The Whispers of the Wind
It was a stormy night, the clouds looked ominous in the sky. There was only lightning flashing by the shrine, Sanosuke was walking by the shrine and he noticed that the lightning was too, though he also seen a strange portal open that was connected to the shrine's pillars. Sanosuke just shrugged to himself and decided to go to his apartment. The portal was a white color at first, then turned to purple as Zanza stepped through the portal. The portal then closed but Zanza had no idea where he was, as he stared to walk down the shrine stairs.
Sanosuke soon felt an odd feeling, one he never felt before, which came from that shrine! Sanosuke started toward it, as the rain kept falling down from those clouds. Also why did it only have lightning by the torii, Sanosuke didn't know, but something wanted him to find out what this feeling was. Sanosuke walked slowly toward the shrine, but then he froze in place when he noticed that Zanza was walking down from the shrine itself. Sanosuke then quickly blushed to himself, trying not to let the other know he was there yet.
Sanosuke slowly backed away, but he watched from a nearby bush as Zanza walked past him now. But Zanza was getting himself wet, though same could be said about Sanosuke too! Sanosuke just watched from that bush, before he couldn't take it anymore... so Sanosuke then followed after Zanza. Zanza actually froze in place, as he stared behind himself, knowing that he was being followed.
"Hi." Sanosuke said slowly, as he gazed toward the other man.
"What are you doing here?" Zanza asked.
"I could say the same about you." Sanosuke replied, knowing very well whom the other man was.
"Well, I am sleepy. So leave me be." Zanza stated.
"I don't think you should sleep out here." Sanosuke told him, as he watched the other male walk over to the cherry blossom tree nearby them.
Zanza just shrugged as he sat underneath the cherry blossom tree now, though it seemed Sanosuke had followed him. Zanza now sighed out, as he glanced toward him. Just why was he following him for anyhow? Zanza asked himself. Sanosuke quickly blushed, as he felt the rain still, not like the cherry tree was much cover from it.
"You know, I got a place." Sanosuke then said.
"What are you getting at?" Zanza asked now, as he gave a huff.
"Well, you can stay there." Sanosuke replied, as he gave Zanza an odd look.
"I don't got a place to stay, besides I doubt you really want me to stay with you." Zanza remarked coldly.
"I just said you could, Zanza." Sanosuke smirked, as he noticed the other man glare at him.
How did he know his name? Zanza asked himself, he didn't even know how he got here. Sanosuke slowly sighed, since Zanza seemed rather quiet now. But Sanosuke couldn't take much more of this, he wanted Zanza to stay at his place, not out in this weather! So Sanosuke then quickly got back on his feet, before he took Zanza's arm and yanked the other man to his feet. Oh, Sanosuke was a bit rough with Zanza, but he didn't like that the other man wanted to stay out in this foul weather of all things! Zanza sighed as Sanosuke did this, though Sanosuke soon let him go.
"Look, I won't make you come." Sanosuke then said.
"Good." Zanza said coldly.
"You know, I don't even know how you are here." Sanosuke replied, giving a glance over Zanza.
"I walked through a portal." Zanza muttered.
"Well, let's just go to my place okay?" Sanosuke asked him now.
Sanosuke didn't want to harm Zanza at all, it was odd. But Sanosuke knew that something wasn't right here, especially if his other half was here. Zanza soon sighed again, as he kicked at the ground. Though Zanza soon just nodded toward the other man, not like he had much of a choice. Sanosuke smiled as he walked down the road with Zanza following after him in the rain. Sanosuke soon looked back toward the other, making sure Zanza wasn't injured or anything.
Zanza just followed with his head lowered, not really caring that Sanosuke kept looking back at him now and then. It seemed odd to Zanza that he was, since no one ever seemed to care either way. Sanosuke soon reached his apartment, as he unlocked the door. Zanza stopped a moment, as he watched Sanosuke go inside. Was he really allowed inside? Zanza asked himself.
"Come on in." Sanosuke said slowly, as he made his way to his futon in his apartment.
"Fine." Zanza replied, before he entered the place.
Zanza even closed the door behind himself and locked it. Sanosuke smiled as he sat himself down onto his futon, as he kept his gaze onto Zanza. It was an odd sight to Sanosuke, though there was some differences between the two. First off, Zanza had a black bandana on his forehead, he even wore all black for crine out loud! Those were the only differences between Sanosuke and Zanza though, everything else was the same.
"You can sit down you know." Sanosuke replied out, as he really hoped that his hair didn't look that bad since he was out in the rain, well so was Zanza.
"I guess I can." Zanza said slowly as he sat himself down onto the wooden floor.
"You can sit by me." Sanosuke then said.
"No way!" Zanza remarked as he crossed his arms.
Sanosuke chuckled slowly, he knew that Zanza wouldn't come around that easily. Though Sanosuke had been used in his life, by a certain someone and he didn't want to mention it to his dark half. Zanza sighed softly, as he tapped the ground with his fingers. Sanosuke gazed toward him now, as he wondered what was wrong with Zanza, he seemed to act quite differently.
"What's wrong?" Sanosuke soon asked, since he was getting worried.
"I am not used to this." Zanza soon replied, as he glanced around the room he was in.
"Well, make yourself comfortable." Sanosuke said with a smile.
Zanza gave a deep sigh, as he thought what does he know anyhow? Sanosuke watched him, as he laid down upon his futon. Zanza quickly muttered as he looked toward Sanosuke slowly. Well this was not going to get anywhere tonight, though oddly the rain finally stopped. Sanosuke smiled as he shut his eyes, though wished he could hold someone for once. Sanosuke soon dozed off on his futon, though Zanza on the other hand was having problems sleeping.
(This is going to be Sanosuke's dream so bare with me on this)
Sanosuke recalled being with Kenshin the night before, he was so in love with his best friend. Sanosuke even told Kenshin how much he loved him finally, but it took all his guts to admit that to him. Kenshin though didn't seem too pleased to hear that Sanosuke loved him more then a friend. Kenshin only loved one, which happened to be Kaoru. But Sanosuke was used by Kenshin too, Kenshin actually claimed he loved Sanosuke the same... before he told the man the truth.
"I know it doesn't mean much, but I will stay with you. I won't be like others and leave you." Sanosuke told Kenshin.
"Don't worry Sano, I won't leave you either." Kenshin replied.
Sanosuke actually bought this, though he tossed and turned on his futon, though the dream kept going. But it was no normal dream, since this actually did happen to Sanosuke, but he didn't know why he was dreaming of what he been through. Sanosuke's breath got lower, as he tried to wake himself up, but it was no use.
"I am glad you feel that way." Sanosuke told Kenshin.
"You know I care about you." Kenshin said toward Sanosuke rather sweetly.
"Well, I guess you should tell the others." Sanosuke said as he leaned to kiss Kenshin's lips, but Kenshin pulled away.
"No, I love Kaoru more." Kenshin soon said.
Sanosuke's eyes soon were covered in tears, why just why was he dreaming about this? Sanosuke didn't want to relive this scene again, this was so terrible to hear Kenshin say this again. Though this time, there was a gentle shake to Sanosuke's body, which made Sanosuke wake instantly now. Though Sanosuke had smacked Zanza's right cheek rather hard, not knowing he had, since Sanosuke thought it was Kenshin whom woke him! (Yes out of the dream world XD)
"Oh, sorry." Sanosuke replied, as he dried his tears.
"I don't know what you were dreaming about, but you were crying." Zanza said now, as he felt over his cheek, the one Sanosuke had smacked.
"I thought you were someone else." Sanosuke whispered.
"But what were you dreaming about?" Zanza asked.
"You don't want to know." Sanosuke whispered lowly, he didn't even want to say it.
"Then what about your tears?" Zanza asked then.
"Are you that concerned about me?" Sanosuke asked slowly.
"Just was asking." Zanza said as he sighed, before he moved from the other man.
"I wasn't being rude you know." Sanosuke replied, as he glanced toward Zanza.
Sanosuke didn't mean to smack Zanza anyhow, but now Sanosuke thought he made things worse. Sanosuke then sighed out, as he tried to doze back off, but he couldn't. Something made Sanosuke feel guilty, but he knew the others wouldn't like if Sanosuke brought up that Zanza was here. No way, Zanza was his dark half, also... didn't Kenshin want Zanza gone? Sanosuke soon shuttered from that thought, but now Sanosuke couldn't bring himself to admit his feelings for the man that he brought into his apartment.
It would be the same, Sanosuke thought to himself. If I tell Zanza how I feel for him, he will tell me he got someone else... someone better, no way Sanosuke couldn't tell him. Sanosuke didn't want to admit that he loved himself in that way, as he blushed to himself now. Zanza sighed as he laid himself onto the cold floor, though Sanosuke's worried eyes gazed toward the other.
"Aren't you cold?" Sanosuke now asked, as he sat up on his futon.
"Don't worry about me." Zanza said, as he just stared toward the ceiling.
"I don't get you." Sanosuke replied, as he quickly laid back down against his futon.
Sanosuke sighed to himself, as he wondered what he should do. Zanza probably didn't even think of him like that, how could he? Sanosuke shook it off, as he finally closed his eyes again. Zanza kept staring at the ceiling, it was the same every night, he had problems sleeping. Zanza wouldn't admit that though, since he was even amazed that this man was letting him stay the night.
(Yes back to the dream world.)
"But, I love you Kenshin with all my heart." Sanosuke told him.
"I told you I only love Kaoru, besides I can't love you. You are only a friend." Kenshin said then.
"Why not?" Sanosuke asked.
"Because I will never love you the same." Kenshin replied in a rude tone.
This made Sanosuke run out of Kenshin's room, he didn't want to come back here after this. Sanosuke was hurt, heartbroken even. Sanosuke tossed and turned again on his futon, but he never had problems sleeping before. Though like before, tears streamed down Sanosuke's face. Zanza heard the crying again, but this time stayed where he was, he was afraid that Sanosuke would smack him again if he woke him. Sanosuke soon found himself running into a shed, close to the dojo, just crying within it. Then Sanosuke heard a knock from outside, this actually woke him up this time around.
"Who is here at this late?" Sanosuke asked, as he yawned.
"You should answer that, it is your home." Zanza replied.
Sanosuke glanced to Zanza, as he then noticed his tears in his eyes. Sanosuke whipped them away, before he got off his futon and headed toward the door. Sanosuke then opened the door, as he heard the wind whistling. Sanosuke froze a little, as he noticed whom it was, he even gave a bright smile. Sanosuke soon told them to come in, so they did. Zanza stared, as he saw a women walk in, he soon went to a corner in the large room.
"You can stay if you like." Sanosuke told her.
"Thank you Sanosuke." Megumi replied toward him.
Zanza just kept to his corner, as he stared toward the wall now. Sanosuke closed the door and locked it. Megumi stared a bit toward Zanza, knowing whom that was by one look. Sanosuke smiled still, as he laid down on his futon, maybe now he can sleep. Zanza sighed as he punched the wall with his fist, then laid against it. Megumi just stared more, then she looked toward Sanosuke.
"Are you sure you don't mind me staying over?" Megumi asked.
"No, of course not." Sanosuke replied out.
It seemed like Sanosuke knew this women, Zanza thought. Not like he really cared or wanted to know their relationship with one another, besides that Zanza started to feel awkward here. Megumi gave a shrug, since she knew something was going on here, so she went back over to the door. Sanosuke watched her slowly, he even didn't look at Zanza anymore, just her. Megumi then looked back to Sanosuke, as she smiled.
"Well, I am going to take my leave. I think I shall come another time." Megumi replied, before she opened the door.
"But, I said it was alright." Sanosuke now said.
"Thank you Sanosuke, but I shall be on way." Megumi said, as she glanced to Zanza.
Megumi then walked out of the apartment, she didn't know why Sanosuke had Zanza over to begin with. Something wasn't right here, Megumi didn't know what, but Zanza shouldn't even be here. Megumi slowly just walked back toward the dojo, maybe she shouldn't think of it. Sanosuke sighed out, as he looked toward Zanza.
"Can you close and lock my door please?" Sanosuke asked him.
Zanza sighed out, as he quickly got to his feet. Why was he here anyhow, it was obvious that Sanosuke had feelings towards that women, or so Zanza thought. Zanza slowly walked to the door, before closing it and locking it. Though Zanza just stayed right by the door, thinking that he should leave too, it wasn't likely that this man really wanted him stay over. Sanosuke yawned out, as he gave a smile toward Zanza.
"Thank you." Sanosuke replied, as he closed his eyes again.
Zanza just gave a nod, before he returned back to the corner finally. Zanza did debate about leaving, but he couldn't bring himself to right now. Zanza knew something was troubling Sanosuke, but he didn't know just what. After all Zanza seen Sanosuke cry twice now during the man's sleeping, something wasn't right. Zanza soon laid back against the wall, just staring at it, giving a low yawn. Sanosuke shifted on his futon, hoping that he didn't see more of his dream.
(Dum, dum, dum... the dream continues.)
Sanosuke kept crying in the shed, it felt like hours before someone had over heard his crying and came into the shed. To Sanosuke's surprise it was Megumi of all people, she placed her hand on Sanosuke's shoulder. Sanosuke turned to look at her, she was the first to ever see him cry like this. Sanosuke tossed and turned again on his futon, even giving out a mumble within his sleep.
"Sanosuke are you crying?" Megumi asked him.
"I am just hurt." Sanosuke told her, though she nodded.
"So you are then." Megumi said quickly.
"Its because of him..." Sanosuke then said, as he wiped away his tears.
"Who did this to you?" Megumi asked.
Sanosuke mumbled in his sleep, he didn't want to go through this scene over either. Sanosuke knew now that he probably couldn't fall asleep this night, but he really wondered why. Sanosuke looked toward Megumi, he couldn't tell her that it was Kenshin. Sanosuke couldn't admit that he said he loved the guy, whom turned out to only love Kaoru. Why only her? Sanosuke asked himself. Soon Sanosuke felt a shake again, though at least this time, all he did was rub his eyes when he was woken up.
"I can't sleep." Sanosuke soon admitted.
"You think?" Zanza asked.
"I know I can't..." Sanosuke said, giving a rather deep sigh.
"Maybe its me." Zanza replied now.
"Huh?" Sanosuke asked, as he glanced toward Zanza whom seemed to be sitting right by his side.
"I mean I don't think you really want me to stay over." Zanza answered as he sighed.
"Zanza, I..." Sanosuke muttered, as he then reached to try to stroke Zanza's right cheek, the one he had smacked earlier. But Zanza seemed to pull away, just like him... Sanosuke thought.
"I should go, I think you wanted that lady to stay here." Zanza told him, as he quickly got to his feet.
"She's a friend of mine, nothing more." Sanosuke said slowly.
"Well, I think I am keeping you up." Zanza soon said, as he gave out a deep sigh.
Now Sanosuke glanced toward him, as he watched Zanza return to that corner. Zanza only punched the wall again, before laying next to the wall. Sanosuke bit his lip lightly, was he having problems falling asleep? Sanosuke asked himself. It seemed likely, also Zanza was a part of himself, a darker half of himself, but still a part of himself. Sanosuke now moved off his futon as he went over to Zanza.
"Look, you can sleep by me." Sanosuke said slowly.
"Why should I?" Zanza asked, as he crossed his arms.
"You know what, you can go then." Sanosuke said rudely.
Sanosuke couldn't take much more of this, though he couldn't admit to Zanza that he loved him deeply. Probably even more then he loved Kenshin, but Sanosuke wouldn't admit that either. Zanza sighed out, as he got back to his feet, though he suddenly felt dizzy! Zanza rubbed his head, maybe it will go away, it usually did. Sanosuke mumbled lightly, as he watched Zanza move himself to the door.
"Wait." Sanosuke now said.
"Now what?" Zanza asked, as his feet were barely supporting him right now, due to the dizziness.
"I don't want you to go." Sanosuke replied, as he bit his lip.
Was he going to tell him? Sanosuke asked himself, he didn't know what was going through his head sometimes. Zanza sighed as he looked toward Sanosuke, did this man know he was dizzy? No... Zanza thought to himself. Sanosuke sighed now, before he shook his head, as he bit his lip again.
"Well?" Zanza asked now, trying to keep his ground with his feet.
"I just... don't mind me, if you want to go, then go." Sanosuke replied, as he gave a sigh.
Sanosuke knew he couldn't tell Zanza the truth, how he really felt. It would be the same thing over again, Zanza wouldn't want to hear it, he didn't want to hear that he loved him. Zanza soon shook his head, as he unlocked the door then, though he gripped the doorknob rather tightly now. Zanza almost lost his balance, he was certainly too dizzy to even stand. Let alone go anywhere, though Zanza knew he wasn't wanted here anymore.
"Aren't you leaving or not?" Sanosuke asked now, watching Zanza from where he was.
"I will in a moment." Zanza replied out coldly toward the man.
What was his problem? Zanza asked himself. He thought that man didn't want him to stay here, after all Sanosuke seemed interested in that women earlier, right? Zanza's head spinned, as he held it with one hand. Zanza slowly opened the door, though his footing was so off now. Zanza opened the door to only hit against its frame, since the dizziness was getting to him. Sanosuke actually came over to him, as he gently touched Zanza's shoulder.
"I don't think you should leave in your condition." Sanosuke told him.
"Why do you care?" Zanza asked now.
"I think you need sleep." Sanosuke stated.
"What the hell is sleep anyhow?" Zanza soon asked, as he took his hands off the door to cross his chest.
"Woah, calm down." Sanosuke said gently.
"I haven't slept in a long time." Zanza soon admitted.
Sanosuke now glanced toward Zanza with a rather worried look. No wonder why he wasn't falling asleep either, though he was worried about Zanza standing there too. Sanosuke soon closed the door and locked it back up, as Zanza just sighed toward him.
"Look, I am going to help you sleep." Sanosuke now replied.
"Oh, yeah how do you plan on that?" Zanza asked with a cold glance.
"By you sleeping next to me and if I have to, I will force you." Sanosuke remarked rather rudely.
"I am not sleeping by you." Zanza stated, as he stormed over to the corner.
"Fine." Sanosuke replied, as he went back onto his futon.
"I will stay up for all I care." Zanza replied with a sigh.
"Why are you doing this to yourself?" Sanosuke asked.
"I never sleep anyhow... I don't see why this concerns you so much." Zanza said as he gave a small sigh, as he punched the wall again.
"You know, you shouldn't try to hurt yourself either." Sanosuke said then.
"Whatever." Zanza replied, as he crossed his arms and laid back by the wall.
"You want to know why I was crying earlier?" Sanosuke asked.
"I don't care anymore." Zanza said rather coldly, as he gave out a deeper sigh.
"I... loved this man whom only loved someone else." Sanosuke stated, as he kept an eye on Zanza.
"Well, at least you know what that is..." Zanza said as he huffed.
"I got hurt badly... I guess no one gets that but Megumi and Katsu." Sanosuke pointed out, giving a sigh of his own now.
"Who are they?" Zanza asked now.
"They are great friends of mine. Well, Katsu I think of him as a brother really." Sanosuke said, as he gave a nod, which was followed by a yawn.
"So... that women was her?" Zanza asked.
"Yes, jealous?" Sanosuke asked, as he wanted to see what he was going to say to that one.
"Why should I be jealous? I don't even know her. I don't even like her." Zanza answered, as he crossed his chest again.
Sanosuke only laughed at this, this was just great watching Zanza do this and how he spoke. Oh it made Sanosuke feel more in love with Zanza each time he got him to talk back to him. It was like a contest, but Sanosuke couldn't tell if Zanza was jealous or not, though he knew one thing... that Zanza might not know what love is.
"Ever been in love?" Sanosuke asked, as he gave out another yawn.
"Me? Who wants me anyhow?" Zanza asked him, as he stared toward the wall again.
"Well, a certain someone does. But they are afraid to tell you." Sanosuke pointed out, not giving away that it was him.
"I don't see why." Zanza said slowly, as he sighed again. "Besides, they shouldn't keep their feelings hidden either."
"Well... they had it rough, they got betrayed, they got hurt..." Sanosuke said, as he now looked toward the floor, well now he said too much.
"Go to sleep, your tired." Zanza told him in a rather rough tone.
"You can't tell me what to do." Sanosuke replied, as he made his hands into fists.
Oh, Sanosuke was getting pissed off now, Zanza had no right to tell him what to do. This was his home, so it went by his rules, not Zanza's. Though Sanosuke slowly glanced to his own fist, before he made his hands back straight, he couldn't harm the other man. Zanza sighed by the wall, as Sanosuke got off his futon yet again.
"That's it." Sanosuke replied.
Sanosuke then picked up Zanza into his arms, as he walked back to his futon. Sanosuke smirked as he laid down and placed Zanza down next to himself. Zanza huffed out, as he blinked when Sanosuke wrapped his arms around Zanza's form. Zanza didn't know what was with this man, but it was starting to drive him mad!
"I don't want to be by you." Zanza replied with a huff.
"You are going to stay put." Sanosuke said slowly.
Zanza gave out a loud cry when Sanosuke only held him more tightly now, though oddly Sanosuke only loosened his grip. Zanza rolled his eyes now, this man certainly didn't make much sense to him at all. Sanosuke softly murred, as he trailed his hands over Zanza's black bandana. Zanza now stared toward the man, he didn't want to stay put, no way!
"I am going back to my corner." Zanza soon said.
"I don't think so." Sanosuke then replied, as he stared Zanza in his eyes.
"Well, I do." Zamza replied, as he got out of Sanosuke's grip.
Sanosuke laughed out softly, as he looked to him. Zanza was a riot, he was making such a hissy fit about all of this. Zanza soon sighed slowly, as he got back onto his feet. Though he only got pulled back down by Sanosuke and held again tightly. Zanza sighed out louder, as he gave Sanosuke a punch, which made Sanosuke let go quickly.
"Hey." Sanosuke replied. "That wasn't nice."
"Leave me alone." Zanza said in an angry tone.
"I think someone is over tired." Sanosuke soon replied.
"Who asked you?" Zanza asked, as he quickly returned to his corner, giving out a rather loud huff.
"I think someone also needs some cuddling." Sanosuke teased, as he laughed when he said this.
"I don't need nothing from you." Zanza replied, though his head felt dizzy once more.
"Just sleep okay?" Sanosuke asked.
"Whatever." Zanza remarked with another one of his huffs.
Sanosuke laughed slightly, well this sure was entertaining him to say the least. Though Zanza's head felt so dizzy now, he even slipped off into sleep. Which was quite odd, since Zanza barely got himself to sleep, though Sanosuke eyed Zanza slowly from his futon. It seemed that the show was over with for now, though Sanosuke sighed out, as he made sure he was alright. Zanza did punch him earlier after all, so he had to make sure.
(Oddly we go into Zanza's dream)
Zanza was alone again, in the darkness like always. It even felt so real, as he slept by that wall, as he crossed his chest in his sleep. Zanza stared at the ceiling of a place he found, just staring at it, hoping that he could fall asleep. But nothing seemed to work, nothing, he tried everything. Zanza even tried to punch walls to get his energy out of his system, that didn't work either. Zanza soon found himself going down this dirt road, walking down it.
Zanza soon came to people whom past him by, they never said hello or anything. Zanza was never spoken to, he then kept walking down the road. Zanza soon seen a sign up ahead that read, 'Valley of the Lost', whatever that meant. But Zanza decided to keep walking, even though the dirt road looked more gloomy onwards. Zanza walked with his head lowered, wishing that he would find love... and then... that's how he came here.
Zanza mumbled in his sleep, as some tears fell from his eyes. Zanza had forgotten that's how he got here to this place and now he regretted wishing such a thing. Why did he need to find love anyhow? It wasn't out there, it didn't exist. Zanza's body shivered lightly, though soon he felt someone shake his form, Zanza got pissed off, he just had fallen to sleep too! Zanza then woke up to see a worried look on Sanosuke's face.
"What?" Zanza asked him.
"You were crying." Sanosuke replied softly, as he looked to him.
"So what?" Zanza then asked.
"I was worried." Sanosuke answered, as he reached out to try to touch Zanza, though this time he pulled his own hand away.
"Why should you worry about me?" Zanza now asked.
"You know, maybe you should go back to where you came from." Sanosuke replied in a rude manner, but that was because Zanza kept being rude to him.
"Not like I know how. I wish I did, that way I could take back what I wished for." Zanza then said, as he sighed.
"You wished for something?" Sanosuke asked now. "Did it come true?"
"No wishes come true. I shouldn't have wished for such a thing like that." Zanza replied with a deep sigh.
"What was it?" Sanosuke asked, as he glanced toward him.
"It was stupid okay?" Zanza said with a huff, crossing his chest again with his arms.
"You know what... its worthless talking to you." Sanosuke replied now, as he sighed.
Sanosuke felt so worried about Zanza, but the other man seemed to not care he existed. Sanosuke loved Zanza, but he couldn't tell him that. Sanosuke was scared to tell him, how could he? Sanosuke sighed more as he then placed a hand onto Zanza's shoulder.
"You know, I want you gone in the morning." Sanosuke then said, as he returned to his futon.
"I hope I find my way back to darkness." Zanza muttered out.
"What was that?" Sanosuke asked, as he glanced back over toward him.
"That's where I belong." Zanza said as he punched the wall, though soon broke down in tears.
Sanosuke grumbled, though got back off his futon to return back to Zanza. Sanosuke slowly patted Zanza's back, but did nothing more. Zanza just kept crying though, those tears seemed to be coming down pretty badly now. Sanosuke bit his lip hard, before he placed Zanza's head against his lap, as he dared to touch Zanza's hair, but stopped himself. No, he couldn't do that...
"I... don't want you hurt, I just want to comfort you... but, I can't." Sanosuke said slowly.
"I will leave in the morning." Zanza soon said, as he dried his tears.
"I can walk you to the torii." Sanosuke replied slowly, the least he can do.
"I doubt the portal will reopen." Zanza explained.
"I just want you to sleep." Sanosuke whispered.
"What about you?" Zanza asked now.
"Me?" Sanosuke asked.
"Well, you haven't slept either." Zanza replied.
"I guess not..." Sanosuke replied, as he brushed his own hair with his fingers.
"You should sleep, stop worrying over me." Zanza told him, as he gave a little sigh.
"Can I know what you wished for?" Sanosuke asked again.
"Why does that concern you?" Zanza asked.
"I am just curious." Sanosuke replied, as he looked to him.
"I wished for a stupid thing, it didn't come true. It sent me here by mistake." Zanza said with a huff.
"But I want to know if it really was as stupid as you say." Sanosuke pointed out.
Sanosuke knew something wasn't right, he never seen Zanza cry before. Sanosuke really did want to comfort him still, something was amiss still, ever since Zanza had appeared here. Zanza soon sighed to himself, as he lightly hit the wall. Though this time Sanosuke slowly took Zanza's hands, as he gave them a gentle kiss.
"I wished for love, okay?" Zanza then said with a dark glare when Sanosuke had done that.
"You want love?" Sanosuke asked, as he moved his hand before letting it rest beside Zanza's form.
"I did at first, but now I am starting to regret I wished for that." Zanza replied with a sigh.
"But, I am sure it sent you here for a reason." Sanosuke then said, it wasn't normal for the torii to send someone to a place they weren't meant to be at.
"Yeah right." Zanza said, as he crossed his chest.
"What do you say, you want to sleep by me?" Sanosuke asked softly.
"I don't think you want that." Zanza said rudely, but he doubted this man did.
"You don't know that." Sanosuke pointed out.
Actually there was a lot Sanosuke didn't know about Zanza, matter of fact he still didn't know why he was here. Sanosuke was used to being whole with Zanza before, after all they were one, but now... Zanza was here and not a part of him? This didn't make sense to Sanosuke, so there was something going on here, unless... Sanosuke now thought, it was him. Sanosuke was the one that made Zanza come here, it made sense now.
"I know more then you." Zanza soon said.
"I know why your here now." Sanosuke said in a low tone.
Why?" Zanza asked.
"It was me... I was hurt, heartbroken. I... I... just wanted to be with someone. I... made you exist... I made you into your own being and now we aren't a part of each other. I did so... because I wanted someone to love me." Sanosuke replied, as he looked to the ground.
"That doesn't make any sense." Zanza replied now.
"Don't you get it Zanza? I made you into your own being... I shouldn't have. Now you got your own feelings, your own emotions, your own body... that's why I know your name. Its because we used to be one, a whole..." Sanosuke sighed, as he bit his lip.
"But I was in darkness. Why should you bring me here for?" Zanza asked him.
"I didn't know what I was doing... I liked it..." Sanosuke replied, as he gulped out.
"Liked what?" Zanza now asked.
"I... touched myself... I... I... went into the shower after being heartbroken. I... started to touch my own body... I liked the feel of it." Sanosuke said with a deep blush.
"Your one strange man, you know that?" Zanza asked.
"I... loved it, I liked how I moaned when I felt over my cock and balls." Sanosuke replied, as he kept blushing too.
"I am serious here, your strange." Zanza said again.
"Zanza, you should know my name... think about it." Sanosuke said, as he coughed now.
Sanosuke couldn't believe he said this to Zanza, also Zanza didn't seem to catch on that he was madly in love with him. Zanza sighed out, he had no idea what this man was talking about. Zanza didn't know this man's name, let alone know any of these friends the other man kept bringing up either. Sanosuke stared toward Zanza now, he sensed it now... Zanza probably didn't remember him.
"I'll just try to sleep." Zanza then said.
"It was my fault... I wanted you to exist, you to have your own form. I am so sorry Zanza, I didn't know that this would happen." Sanosuke replied, as he sighed now.
"I don't think you even know what your talking about." Zanza replied, as he curled by the wall again.
"But, you don't understand. I... lost interest in him. I only liked how my own form felt... this making you exist... you not to be whole." Sanosuke said with a sigh.
"I am guessing you love yourself." Zanza said slowly, as he closed his eyes.
"That is what I am saying." Sanosuke replied with a deep blush.
Zanza soon fell asleep again, as Sanosuke sighed more. Sanosuke slowly returned back to his futon, maybe he could finally sleep as well, though he just wished that Zanza knew he was saying he loved him. But how could he understand that? Sanosuke asked himself, as he laid onto his futon, prodding the wooden floor below. Zanza soon stirred in his sleep, as he went back to dream land. (By the way we enter into Zanza's dream, that's how the next chapter starts)