AN: I don't know if this is a good story, I just wrote this in less than an hour. If there's any misspelled words or bad grammars, all mine, English is my second language.

Disclaimer: CSI is not mine, all of this belongs to the creators and producers.

Close Your Eyes

It was not so rare to have a slow shift, but that night was different, none of them got a new case and was forced to finish their overdue reports that they so wanted to avoid. They all just sat in the break room, except Grissom of course, looking through their cases that were easily wrapped up last shift.

"Alright, I'm gonna give this to Griss and I swear I'm gonna go home," Sara stood up and left the break room and headed to Grissom's office.

Sometimes it amazed her that even after all Grissom's rejection, he still had a special place in her heart. After all the tension that enveloped them these past few years, she can't just go back to her life before meeting him, because deep down she knew from the moment she laid her eyes on Grissom, that it's him that was made for her, that they will be there for each other in a long run. But, on the other hand, Sara was struggling on their strained relationship that didn't seem to bother Grissom at all, sometimes she just want to slap him in the face and show him what was happening to her. But then, it's Grissom and everyone knew that it will take you a millennia to get him to talk.

She stood at his office doorframe for a moment just to stare at him, then a after a minute she decided to let her presence to be known and knocked on his door, "hey I just finished this, thought I would give it early so I can head out," she said as she walked towards his desk and handed the folder.

He looked up and smiled before taking the folder from her, "is this final?" He asked, making sure that the evidence and all interrogations were documented.

She took a seat and nodded, "I've read it like a dozen times before and read it again twice tonight, still it doesn't sink in to me that some people can do such horrendous things and to know that they killed the person they claimed they loved the most," she shook her head in disbelief.

Grissom cleared his throat and without looking up, he said, "well, maybe because that's the only way for the both of them to be free, so they can let go on their own," Sara looked at him and raised an eyebrow, she really can't believe this man in front of her.

"Even if hurting that very person hurts him even more?"

"Well, maybe he killed her because he didn't want to cause her anymore pain, or just to push her away," Grissom said slowly.

"Is that the main reason he killed her? Because he caused too much pain? Or because he's scared of what will be of the future?" Now Grissom looked up and raised his eyebrow. "You know what, forget it, I think it's not the case we are talking about anymore," Sara stood up to leave but Grissom spoke up.

"Look, Sara…. I," he stood up and still he didn't come up with a single sentence.

"Griss just stop, if you don't know how to deal with this," she gestured her hands between them, "you don't have to, because I realized maybe I'm wasting my time here. In the lab. In Vegas," she paused and looked directly to Grissom, "you don't have to push me away anymore," she forced a smile and turned around to leave but Grissom grabbed her hand.

"Sara please, don't decide on something that you will regret later," Sara looked at him and he noticed the hurt in her eyes. "I know I've been distant lately, but like I told you, I still have no idea what to do about this, and I know I've hurt your feelings many times and I want to apologize for that," he paused and was about to speak when Sara cut him off.

"What's your point?" She said a little bit harshly.

"What I'm saying is, don't leave," he looked at her and saw her unanswered question, "the lab needs you here. I need you here. You're the best I've got," Sara pulled out of his grip and began to laugh sarcastically.

"I've heard that reason many times Grissom, you won't convince me with that anymore!" Before Grissom could speak, she continued, "You keep on saying you care about me, but all I feel is you pushing me away. I wish you could see how much I'm suffering, how much I hate it that I never get to have those conversations with you like before," tears started rolling down her cheeks but she continued, "I miss those times in San Francisco, I miss our old relationship. I hate myself for accepting this job because I thought our friendship will be stronger, but I was wrong," she stepped towards him and brushed her thumb on his cheek, "all I want is for you to feel the same, for you to be there for me, for you to be at least my friend, and I'm sorry if I made your life complicated by moving here,"

"Sara please do-," Sara placed a finger on his lips to silence him and she saw the pain in his eyes and she cried again.

"No Grissom, I'm helping you to make everything easier, you need to go on with your life and do what you love. You don't have to deal with me anymore, or the feelings that you may or may not have for me. I want you to be happy, and if me going back to San Francisco will make it all easier then I'll go back," she paused and smiled warmly at him while crying, "close your eyes, Gil," he looked at her while tears was forming in his eyes, "please?" She whispered, and he did hesitantly, she then cupped his face with both of her hands, "you will always be part of my life, remember that, just think that whatever I will decide is for the best and it's my decision too. Whatever will happen to me in the future is because of you, because you showed me what it feels like to love someone. But I can't go through every day knowing that it will always be one sided," She wiped the tear that escaped Grissom, "I will always love you Gil, that won't change but I can't also go through this forever," she leaned in and kissed him gently.

She kept her two fingers on his both eyes, "I'm letting you go," another tear rolled down his cheek, he kept his eyes closed when he finally let the tears rolled down his face, when he opened them, she was gone.

Sara Sidle was gone from him. Forever.