Okay I FINALLY got to revise and edit this. @_@ the mistakes were driving me crazy. So without further ado, I present to you. Little Lover Boy……
Disclaimer: Okay so I almost forgot the disclaimer *sweatdrop* umm I don't own Yu-gi-oh or Hikaru Utada's song "Little Lover Boy"
…*like uncle from Jackie chan* One more thing! Lol Lyrics are in bold italics
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I remember my past unlike the rest
of the reincarnations, my Millennium Tauk has allowed me to fill in the gaps of
things I had forgotten but otherwise I remembered everything.
I remembered him....
A forbidden love that could never be
public for I was a priestess, I needed to be pure and untainted by male hands.
But my heart decided to go against
that....
I remember seeing him around the
palace of my pharaoh; he was the pharaoh's best friend and playmate even though
they were on very different ranks. All of us grew up in the palace, Yami, Seth,
Honda, Anzu, Ryuuji, I......
and Jou.....
We all weren't as close as they
were. We were all too busy being trained into out position, Seth and I as
priest/priestess, Anzu, a healer, Honda and Ryuuji war generals. I never
noticed anyone of them really I'm sad to admit, I was too into my studies, and
I frankly didn't care for them really except my future Pharaoh and fellow
priest.
It was when I turned fifteen, the
age that a girl becomes a woman, that I started notice them all.
Him most of all
His golden hair caught my eyes,
like gold in sun it was, so beautiful. Then his brown eyes, so deep and caring,
they showed what a kind soul he was; there was also this cute accent he had
gotten from somewhere.
He's my little lover boy
He's my little lover boy
He on the other hand, didn't
notice me at all. This was understandable since I had ignored him throughout
our earlier years. I don't think I loved him yet....at least I didn't know it
until I thought he was going to be gone.
Gone from my life....
A princess I believe came to visit
Egypt. Yami, who had taken the throne over by this time,
welcomed her. I have to admit she was very pretty, her hair was as golden as
Jou's, her eyes were purple and sharp like my
pharaoh's and skin pale. Her body was well developed and it showed with her
blue and white dress, I was jealous, she had me beat in looks with my ordinary
black hair, tan skin, blue eyes, and a body that was too short for my age and
non too curvy. Yes I looked liked everyone else, no one special.
I hated her....
Jou was attracted to her at once
and it was obvious in the way he looked at her. I remember that day well; I
stayed in my room and cried. They sent the healer, Anzu, to my room several
times to check what was wrong but I sent them away. Everyone tried to find out
what was the matter even Seth with his cold nature tried to find out what was
wrong.....finally around night time I exited my room and went to the only place
I could find relief in.
The garden...
The garden was beautiful, with
flowers and trees from other lands as well as Egypt's own beautiful ones. In the center of the garden was a
pond surrounded with grass and a marble bench, a gift from the Greeks.
I went and sat on the white bench, my fingers stroked the cool, smooth surface.
I looked at the pond; there were few fish in there, white and red ones, koi's
it what I think they were called, gifts from Japan.
"You finally decided to come
from your room, eh Isis?"
My body stiffened, I knew that
voice. How could I not when I heard it every waking moment as well as in my
dreams, the silence was irritating so I answered.
"Yes, I wasn't feeling well.
What are you doing here Jou? I mean, the princess, weren't you keeping her
company?"
Jou sat beside me; his eyes were distant and seemed a bit lost. The wind blew
the clouds blocking the moon, allowing the silver orb to illuminate the grounds
and us.
He looked like a god...
Once when the Greeks came, they taught us a bit about their gods though we refused to take them up. One god, now that I think about it, reminds me of Jou. A beautiful sun god to light shadowed heart, Apollo was his name. I snap to attention as Jou finally speaks.
"She didn' want ta be in da
company of a.....child" he spat the last word out like it had a bad taste
"So she requested Seth's company, of course he resisted but had to bend to
the will of someone in a higher position than him."
I couldn't help but a small smile tug at my lips, she hadn't wanted him, and I
still had my chance.
All it takes is just one simple kiss
One simple kiss
I don't know what to do
I wanna be with you
So don't you tell me that you have to go so soon
"Jou, I-"
He kissed me...
No, not on the cheek or anything
but the lips, Jou, my love, had kissed me!
My love?
When did I start thinking of him
like that? Oh...
Now...
As quickly as it had started it
ended, we broke slowly, and his brown eyes searched mine. I wanted to smile, grin
even and that never happened. Celebrate and cheer...that is until reality came
crashing back in crushing my dreams and heart as well.
"I'm sorry Isis, I shouldn'
have did dat. I can't be with you like this."
Oh yes, Reality crushed my heart
like a bug was crushed underneath a foot. He moved to leave but my arm shot out
and hand caught his wrist.
"Jou….please" I begged,
finishing my sentence with my eyes. His looked at me sorrowfully and with
longing, did he want me as much as I wanted him or was he just playing with me?
I couldn't stand the latter.
"Isis...."
"Jou" I said firmly
lightly pulling him back into a sitting position beside me. I smiled and hugged
him.
"Just for one night, just
pretend to care for me" I whispered in his ear, Jou returned my hug and
mumbled.
"I won't have to
pretend."
My heart almost burst with happiness.....
He's my little lover boy
He's the one who brings me joy
A few years had past since that night, I'm seventeen now so that makes it three years since
then. Jou and I have a strong bond and secret relationship; well I would have
liked to say strong. You remember that princess? Well she had decided to stay
in Egypt for some time and when Seth didn't return her affection
toward him, she turned after Jou. I was powerless to stop her since we weren't
even supposed to be together. I hate to admit it....and it hurts but I think he
may be in love with her too. I may have won his mind and part of his heart but
the other half belongs to her. I didn't want this! I wanted him to be mine and
only mine I didn't want to share, I don't mind being selfish if it means I' am
the only one!
Will you grant me just one simple wish
A simple kiss
Fulfill my dreams of all the joy you'd bring
And when I see your smilin' face
I wanna be with you
So don't you hesitate
I just can't wait
I need you tender touch I really wanna say
"Jou" I whispered knocking lightly on his door, it was late at night. The only time I really had time with my beloved, he opened the door his hair sticking out everywhere. I giggled lightly; I must have woken him up. He tried to straighten his hair but gave up
and allowed me in with a grin, his arm wrapped around my waist
and pulled me into a kiss.
But not the kiss I wanted....
No….this one didn't hold all his
love....
"Isis….why so late?" he
asked though not outright unpleased with my visit, my smile, that I had as soon
as I entered that room, faulted a bit and became unsure. He must have sensed it
because he said.
"Uh oh, what I do?"
His tone with joking but had some
seriousness in it, I diverted my gaze and sighed
deeply before looking into his eyes unwavering.
"Jou...do you love me? Only
me? I must know."
There was silence in the room and I had felt my heart twist.
"Ah...I...understand Jou."
But I didn't want too
Jou shook his head and bowed it.
"I'm sorry Isis; ah do
love ya very much so but..."
"Your heart belongs to
someone else too."
Jou nodded, I choked back a sob.
It's one thing thinking it but to hear that he loved someone else from his own
mouth hurt very much. I turned my back and put my thumb in my mouth to keep my
sobs silent, he arms came and rested on my arms and he embraced me from behind.
"I'm sorry Isis, love. I
do love you, don't think I don't."
He's my little lover boy
He's the one who brings me joy
I forced a smile on my face and
looked at him.
"No I'm sorry; I'm asking you
to give me the impossible. We already know it's forbidden for us to even be
this close and personal, but I just wish-"
"It wasn't" he finished
avoiding my gaze with shame; I continued.
"Jou, I love you too. I wished, had hoped, you could show me." I walked over to him and kissed him, it was a good-bye kiss and he felt it, all the emotions poured into it
Pain….
Regret….
Hope…..
Sorrow….
Love….
And the same emotions showed on
his face when we broke apart. I pressed my forehead against his with my eyes
closed and said.
Show me baby
What it takes to be yours
Show me baby
That you're my little lover boy
Show me baby
What it takes to be yours
Show me baby
That your my little lover boy
"She's want you to marry her
probably, so do it don't let me stop you from being happy, Jou. We will always
be near each other.....as friends...don't ruin your life and deprive it from
happiness because of me, I couldn't live with myself if that happened."
I took a step back and smiled a
real one.
"Maybe…..later."
Then I left.
That was 5000 years ago. I smile
as I watch, Yugi, the pharaoh's hikari, and his group enjoys their day. My eyes
catch Jou's from the top of the museum steps, he stops and smiles with a wave
and I smile and give a small wave back.
Maybe that later.....is now.
He's my little lover boy
He's the one who brings me joy