Decisions

(Rin)

Waking up to the loud ringing of my alarm I blindly reached for the silence button. Once it was off I started to go back to sleep until I remember that today I'm hanging out with my friends. One friend in particular is my best friend Sesshomaru. I met Sesshomaru when I was five and he was eight. Everybody who sees us together always thinks that we are in some kind of 'relationship' but we aren't. He is dating Kagura and I am too young for him.

Growing up I have always had a crush on him. But I am thirteen about to turn fourteen and he is sixteen about to turn seventeen. I can understand that it will never work. I am the baby of the group and I believe that he will always see me as his little sister. But it is hard to watch when Kagura is all over him because I don't believe that she is perfect for him.

Groaning for the second time this morning I pulled the covers off my body and sat up. I rolled my neck side to side before slipping my feet into my slippers. Yawning very widely, I hopped into the bathroom and into the shower.

After my long and relaxing hot shower I was dressed and ready to head out. I grabbed my cell phone and checked to see if Kagome has called. I shrugged when there was no missed call before heading down stairs. I ran down the stairs before heading into the kitchen to grab an apple.

I stepped out onto my porch and put my sunglasses on to block the harsh sun from my eyes. Its the first day of summer break. When school returns, I'll be a freshman and everyone else will be an upperclassman. I just pray that Inuyasha and the boys won't put me in a trash can on freshman Friday. Sesshomaru said he wouldn't allow Inuyasha to lay a claw on me.

Hearing five loud impatient honks from a car, I looked up to see Inuyasha's black sleek car. I smiled at how he can just wait for five seconds and get so impatient. I hopped into the back of the car and we took off.

"Hey Inuyasha,Kagome. How are you?" I said

"Hey Rin, I am loving your outfit, you have to let me borrow it some time," Kagome said turning around to show me her brilliant bright smile. I love Kagome, she has always been extremely sweet to me. She is always there for me.

Inuyasha rolled his eyes and shot me glance as an 'hello' and turned his music up so he couldn't hear our 'boring girlish talk' as he would call it. Kagome just turned around and gave me a look that said we would continue later. As she turned to face forward in her seat she smacked Inuyasha in the back of his head.

Because of the loud music I couldn't hear what they are saying, but from the looks of it, it seemed that they were arguing. That's nothing new. Inuyasha and Kagome has been best friends for as long as I can remember. It is strange seeing one without the other. We all know that they should date, but in Kagome's defense she said "Just because we are good friends and get along very well doesn't mean that we should date. What if it doesn't work out and from there on our friendship is screwed."

As we pulled up to Inuyasha and Sesshomaru house, there were a lot of cars there, and loud music coming from the house. "Inuyasha, since when were you throwing a party?"

"Uh, it was just a spur of the moment kind of thing," Inuyasha said with a shrug.

"Why didn't you tell me, I would have brought a swim suit!"

"Keh, don't yell at me woman, I'm not the only one to blame!" Inuyasha

shouted. Inuyasha has a very bad temper. He can't stay calm for more than ten minuets. Before I was able to say something and Kagome able to hit him Sesshomaru appeared behind him.

"Brother if you wish to keep all of your teeth in your mouth, I advise you to never yell at Rin again."

I smiled up at Sesshomaru, he was always, well almost always there for me. He gave me a small smile before grabbing my hand and helping me out of the car. One thing I always can appreciate is how much manners the Tashio brothers have.

"Come Rin, I have picked out a nice bathing suit upstairs," Sesshomaru said putting his hand on my lower back to lead to the house. I blushed and looked over at Kagome over my shoulder. She gave me two thumbs up before hitting Inuyasha again and walking away.

"Rin, are you excited to start high school in a couple months?" Sesshomaru asked opening his bed room door. "I guess, I just am going to be sad that we only get to spend one year together, and not even that," I said walking over to Sesshomaru bed and sitting on it. Sesshomaru walked up to me and grabbed/ caressed my face. "Elaborate," he said with his 'commanding' voice.

"Well, you see Sesshomaru, I am going to be a freshman, and you a senior. You will be having lots of fun and enjoying you're time with your girlfriend and wont have time for me," I said looking down at my hands.

"Rin" he purred "you know I hate it when you lose eye contact with me" he said as he moved his hands down to hold my head up, and to hold eye contact with me. "Don't worry, I will always be here," he said as he stood up and handed me a one piece bathing suit.

"Uhh, Sess, don't you think this is...to...much ?" I asked. I picked up the suit and looked at the black suit that looked as if it was made for a grandma.

"Rin, put it on, its either you put it on our you DONT go swimming at all," I starred at him. He couldn't be serious. He is always acting like an older brother. Making sure I am always covered up our to the point that no boy will ever talk to me.

"Thanks"i said before getting up and going into the bath room. As I was changing I heard Kagura come into the room. I rolled my eyes and tried my hardest to not to listen and continued getting dressed.

(Sesshomaru pov)

"What are you doing in you're room while there is a nice big party going on in the backyard?" my current girlfriend Kagura asked. I shrugged before walking up to her and rapping my arms around her curvy body. As I kissed her I couldn't help but think about Rin. Sometimes I just wonder what her soft innocent, untouched virgin lips would fill like against mine.

Kagura smirked as she thought she was the reason for my excitement, but little did she know she wasn't. Kagura was a god distraction away from my Rin. I know that Rin is my mate. I remembered when my dad first taught me about the conflict I would fill inside of myself for her. How her smell can make me go crazy and fill as if I was on some kind of drug and never getting off of it. How seeing her with another guy would make me go crazy. I cant say that I love Rin or that I am ready to settle down with her. She is just beginning high school and I want her to experience some things in life that I was able to. But the best, the demon that is roaring inside of to claim her, to show her and the whole world that she is mine. But, my father will never allow it, but I don't know how long I would be able to hold back.

"Mmm. Baby why are you ignoring me?" I looked down at Kagura. She is far a beauty and is worth my time. I just leaned down and kissed her one more time before walking away from her to head to the bath room. I hear her groan. She has never liked Rin, but why should it matter, Rin wasn't there for her.

I knocked twice before opening the bath room door. Rin was massaging the wrinkles out of the suit before looking at me through the mirror. She had a blush on her cheeks as always when she looks at me in the eye. I always wondered if she understands that I look at her with want in my eyes. She so young and beautiful, stop. I close my eyes for a few seconds before opining my eyes. She is staring at me with worry in her eyes.

"I knew it, I look ugly. My body looks awkward and I just don't look like the other girls," Rin said as she start to slip off the straps of her suit. As much I would love to see her naked, it would be rude and inappropriate of me and not to mention my very jealous girlfriend is still sitting on my bed. I walked up to Rin and stopped her.

"Rin.. You're perfect," I said before turning to Kagura and grabbing her waist and walking away from. I didn't miss the glare Kagura shot at Rin as we walked away.

(Rin pov)

I looked back into the mirror before walking out Sesshomaru bathroom. I saw the way Kagura was looking at me. I catch all the stares that she throws at me. I never did understand why she didn't like me so much if I didn't do anything. Its not that Sesshomaru ignores her for me. When she is around I stay clear of her. I have always been afraid of Kagura growing up. When I stepped on her foot once she pushed me into the pool knowing that I didn't know how to swim.

"Crap" I cant swim. Why did I put this swim suit on if I cant swim. I slow down from walking and looked around for Kagome or Sango. As I walked around the house I found them giggling with each other by the side of the pool.

"Oh, Rin that swim suit is... Cute?" Sango said as she tilted her head to the side not understanding the choice of my swim suit.

"Leave her alone Sango, its oblivious Sesshomaru trying to shield Rin's newly developed body to everyone. Come Rin, I had a feeling he would pull something like this," Kagome said as they pulled me into the bathroom.

Coming out of the bathroom I felt insecure. I had on a one piece still but it was cut out on the sides so my 'love handles' (as Kagome called them) would show. I looked around and realize that no one was staring at me and went to go sit in a chair to absorb some sun. I pushed my sun glasses down onto my face and looked up and saw Sesshomaru staring deeply into my eyes. His eye color changing from gold to red.

Looking around the party there were many unfamiliar faces. There were still a handful of people that I know. Sango and Miroku were by one of the speakers dancing together. There relationship was always cute to me. Miroku was always to touching people in the wrong places at the wrong time. Then once Sango came around its as if he is a new man. But when she isn't around he is back to his old self

Looking over to my right I see Inuyasha approaching Kagome with a drink. He is probably trying to beg for forgiveness. Kagome smiled before taking the drink and rapping her arms around his neck. She can never stay mad at him. Its cute because no matter how much they argue and fight at the end of the day they will always be there for each other.

The sun suddenly got blocked from my view. I looked up to see Sesshomaru glaring down at me. "Rin, when I give you an outfit I expect you to respect me and were it," he said with such venom in his voice. Looking down at his lean body. "Sorry Sess, Kagome wanted to make me over and I fill pretty," I said as I stood up and put my hand on my hips. Beaming up at Sesshomaru he grabbed my face and bent down to my ear. "Go home Rin, I don't want you here,your to young. Go away."

"What.." looking him in the eye, he turned and walked away. Looking around and blinking my tears away I walked in the house. Running up the stairs I quickly threw on the cloths I came in and ran home.

(Third pov)

"Sesshomaru, where is Rin I haven't seen her anywhere in the pass couple hours," Kagome said as she sat down next to Sesshomaru and Kagura. "Who cares, this is a party for older people, not little girls who still wears there hair in pigtails," Kagura said as she leaned against Sesshomaru.

Kagome looked at Sesshomaru hoping for an answer. He shrugged before kissing Kagura on the lips. Kagome looked away and stood up and walked over to Sango. "Sango, did she answer her phone yet?" "No, it keeps on going straight to voice mail, he had to do something to make her leave like this." "Tell me about it. She probably just wants to be home alone, we will check on her later. Alright." Sango silently agreed before heading out to the party.

(Rin's house later on that night)

Rin walked back to the sofa and plopped down on it. Rubbing her eyes she relaxed and turned the TV up. There were two soft knocks on her door before it opened. Sesshomaru walked in and sat next to Rin.

"Rin, be ready tomorrow I would like to take you out. If I can remember correctly you are turning 14 in two days." Sesshomaru said as he caressed Rin knee. Rin looked at Sesshomaru with disbelief. "What,what is it Rin?"

Rin pushed Sesshomaru hand away from her knee and stood up. "Whats the problem? You were being a complete jerk today. Why?" "Rin, I do not owe you an explanation, be ready by ten tomorrow morning," Sesshomaru said as he stood up and kissed Rin's forehead and walked out the house. Rin closed her eyes tight gripping the bottom of her shirt tightly. She couldn't understand why he is being the way he is. One moment he can be the sweetest demon on earth, than the next he treats her like he treats everyone else.

(At the Tashio residents)

"Son, how was your day,"Inutaisho said stopping Sesshomaru from walking away. "I'm fine father" "You smell of Rin son. How many times do I have to tell you that she is way to young."

"I understand that father, I was merely just visiting her, I upset her earlier." "Son, you need to learn to control your temper around her." "I am trying father, but may I let you know one thing?"

"Yes of course son." "I have been knowing Rin has been my mate since I first meet her, you can only expect me to hold back for so long. One day when i snap because you wont allow me to follow my instinct, just understand its all your fault."

Sesshomaru then turned and walked calmly to his room. "Honey, why doesn't he just wait till she is at least 17?" Inutaisho said with distraught in his voice. "Oh, baby. He is just like you. Don t worry, Sesshomaru is a very intelligent boy. Don't stress about it and come to bed," Izayoi said.

Inutaisho closed his eyes, praying that his first born would listen to him.