/Author note- This is the first story I've written a story that's set in the present day but with flashbacks sequences as well written in between. I hope it's easy for you guys to read and know which is which. Please leave a review thanks guys/

/5 Months after Hannah's memorial service/

As I lay back on the pillows on my bed I looked down at the photo booth strips photos of me and Hannah together in our Crestmont uniforms, we looked so happy together back then when we took these photos, God I miss her so much that it still hurts so hard on my heart when I think about the happy times we spent together…..

Sighing heavily to myself I wanted desperately tonight to be so good with my date to finally push me in the right direction to try to move on with my life but I still ended up talking about Hannah and all the stuff and places we'd been together on my date. I heard loud footsteps coming up the staircase as Justin barged into our shared bedroom as I quickly tried to hide the photo strips and a small box to side of me out of view from him

'Hey man' he greeted, jumping down onto his bed

'Hi Justin'

'How was your date tonight with Alicia?' he asked, leaning on one arm as he turned to faced me

'Awful just awful Justin I knew I wasn't ready yet' I admitted

'It can't have been that bad Clay'

'You weren't there ok. Talking about an ex or past love is one thing but to carry on talking about a dead girl who you once loved like I did is fucked up man. God I'm such an idiot'

'Jesus Clay me and Jessica worked so hard to set you up with Alicia tonight' he groaned loudly

'I told you I was bad with girls but you or Jessica wouldn't believe me or that I wasn't ready yet'

'Yeah but you seemed confident whenever I saw you around Hannah' Justin interjected

'Hannah was different, she was special to me'

'In what way'

'In ways I struggle to tell anyone how I truly felt about her that sometimes words can't describe' I admitted, touching the lid of the box I held so tightly towards me

'What you got there Clay' he asked

'It's nothing Justin' I sighed, trying to shield the box away from his view. 'Justin can I ask you something'

'Anything brother'

'You've had many girlfriends before in the past right?' I exclaimed

'Yeah'

'And taken a lot of photos together probably right on your phone'

'Right'

'Well….what I'm trying to say is about the photos' I mumbled along, struggling to find the right words

'Oh Jesus Jensen just spit it out what you want to say man'

I sighed heavily before drawing up the confidence to finally tell him the truth. 'On my phone I have a ton of photos of me and Hannah together, should I delete them all to carry on my healing process and try to move on from her, from those memories together' I admitted, sitting upright and looking down on my phone in the photo gallery

'Oh Clay' he replied sympathetically

Justin got up from his bed and sat down beside me on mine, putting his arm around my shoulders and pulling me closer to him, looking down at the photos of me and Hannah as he took hold of the phone

'Don't deletes these Clay without making another copy or you'll regret it forever that you did it in the heat of the moment'

'Thanks Justin' I replied

I was too busy looking at another phone of me and Hannah I didn't realise Justin had stretched his arm behind me and retrieved the box I tried to hide from him, he brought it over the top of my head and held it close in his lap while looking down carefully of the photo booth strips on top of the lid

'What's in the box Clay?' he questioned, giving it a gentle shack

'If I tell you what it is you promise not to tell anyone about it. No one knows about it except Tony, not even my parents know about it'

'I promise Clay hand on heart'

'It's a memory box of Hannah, everything is this box has some meaning to it and a story behind it of a night we spent together during our sophomore and junior year' I admitted, peeling of the lid of the box to show Justin the contents inside the box

The box contained all sorts of things that most people would consider to be trash worthy or meaningless but from the look on Justin's face he know personal items like these meant a lot more to some people like me, holding onto sentimental value of the memory. He picked up a folded piece of paper and opened it to reveal the word 'TRAINEE'

I sighed gently to myself as I thought back to that day at the Crestmont, Justin peeled the sticky tape on the back and placed it on my chest

'There you go trainee' he proclaimed

My mind took me back to the start of summer before my sophomore year began, hearing Hannah saying those exact words that echoed inside my head…

As I stood behind the concession stand with Hannah Baker she adjusted my trainee badge that started to slip off my uniform, I fiddled with the bottom of the paper when she was done

'There you go trainee' she smiled

'How long do I have to keep on wearing this for Hannah?'

'Until you stop burning the popcorn Helmet, not everyone loves burnt popcorn as much as you do' she replied, throwing a few burnt pieces at my head that scattered the ground beneath me

We both chuckled lightly at my cock up again for the third time during the week, the inside plaza was quiet as most of the movies that were showing tonight were about half an hour near their end, I looked over at Hannah who was staring at the photo booth at the other side of the room. She raised her brows suggestively and nudged her head towards it

'No Hannah I don't do photos plus I don't want to get us in trouble with Mr Brady'

'Oh come on Helmet it will be fun it will only take a minute' she pleaded. 'The photo booth will be gone by tomorrow morning went it sent to the scrap heap'

'Just one photo yeah' I protested

'More like a few strips Clay' she teased, pulling at my arm to join her

Hannah locked up the till and we left the concession stand as we rushed across to the photo booth, jumping inside and pulling the curtain shut as I inserted some quarters into the machine. We did all sorts of different poses and wacky faces as the flash kept on going, we stood outside the machine waiting for our double copies to be printed as they dropped out of the collection point, Hannah skimmed through them before handing me my copy of the strips

'This one if my favourite Helmet, god just look at your face' Hannah exclaimed excitedly

Hannah showed me which one she was referring too, it was the last one we took together in the booth, she totally caught me off guard and kissed my cheek in that photo and my cheeks has blushed pink in shocked surprise and my eyes were jumping out of their sockets

'Oh god that's so embarrassing' I groaned loudly

'It looks like you've just gotten your first kiss from a girl in that photo. You have been kissed before by a girl right Helmet'

I didn't say anything to that or look in Hannah's direction as she came up close to me, sighing heavily I shook my head no while she gasped loudly in exclaimed shock

'Well I kind of feel honoured to be your first' she smiled

'Well thank you'

'My pleasure Helmet' Hannah winked

I shook my head sarcastically as we began to help the others begin the big clean-up of the night as nearly all the guests tonight had left the Crestmont. An hour later we were done and I decided to walk Hannah home safely as she was gonna walk home alone in the dark, during our journey to her house we talked about zombies but she continued to tease me about the photos every now and again

'You're not going to throw these away when you get home are you Helmet' Hannah asked, looking down at the strips in her hand

'Of course not Hannah I'll treasure this embarrassing moment forever with these photos'

'Because if you do I'll make copies Helmet and send them to you once a month to your home'

'You wouldn't dare' I proclaimed, giving her my best death stare

'Try me Helmet' she replied, holding my stare back as we didn't break contact with each other

I broke a few moments later from her stare as we chuckled lightly as we reached the front of her new home, Hannah hugged me good night as she walked up her pathway to the door, she stopped midway and turned around to face me

'Clay….umm Helmet my parents are out of town and left me money to order a pizza, I don't know any of the pizza joints here and since it's late would you like to stay and have dinner with me' she asked

'Sure thing Hannah' I replied. 'Joey's pizza is the best in the whole town'

'I'll have to take your words on that' Hannah smiled widely….

Justin groaned from his bed and rubbed his stomach as I could hear it growling loudly, he turned to face me while looking at his phone

'All this talk about food has gotten me hungry I could do with a pizza from Joey's, you want in Clay' he questioned, raising a brow

'Only if it's a meat feast pizza Justin' I informed him

'Sure thing' he replied, typing his order in on the takeaway app on his phone. 'Do you want a drink with it Clay I'm getting a coke and some fries as well'

'I'll have the same as well'

'So what else happened between you and Hannah that night?'

All I could think about was the coke and taste of it that night at Hannah's home, how nervous she'd been to have a boy around the house afterwards she'd admitted to me….

I sat nervously on Hannah's couch while she went to gets some drinks out of the fridge as the pizza had just arrived, there was still some moving boxes left to be unpacked but it looked like The Bakers were nearly done moving in. Hannah reappeared out from the kitchen with two glasses in her hands

'So Helmet are you coke type of person or a coke type of person' she enquired

'Tough choice Hannah… I'd say I was coke type of person' I relied, grinning lightly

'Good call Helmet'

Hannah handed me my drink and then turned on the tv to some horror movie to fill the room with some background noise as we tucked into our late night dinner….

After we were done I tried to help Hannah clean up but she was having none of it, telling me she was fine and that I was guest in her home while she refilled our glasses again

'Honestly Hannah I don't mind help cleaning up'

'You cooked I clean' she protested

'Technically I didn't cook I ordered' I stated, raising a brow

'That you did very well at Helmet, that was the best pizza I'd ever had' she admitted

We took another sip of our drinks as we both lay together on her couch, Hannah turned towards me instead of watching the horror movie, grabbing some nail polish of the table and started to paint her nails sky blue

'Can I ask you some things about Liberty High Helmet?' Hannah exclaimed, looking up at me

'Ok Hannah…umm what would you like to know'

'What's it like there? You've been there a year'

'It can be horrible there sometimes and the jocks can just be mean, so I'd watch my back if I was you Hannah being the new girl and all'

'Thanks Helmet but I'll be fine' she sighed weakly

'I'll watch out for you in the hallways Hannah on your first day if you like and introduce you to my friend Tony he's an amazing best friend you could ever wish to have. I'm sure you two will get along when you guys meet each other eventually'

Hannah smiled widely before she spoke. 'Listen Clay my mom and I are going to attend the school's football game on saturday to get to know some people there and I was wondering if you would like to join us'

'I can't Hannah I'm sorry me and Tony are doing something that night together'

'It's ok maybe we could all hang out together another time, maybe I might get to meet Tony then'

'I'd like that' I smiled widely, thinking of what we three could all do together some night

Hannah blew on her nails to dry the paint on them before reaching over and taking a hold of my hand, dragging it closer to her lap and pulling out the paint brush

'What are you doing?' I proclaimed as the tip of the brush slid across my nail

'Still afraid to sacrifice your masculinity Helmet' Hannah enquired, raising a brow and giggling cheekily

'If blow drying and styling my hair wasn't enough for you, why are you painting my nails Hannah?'

'No reason' she smiled happily. 'I thought we could be matching nail bff tomorrow at work'

I sighed gently as I let Hannah paint my nails on both hands to a bright sky blue shade as we continued to talk about Liberty High and our dreams afterwards we were done there. It was close after eleven when I had to leave for home after my mom rang three time already, I stepped out of her house when Hannah called back to me

'Thanks Helmet for a lovely evening'

'Thanks for the nails Hannah' I exclaimed, wiggling my fingers

'You know not many guys would let a girl do that to them'

'Well I'm not like most guys Hannah' I stated, seeing the blush appear in her cheeks

'I can tell that you aint, we should do this again sometime'

'What like hang out together' I suggested

'Yeah Helmet just you and me, I'll text you the last weekend of every month and we can do something together just us'

'I'd like that Hannah'

'Night Helmet' she smiled

'Night'

Hannah leaped forward and hugged me tightly, she waved goodnight from her porch while watching me ride of in the night on my bike on my way home…

Justin picked up the last slice of pizza from the box as I downed the rest of my coke, finish telling him my story of the first night me and Hannah actually spend together sophomore year and how that photo booth strip came about. I carefully placed the strip back inside the memory box of Hannah

'Was that the first time you hung together at her home' he exclaimed

'Yeah'

'And everything inside that box has a story behind it right' Justin asked, nodding towards the memory box that sat beside me on my bed. 'So what's next?'