Painful love!

Disclaimer: As always; not mine.

Pairing: Emma/Shalimar

AN: The italics are when someone thinks/speaks to themselves.

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Emma lay in her bed. She hadn't been able to sleep and was trying to read a book, hoping it could make her sleepier. Suddenly a wave of emotions hit her. First it was excitement that made her whole body respond to it. Then it was quickly replaced with sorrow and pain so strong that she had to fight back her tears. Just as suddenly as the emotions had appeared, the feelings banished and left her struggling for oxygen. After a few minutes she managed to regain enough control of her body to slowly rise and walk towards the door. Jesus Christ, what the hell was that ? She fumbled trying to open the door. Jesse and Brennan are most likely sleeping at this hour, so that only leaves Shalimar or Adam. I guess my pick is on Shalimar. She walked the short way over to Shalimar's room and carefully knocked at the door. If those emotions where coming from Shal she didn't want any of the guys to barge in and disturb. She carefully opened the door and peeked in.

"Shal, are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. Shouldn't you be sleeping?" Emma stepped inside and closed the door silently. "I was trying, but it didn't work so I was reading."

"I see. I was just going to sleep myself."

"Are you sure you're okay?" Emma slightly arched her eyebrows, shoving Shalimar that she was concerned about her. "Not to sound negative or accusing or anything, but I picked up some very strong feelings and it seemed to be coming from you."

"Are you reading me?" Shalimar quickly sat up in bed with a threatening expression that made Emma stiffen.

"No, I was lying in my bed when your emotions hit me and I couldn't block them out."

Shalimar let out a sight which told Emma that Shal didn't really buy it even though it was the truth.

"I just wanna help you Shalimar. I want you to trust me."

"Yeah, everybody wants me to trust them."

"I didn't mean-"

"Sorry, I didn't mean that. I'm just a little upset; you know how I can be."

"Yeah," Shal could hear Emma's hurt voice.

"Seriously Em, it wasn't directed towards you. I know I can trust you, I'm just a little confused right now."

Emma looked into her friends eyes, and saw how sorry she was for saying that.

She walked over to the bed and sat down next to Shalimar, putting her hand on her shoulder.

"Well, why don't you tell me what you're confused about and then maybe I can help!"

Shal looked down at the floor. "I don't think you can help me Emma."

"If you won't tell me then I can't help you." She stood up and was about to leave when Shalimar asked in shock: "That's it? Are you leaving already? I thought you would dig deeper if you didn't find out."

Emma turned, a wicked smile covering her face. "Do you want me to dig deeper?"

Shal looked slightly confused. "I'm just so used to you not giving up."

"I'm tired and that's not the best time for any guessing games Shal." She suddenly looked serious. "I really want to help you, but if you won't let me in then there's really nothing I can do."

"Shalimar sighted. " I just don't think you can help me with this one Emma."

"Try me."

Shalimar fumbled with the bed sheets, clearly nervous. "Fine. I think that I kinda have feelings about someone on the team."

Emma smiled and sat down beside Shalimar.

"Really? Who is it?"

"I can't tell you."

"Okay, then why don't you tell this person how you feel?"

"Because I don't know if that person is feeling the same for me."

"And when did that ever stop you from following your intuition."

"As soon as I found out that I really liked this person. I mean, when I follow my instincts is mostly because I feel an attraction in a sexual way, but it's deeper than that with this person. It's more than just physical attraction, it's like…like-"

Shalimar looked deep into Emma's eyes and Emma could feel that something was different. Shalimar's eyes burned into her own and she felt her whole body starting to burn with her. She was just about to say something when Shalimar spoke. "I think that I'm in love Emma, I think that I love this person and that is a new feeling for me. I just don't know what to do about it."

They stayed silent looking at each other for a little while and Emma started to feel that she had to get away or at least say something to ease the awkwardness.

She cleared her throat. "Ahem…If you really feel that strong for this person then I think you should definitely tell him. I'm feeling kind of tired, so I'll just get back to my room and try to get some sleep." She rose quickly.

"Em, are you okay?"

"Yeah, it's just late and I could really need some sleep. You should try to sleep too."

"I will."

Goodnight."

"Uh, goodnight."

Emma hurried out of Shalimar's room desperate to get away so she could think about what had been said and nevertheless what had been felt when she talked to Shalimar.

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AN2: please R R. Did you like it? This is actually just the first chapter, but I don't know if it's any good? Please tell if you want more…Thanks!