Hello all who bother to read these things, I know I have been away for quite some time but I did warn you all that happens. I do hope you enjoy this little fic, it might progress into something more depends on how things go and the review that follow read. So as always please review or email comments good or bad there always welcome hope ya enjoy

Hate

You left me! Not just once not just twice but more times then this broken heart of mine can bare to remember. Each time you left me I felt lost, empty, hopeless, dead. Yes dead a mere walking pile of flesh devoid of all emotion, I lacked the spark of life, I lacked you by my side.

At first I was simply overjoyed to have back, Of course I forgave you , over and over again. And the reason for this was so simple I sound like a little girl, I loved you.

I loved every thing about you especially your smile. It could light up a room as easily as it light up my heart. A heart that I can no longer give you.

Athrun, I could deal with your faults its part of what I loved about you. But your consent ability to leave me at a drop of a hat is something I just cant deal with. How could we create all those dreams we had and plans we so earnestly made together if I cant count on you to be there.

I bet you don't even remember them, do you? A house, land, children. They all take both of us to make. These are things we cant simply walk away from once we begin them. My only saving grace is that we haven't started them. I don't think I could have kept going for as long as I have with you, if any of those had become a reality.

My love for you has twisted into a sour bitter hate. A hate that has poisoned me unto my soul and I fear no that my chance for a cure, from this form of living death and torment that I cant help but take some responsibility for, is to go far away from you. This I am sure will mean nothing to you. You will have your freedom and I will be able to clean your distasteful aura from me.

Although I can never prove it I am sure there have been other women in your life. And I am sure you would say they are friends but how can I be sure? I cant trust you anymore, to me only lies fall from your mouth where once words of sweet sincerity once originated. It truly is a sad, sad situation.

There is no one here to blame but yourself, by the time you return to find this I will be lone gone. If you have the slightest shred of decency left in you, you will not look for me again.

Good bye forever,

Cagaill