left the corner, before sitting himself onto his futon. Then Megumi entered his room, as she glanced toward him.
"Do you mind?" Sanosuke asked her.
"I came to check on you, all of your friends are worried about you." Megumi explained to him.
"Not the one I wanted to worry about me." Sanosuke replied under his breath.
"Look all of them are worried. So what is going on with you?" Megumi asked.
"Nothing is, so do you mind just leaving me alone?" Sanosuke asked now rather annoyed.
"Sanosuke, stop moping about before they think that something more serious is wrong with you." Megumi snapped at him before walking out of his room.
Sanosuke sighed as he just sat there awhile, before getting onto his feet and leaving his room. He even sneak out of the dojo and headed down to the bar. Sanosuke went into the bar, as he went over to a stool then sat down onto it, what he needed right now was some sake to calm his nerves.
"Sake please." Sanosuke told the bartender.
"Of course." Jackie replied, she seemed to always see the guy here. He was more or less a regular now, though he was still under age, not like she really cared. As long as she got paid.
Sanosuke waited patiently for his sake, before he saw that she handed it to him. Sanosuke grinned, before taking a sip of it, then placed money down on the counter for her. Jackie shook her head, as she went to help her other costumers. Though oddly Sanosuke felt odd, as he placed his head onto the counter, even giving off a soft yawn.
Jackie just went to helping the others that came in, or even flirted with her. Jackie had no time to even bother with Sanosuke right now, since after all he seemed to be sleeping in the bar. Not like she knew why he was anyhow. Sanosuke didn't even drink that much, probably only one bottle of sake so far too, which was odd that he was asleep. But soon Katsuhiro came into the bar too, he spotted Sanosuke sound asleep over there.
"This isn't a place to sleep at you know." Katsu told him.
"Huh, what?" Sanosuke asked, as he rubbed his eyes.
"Are you alright?" Katsu asked.
"Katsu, what are you doing here?" Sanosuke asked, without even answering.
"First off, I think you need to get back home." Katsu replied, as he nodded slowly. "Also, I usually come here, so your lucky."
"Home?" Sanosuke asked, as he rubbed over his eyes more.
"To the dojo." Katsu pointed out.
"Oh, did I pay yet?" Sanosuke asked now.
"Yes you did sir." Jackie explained.
Sanosuke just gave a slight nod, but his body still felt so odd. Sanosuke didn't know what was the matter with him, he drank down one sake bottle, also he didn't feel drunk, it felt like something else. Sanosuke really didn't know what though, so he just left with Katsu. Katsu sighed, since he even had to place his arm around Sanosuke to help him walk straight.
Katsu wondered how much Sanosuke drank too, though didn't bother to ask. Katsu just helped Sanosuke to the dojo, before he sat his friend onto the porch outside of it. Sanosuke rubbed over his eyes again, as he glanced to the sky, he soon pointed to a cloud. Katsu glanced over to him, his friend seemed pretty messed up, though wondered what was wrong, but Katsu soon left, since he heard someone coming.
"What are you doing out here?" Kaoru asked him.
"Can I go back to bed?" Sanosuke asked, he didn't seem to answer her.
"As soon as you get inside." Kaoru pointed out.
"Fine." Sanosuke muttered, as he stood, then held the wall to get onto his feet.
Kaoru watched him oddly, okay this certainly wasn't a sight that she saw too often. Sanosuke walked into the dojo very slowly, as he kept rubbing over his eyes. Kaoru now knew something else might be wrong, but what could that be? Kaoru recalled earlier when Sanosuke didn't eat, but that won't cause this right? Well at least Megumi hadn't left yet, Kaoru thought to herself.
Sanosuke slowly went into his room, as he laid down onto his futon. He just couldn't seem to get himself focused at all, he just felt so tired. Sanosuke stared at the ceiling for awhile, before he dozed off to sleep. Oddly a moment later Kaoru came into his room, she looked over to Sanosuke as he slept, before she sighed.
"Sanosuke, dinner is done you know." Kaoru replied.
There was no answer, Sanosuke was fast to sleep, which was strange in itself. Since he had problems sleeping before, so why was he sleeping now? Kaoru just shook her head, as she left his room, though she felt sorry for the guy. Kaoru returned to the others, though Kenshin was the first to leave the table this time. Megumi just shrugged, as she watched the others, though she ate her meal quietly. Kenshin even went into Sanosuke's room, knowing that something had to be wrong here.
"Sano, what's wrong?" Kenshin asked.
"Man, can a guy get sleep here?" Sanosuke seemed to ask, not answering the previous question again.
"Why aren't you eating dinner?" Kenshin then asked, as he sat down next to the futon that Sanosuke laid upon.
"Oh just tired." Sanosuke replied, as he rubbed over his eyes, giving off a rather loud yawn.
Kenshin didn't know what to make of it, as he just sat by his friend's side. There had to be something he could do, he didn't know what right now, but he wanted to help Sanosuke. Sanosuke gave another yawn, before he fell back to sleep, not even caring that Kenshin was staying in his room, if he knew he would be so going crazy. Though Sanosuke's heart did that for him, his heart pounded and raced as he slept.
Kenshin just watched as his friend slept there peaceful, he even gave a small stroke to Sanosuke's hair. Sanosuke didn't seem to wake though, he was in a rather deep one yet again. Kenshin glanced to the doorway, when Kaoru placed a plate of food onto Kenshin's lap. Kenshin smiled to her, as he quietly ate his food, trying not to wake up Sanosuke. Kaoru left him be, as she walked back to the living room. When Kenshin got done, he slowly took the plate in his hands, as he left out of the room quietly. Kenshin then brought it to the kitchen, where Kaoru was at it seemed.
"I don't know what's wrong with him, that I don't." Kenshin replied to Kaoru.
"Well, at least you help clean unlike he does." Kaoru explained as she pouted.
"But Sano hasn't ate anything today at all." Kenshin told her.
"I am sure he's fine." Kaoru pointed out, as she washed the dishes with Kenshin.
"I don't know about that, I am starting to get worried that I am." Kenshin said a bit silently.
"Well he's Sanosuke, he will get better. You will see." Kaoru replied.
Kenshin just shrugged to himself, as he took another dish and cleaned it off too. Kenshin was lost in thought too, just kept thinking of how Sanosuke slept on the futon. It wasn't like Sano to do so, not for that long, besides Kenshin didn't hear him complain once about not having food. Something was wrong, Kenshin felt it, but didn't know what it was just yet.
"I hope your right Kaoru, that I do." Kenshin then said slowly.
"Don't worry about it, he's a tough guy." Kaoru replied.
Kenshin then just nodded, she was right about that. Sanosuke was a tough guy, but there was things that didn't seem right. Kenshin just hoped for the best, that Sano would be his normal self tomorrow, if not he would really think something more serious could be wrong. Kaoru sighed to herself as she cleaned the next dish, though she even had to wash the one Kenshin held, since he seemed lost in thought. After Kaoru got done with washing the dishes, she turned off the water to the sink. Kaoru kissed Kenshin's forehead.
"Well, we should head to bed." Kaoru replied.
"Yeah, I am quite tired myself, that I am." Kenshin said, as he yawned.
Though they went into two different rooms, Kenshin didn't say who he loved yet anyhow. Though Kaoru was hoping that Kenshin will gain courage to confess that he loved her, that's what she wanted. Megumi slept on the couch in the living room, oddly enough, since she normally took the shed next to the dojo. But then again Megumi had an odd feeling that she was needed here, something even seemed off to her. The next morning though, Kenshin, Yahiko, Kaoru, and Megumi had gone outside to go play with Suzume and Ayame since they came over.
"Hi uncle Kenny." Suzume replied to him.
"Yeah, hi uncle Kenny." Ayame tried to mimic Suzume.
"Hello you two." Kenshin said to them both, smiling to each one.
"Now you play nicely with your uncle Kenshin." Kaoru said softly.
"Okay." Suzume and Ayame both said at once.
"I think you should talk with Sanosuke." Kaoru whispered to Megumi.
Megumi just gave a nod, before returning back into the dojo. Megumi knew that she needed to anyhow, or to find out what was the matter with him. After all, Sanosuke was the only one not outside the dojo, though now she wasn't either anymore that was. Kaoru watched the two girls run in circles around Kenshin, she just smiled as she watched them. Megumi sighed to herself, before she entered into Sanosuke's room.
"Alright Sanosuke, we need to talk." Megumi replied.
"Talk about what?" Sanosuke asked, as he yawned.
"Well how are you feeling today?" Megumi asked.
"Tired." Sanosuke stated slowly, actually he slept pretty much yesterday.
"You will eat later though right?" Megumi then asked.
"No thanks, not in the mood." Sanosuke replied, as he rubbed over his eyes.
"You really should eat though, it isn't healthy not to." Megumi pointed out.
"I'm not hungry, just let me sleep." Sanosuke said, as he waved a hand towards her.
"You know, your going to really make them think something is seriously wrong with you." Megumi replied.
"Your still here? I thought I told you to go?" Sanosuke asked, as he rolled over on his futon, having his back facing her now.
"You seem fine to me." Megumi replied, she hated when he acted this way though.
"Whatever, just go." Sanosuke replied, giving a rather loud yawn.
Sanosuke then quickly shut his eyes, before he dozed off easily enough. Though oddly Megumi just stared at him now, she didn't know what to make of this. Megumi didn't want the others to worry though, sometimes he acted this way, maybe he was in a bad mood. But why sleep still, shouldn't he have left his futon? Megumi asked herself, as she just sighed, though kept a close watch on him. Megumi then noticed that his breathing pattern seemed, well not really normal, Sanosuke kept breathing in and out at first, but now his breathing seemed to have slowed down.
Megumi now went over to his side, as she shook him a bit. Megumi wondered if she could wake Sanosuke, though it didn't seem that likely at the moment. He looked so peaceful, but she even started to worry now, probably because she was in love with him secretly. Megumi sighed again, before she went into the bathroom, then brought out a bucket with water and a cloth. Megumi sat down next to Sanosuke's side, as she placed the cloth into the bucket, then placed it onto his head.
"Stop that." Sanosuke mumbled from under his breath.
"Well, something is wrong with you. I don't know what though, maybe your sick." Megumi replied.
"Then shouldn't you let me sleep?" Sanosuke asked out, as he glanced to her with half open eyes.
"You were breathing odd." Megumi replied to him.
"I'm tired." Sanosuke just said, as he yawned, before shutting his eyes again.
Megumi just shook her head, since Sanosuke just fell asleep once again. It was very odd, besides he shouldn't be sleeping this long. Megumi couldn't figure out what was wrong though, so now she had no choice but to call up Dr. Gensai and get him here, maybe he knew what was going on with Sanosuke, or at least she hoped he knew. Megumi just kept the wet cloth against Sanosuke's head, maybe it will help a little. Megumi then silently left his room, then went out the dojo, she had to tell them, didn't she?
"So, you get him to talk?" Kaoru asked her.
"Not really I am afraid." Megumi answered.
"What seems to wrong with him then?" Kaoru now asked her.
"I got no idea, so I am planning on calling Dr. Gensai up." Megumi pointed out.
"What's going on?" Yahiko asked now.
"Sanosuke is breathing oddly, also hasn't ate all yesterday. Now, he's just sleeping." Megumi told him as she shook her head.
"That bad, huh?" Yahiko asked.
"I am afraid so." Megumi replied.
Suzume and Ayame both glanced over, wondering what they were talking about. Though Kenshin just told them to go home, so they nodded as they smiled before running off. Kenshin came over to Megumi, Yahiko, and Kaoru as he looked to each of them. Kenshin knew something was terribly wrong here, probably had to do with Sano.
"Its Sano, isn't it?" Kenshin asked.
"Well, I should call up Dr. Gensai to check on him. Yes, Kenshin." Megumi replied, before she went back into the dojo.
"I really thought he would get better." Kaoru told Kenshin.
"I think he might be faking it, you'll see." Yahiko said, as he ran into the dojo.
"I don't think he is." Kaoru replied, as she watched Yahiko leave.
"I guess we should head into the dojo, that I do." Kenshin said, as he gave a weak smile toward Kaoru.
Oddly Kaoru bought it, as she smiled as well, before walking into the dojo with Kenshin. Megumi was sitting patiently in the living room waiting for Dr. Gensai to arrive, Yahiko went into the kitchen, muttering that food wasn't done yet. Kaoru sighed, thinking she better make food before Yahiko threw a fit. Kenshin just sat himself down in the living room onto the floor, though a part of him wanted to dash into Sanosuke's room to sit by his side.