"TC" Scott says as he slowly makes his way into the waiting room as TC is sitting beside Drew as he shoots out of the chair "Are they okay?" TC says as he makes his way over to where Scott is standing "We were able to save Alex" Scott says looking at him "he is really small and we took him straight to the prenatal unit" "And Jordan?" TC says as he continues to look at him as Scott swallows hard before continuing as Drew gets up walking over beside TC as Paul also comes in "TC we did everything we could" Scott says looking at him "But due to the complications we couldn't" he says as he begins to get chocked up himself "We lost her" he says continuing to look at him "I'm so sorry TC" Scott says as he walks back through the doors as TC continues to look at the door
"Daddy" TC hears coming from the backseat as he snaps back into reality "Yea sweetie" he says as they drive down a beach strand as he continues to look out the window responding to his daughter
"Are you thinking about momma?" The girl says as she looks with curiosity as she leans over in her car seat
"Yea Lizzy bug I was" TC says as he looks at her through the rear view mirror giving a small smile in her direction
"I miss her daddy" Liz says as she continues to look at him
"I know baby" TC says as he continues to drive "I know" he says before looking over to the passenger seat "Chris how much further to the beach house" he says looking at his oldest son
"Well the GPS lost signal but Aunt Janet said it was a light blue house" Chris says as he looks over at him
"There's about 20 light blue houses down through here" TC says continuing to look
"There's the van" Liz says as TC sees Janet's van as he backs into the driveway beside it
"Good thing too" Chris says as they begin to get out of the SUV "I think Alex needs a diaper change"
"There's my little monsters" Janet says as she comes out of the house as TC is working on getting Alex out of the car
"Aunt Janet!" Chris and Liz say in unison as they run over to Janet as she wraps them in a hug
"The girls are waiting upstairs and they can't wait to see you" Janet says as they take off by her as she walks over to the car where TC is pulling Alex out "Oh stinky baby"
"Yep time for a change" TC says as he grabs the diaper bag out of the car
"Oh no I can do that" Janet says as she takes Alex and the diaper bag from TC "You might not smell so good, but your still Aunt Janet's little love bug"
"Okay I'm going to start unloading our things then" TC says as he pops the back of the car
"How are you doing TC?" Janet says as she looks at him before taking Alex upstairs
"I'm fine" TC says as he looks at her as Janet gives him a questioning look "really I'm good" he says before turning back to the car
"Where's daddy Aunt Janet?" Liz says as she comes running into the kitchen "I want to show him my new bathing suit"
"He went out onto the deck, but I think he's taking a nap right now sweetheart" Janet says looking at her "why don't you go down to the beach with Kim, Karen and Chris and show him when you get back"
"Okay!" Liz says flipping around as she takes back off in the other direction
"Look who's awake" Janet says as she walks out onto the deck as TC is waking up as he rubs his head taking off his sunglasses
"How long was I out" TC says as he leans back against the chair again
"A couple hours" Janet says as she hands him a mug "here's some coffee" she says as TC takes a sip "Alex is sleeping and Liz and Chris are at the beach with the girls"
"I figured, when I came to I could hear Liz giggling from that direction" TC says as he rubs his eye
"Figured you could use all the naps you can get" Janet says sitting down on a chair "How are you really doing?"
"Honestly I don't know" TC says looking at her "I'm trying to hold everything together the best I can"
"But you just want to crawl into a hole and hide away from it all" Janet says looking at him "I can relate, when Topher and Lynn were killed I wanted nothing more then that"
"I just keep thinking what if we hadn't got pregnant again, when everything had gone fine with Chris and Liz after we had lost the first baby, maybe if we hadn't let our guard down or felt as confident with the pregnancy, maybe Jordan would still be here"
"You can't go there TC" Janet says as she looks at him "the question game won't get you anywhere"
"It just feels like I'm barley getting through the motions" TC says as he looks back at her "How did you get through it?"
"With you, and everybody else at the hospital" Janet says as she looks down at the beach where the twins are playing with Liz and Chris "And those two"
"I feel like the only reason I haven't completely broke down yet is because of Chris, Liz and Alex" TC says as he looks down at the beach "I just want to be the best I can be for them"
"You have to take care of yourself first though" Janet says continuing "I've learned that they don't care if your weak or strong, just as long as your there that's all that they care about" she says grinning at him " And I've seen you over the past three months and how excited the kids get to see you when you come to get them after a night shift at the hospital"
"I don't know how I could have made it this far without you and the twins, Paul, Drew, Kenny, Gwen and even Annie" TC says as they continue to look towards the beach
"Were all here for you" Janet says "And besides I'm the godmother, it's my job" as she continues to smile at him "I vaguely remember something along those lines when I was going through this, except it was I'm the godfather and that's my job" Janet says laughing as TC let's out a yawn "When was the last time you got a good night sleep?"
"With an 8 year old, 5 year old and a newborn" TC says as they continue "Oh about three months ago"
"How about tonight I get up when Alex cries" Janet says smiling at him "And you can just sleep, might help you to feel better"
As the sun goes down TC walks along the beach as he gazes across the beach remembering from years earlier "You don't give up do you?" Jordan says as she continues to grin "What can I say I'm stubborn" TC says as he continues to look at her "Well despite that my answer is yes" Jordan says holding out her hand for TC to slip the ring on as she looks at it "Of course I will" she says as TC stands up as Jordan leaps into his arms "I just hope this baby isn't as stubborn as its daddy" she says as they separate as TC gives her a surprised look "But I thought after the last time" TC begins as Jordan keeps looking at him " Are you feeling okay?" "I thought so too but this baby is on the way, I think it's going to be a little boy" Jordan says as her grin continues to grow "And I'm feeling just fine" she says as they wrap into a hug again
"Will you marry me?" TC says as he is down on one knee in the sand as Jordan looks at him wearing a white sundress "I really hope it's a yes this time" he says joking as Jordan gives him a grin
That had been what felt like the beginning of his life TC thought as he continued to walk down the beach, the girl of his dreams had just agreed to marry him with the wedding just three short months later. And was also the day that he had first found out about Chris, that he was going to be a dad. Now as he looked around all he could think was all that they had gone through the past few months as he turned heading back towards the beach house
The next morning TC rolls over in his bed as he opens his eyes to see Liz as she rolls over waking up "morning daddy"
"Hi honey" TC says as he continues trying to wake up "What are you doing in here?"
"I was worried about you" Liz says continuing to look at him "I overheard you and Aunt Janet talking yesterday" she says continuing "I don't want you to be sad daddy"
"You know your pretty smart for a five year old" TC says looking back at her
"I'm almost six daddy" Liz says as she corrects him
"Oh well excuse me" TC says as he gives her a little smirk "I'm fine sweetie, I think a good night sleep helped" TC says as he rolls over to look at the alarm clock "I guess 12 hours of sleep" he says continuing "And you know what watching you reminds me of your momma everyday, that spunky personality of yours that's from her"
"And being stubborn from you" Liz says as she looks back at him with a sneaky grin
"Yea and that face right there" TC says pointing to her "But you know what else you got from her" he says as Liz gives a curious look "your inability to fight the tickle monster" TC says lurching forward tickling her as the little girl let's out a squeal
"Daddy, daddy stop" Liz says through laughter as TC continues to tickle her as Chris comes into the doorway
"If you don't come now I'm going to finish off all the pancakes" Chris says taking a bite of pancake off the plate he is holding as he turns to walk back away as TC and Liz look at him
"That is all you daddy" Liz says looking at TC before they get out of the bed as TC carry's her out into the hallway
"No, that's your momma's appetite" TC says looking at Liz as they go down the stairs