Hey everyone, just a quick one shot, I hope you enjoy it.
Winter
Always I can hear him calling me.
The thinly veiled desperation, turned plea with the passage of time pulling at the strings of my heart like nothing else can.
I hear him and I wonder, wonder if he too is suffering as I am.
I wonder if his heart is locked unwillingly in another's arms, and I cry.
Tears falling for my selfishness, for my utter betrayal of my innermost heart, for his sad voice that continues to call in the face of my silence,
Why hasn't he stopped?
Why haven't I been able to smother him from myself. I thought a mother's love could do it, but I was wrong, the children I once held in my arms beautiful mistakes.
They are not ours, despite being created with the memory of his touch driving me to passion even as the man whose wife I currently am sensually caressed my body.
Yet in this moment, there is only us. His dark hair obscuring eyes, and my hand reaching to brush it away…
I bolt awake with sweat running from my face even as my hands tremor upon the cool satin sheets.
I roll to the side, green eyes wide in the darkness as they look upon this other-mans wrinkled face. We have been together for years, and though I care for him to my soul he has always been a stranger.
Was it right? Granting him happiness in the face of my own despair?
I slip silently from beneath the covers, pale-mint nightdress whispering against my thighs as I creep out to the balcony to gaze up at the solitary moon.
He is there I know, looking up as I am as if to catch a glimpse at a beloveds face.
How can I want him after so much time?
I was lied to when I was told that love will fade.
Hitomi
His soft voice, comes across the distance to whisper in my mind, and I all but ache at the hopeless tone.
It has to stay this way, for both our sakes is what I told myself over and over as the years passed by. Even as his youthful face shone behind closed eyelids accompanied with imagined versions of his older self.
A moment too late I realize I've sent him an impression.
It is like a snap shot of my heart, so overwhelmed with love and loss that I am afraid at what I have done.
His answering feelings cause my heart to shatter in my breast.
The ghost of a kiss, a sensation never shared between us when we were together.
How I long for it now. These lips that have tasted many others in the time we have been apart now burn as they have never done before over a sending.
His voice whispers again, so light, so weak
I love you
And I know the truth… it is time.
I caress the band on my finger one last time sparing a smile for the memories it brings before I free myself of the promises I have kept so long. In this moment of selfishness I slide it off setting it gently upon the table to my right as I lean back in the chair, raising wrinkled hands to the sky.
It is only a matter of time…
He comes, gazing at me in all his youthful glory, and I smile as his hand slips into mine.
I am his and his alone.
"Van" I whisper voice crackling with age.
Finally back where I belong I stare into the face of my beloved as his voice whispers so sweetly in my ear.
Hitomi
I smile, the weight of years shedding from my shoulders. I have no regrets in that moment over the life that I had lead. Instead I feel only joy, as I take Van's hand letting him lead me away from where my body lays, silver hair spread like a fan upon the cushions of the balcony swing, into the shining light.
The sun rises slowly upon the unsmiling face of a widowed old man,
"so you have found your happiness" he whispers tears streaming down his wrinkled face as he watches a white feather twirl away upon the morning breeze.
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