"B...b...but," I stammered, "what happened? I thought everything was going
good! I...I...I can't believe what is happening!" I felt my eyes beginning
to swell with tears. I had a headache but it was nothing compared to what
my heart was feeling. It felt like someone had ripped my heart out of my
body and was stabbing it with a hundred needles! "What happened to us
Derik?? Am I not pretty enough?? Am I not skinny enough?? Did I suffocate
you?? What happened to us Derik?!?!?" By now tears were running down my
cheeks onto my shirt that Derik had given me. I suddenly despised the
shirt.
"It wasn't you, Christina." Derik told me. I could tell he was uncomfortable. He kept on shifting his weight from one leg to the other. He had his hands in his pockets and he would not look me in the eyes. "I don't know what happened. But ,honey, it wasn't you. You are beautiful and you look great!" Suddenly the same words that he said to me that used to make me feel so warm inside meant nothing. "I am so sorry, I never ever in my life wanted to hurt you like this! I can assure you I never planned for this to ever happen! I think I should leave now." And with that he walked out of the door and my life forever, leaving me stand all alone.
I ran upstairs to my room. I fell on my bed and cried until I thought that there wasn't any tears left inside of me. I looked over to the clock on my nightstand and the picture of Derik and I caught my eye. "that picture was taken on our 1-year anniversary." I thought to myself. And then to my amazement I burst out in tears again. I took the picture in my hands, took it out of the picture holder and threw it in the garbage can. It made me feel a little better inside. I heard the phone ringing downstairs so I got off my bed and went downstairs to answer it.
"Hello?" I answered.
"Hi Chris. It's mom. I need you to run down to the grocery store and pick up the food that's on the grocery list on the fridge for me. I'll be running a bit late today so I won't get off work until all the stores are closed." Christina's mom said.
"Sure, mom. Just give me a couple of minutes. Can I take the car?" she asked.
"Sure whatever. I got to go! Love you!" Christina's mom said.
I headed up stairs to fix up a bit. When I got to my room I looked in the mirror and couldn't believe the mess I was in! My usually brown springy hair was flat where I had been lying on my bed. My mascara and was running down my cheeks, and if that wasn't enough my eyes we nice and puffy red. I got a cloth from the bathroom and started to wipe my face down. I brushed out my hair and put a little foundation on my face to hide some of the redness. I headed downstairs and got the list from on the fridge and grabbed the keys off the key rack in the porch. I was still feeling sad. I went out the door, and got into the car. As I was driving I was thinking about Derik. I would never be able to talk to him like the way we used to. I would never be able to look into those deep blue eyes of his. I would never be able to ruffle his brown hair. We will never cuddle together while watching a movie anymore. I reached the store and grabbed the groceries I needed. As I was walking out I saw the bulletin board, I decided to see what was going on. This one poster caught my eye.
Are you in Need of a
Little Sunshine???
The Alliance Church will be hosting a party for the arrival of SUMMER!!! Bring your Spring Rain moods and exchange them for Summer Heat moods. Bring a towel and lots of sunscreen! Dress for the summer heat! Meet at the Church at 5:00 on Saturday, 16th/ 2003.
See You Soon!
"Hmm, that's different. I never knew that the church had fun things. I think I'll show this to mom, maybe she and I could go together." I thought. I took out a pen and paper from my purse and copied the information down.
"It wasn't you, Christina." Derik told me. I could tell he was uncomfortable. He kept on shifting his weight from one leg to the other. He had his hands in his pockets and he would not look me in the eyes. "I don't know what happened. But ,honey, it wasn't you. You are beautiful and you look great!" Suddenly the same words that he said to me that used to make me feel so warm inside meant nothing. "I am so sorry, I never ever in my life wanted to hurt you like this! I can assure you I never planned for this to ever happen! I think I should leave now." And with that he walked out of the door and my life forever, leaving me stand all alone.
I ran upstairs to my room. I fell on my bed and cried until I thought that there wasn't any tears left inside of me. I looked over to the clock on my nightstand and the picture of Derik and I caught my eye. "that picture was taken on our 1-year anniversary." I thought to myself. And then to my amazement I burst out in tears again. I took the picture in my hands, took it out of the picture holder and threw it in the garbage can. It made me feel a little better inside. I heard the phone ringing downstairs so I got off my bed and went downstairs to answer it.
"Hello?" I answered.
"Hi Chris. It's mom. I need you to run down to the grocery store and pick up the food that's on the grocery list on the fridge for me. I'll be running a bit late today so I won't get off work until all the stores are closed." Christina's mom said.
"Sure, mom. Just give me a couple of minutes. Can I take the car?" she asked.
"Sure whatever. I got to go! Love you!" Christina's mom said.
I headed up stairs to fix up a bit. When I got to my room I looked in the mirror and couldn't believe the mess I was in! My usually brown springy hair was flat where I had been lying on my bed. My mascara and was running down my cheeks, and if that wasn't enough my eyes we nice and puffy red. I got a cloth from the bathroom and started to wipe my face down. I brushed out my hair and put a little foundation on my face to hide some of the redness. I headed downstairs and got the list from on the fridge and grabbed the keys off the key rack in the porch. I was still feeling sad. I went out the door, and got into the car. As I was driving I was thinking about Derik. I would never be able to talk to him like the way we used to. I would never be able to look into those deep blue eyes of his. I would never be able to ruffle his brown hair. We will never cuddle together while watching a movie anymore. I reached the store and grabbed the groceries I needed. As I was walking out I saw the bulletin board, I decided to see what was going on. This one poster caught my eye.
Are you in Need of a
Little Sunshine???
The Alliance Church will be hosting a party for the arrival of SUMMER!!! Bring your Spring Rain moods and exchange them for Summer Heat moods. Bring a towel and lots of sunscreen! Dress for the summer heat! Meet at the Church at 5:00 on Saturday, 16th/ 2003.
See You Soon!
"Hmm, that's different. I never knew that the church had fun things. I think I'll show this to mom, maybe she and I could go together." I thought. I took out a pen and paper from my purse and copied the information down.