I do not own fifty shades of grey .. I do this cause I am obsessed with the story and always need more =]

A/N - Okay this starts basically as if its the new beginning of Fifty Shades Darker..Some things I have taken from that book to put in place to make the story make sense ! Also please let me know if you like it and want more ! .. Also my comma key is broken so I am sorry I will probably insert dots instead ! Also I am definitely not a good writer I do this because it is something i enjoy and hope you do too !

It has been three weeks now since I left Christian.. it has been three unbearable weeks of crying. depression and regret. All I keep picturing is his face before I left and it sends me back into tears every time. Why did I leave? Was it really that bad? "Yes!" my subconscious screams at me. She's right. Every week I get stronger though on the outside at least but on the inside I am breaking more and more by the day. A few days after.. I had started work and that was a good distraction except the time in the last three weeks Christian had sent me flowers wishing me luck on my first day of my new job. That day was rough. but I got by ... barely .. I had to.

Ethan Kavanaugh .. Kate's brother is coming back tomorrow from his trip ... Kate is extending the trip to be with Elliot.. ugh I roll my eyes just thinking about I am happy for her. I just wish my friend Kate was back but Ethan will do .. he'll be staying at our apartment till he finds his own. It will be nice not to be alone and maybe not have every other free second I am not at work thinking of Christian Grey and how I long for him and just to be in his arms. I haven't been out much since then only for work and oh I went shopping once and never hated it as much as I did at that moment.

I try to sleep at night but it is so hard as the tears escape me.. this is when it gets me the most.. and if I do happen to fall asleep I am usually awoken from a dream that has to do with those piercing gray eyes and that look that look he gave me as I left.

My alarm finally goes off after laying down in my bed for the past 3 hours just gazing around blankly trying to get that picture of his eyes out of my thoughts. I jump in the shower and think maybe today will be a better day.. it is a beautiful day outside for a change. . something different... and it is a Friday today which has to count for something right? I decide to get dressed in one of my new outfits I had bought with my first paycheck. It is a powder blue silk-like blouse with a high waisted black skirt and some black heels to match. I apply some mascara and throw my hair up in a ponytail and head off to work. When i arrive to work I greet Claire with the normal boring chit chat and then go in to see Jack.

"Good Morning Jack" I say as brightly as I can.

"Good Morning Ana... be prepared today you have plenty of work cut out for you .. would you please grab me some coffee and start as soon as possible I left everything on your desk."

I go out grab him his coffee and come back to give it to him and work. Jack brushes against my fingers when I reach to pass him his coffee. "Oh. Thank you so much Anastasia" he says with a very big smile that gives me the creeps and continues with "And by the way you look absolutely stunning this morning Anastasia" I reply with a hesitated thank you normally this would be a very nice gesture from someone but it just feels odd coming from him so I make my way out of his office as fast as I could without tripping. now that gave me goosebumps and not in a good way at all.. Not at all the reaction I would have if it were ..Christian... Here I go again comparing everything that surrounds my life to Christian.. I have to stop! Get a grip Steele .. I say to myself for some encouragement.

I make my way out of Jacks' office and get to my desk and get started on reading the material that was put onto my desk. While I was consuming myself in one of the books I hear my cellphone ringer go off in the drawer of my desk. I notice it is Ethan and pick up quickly so Jack doesn't hear it. He is not a big fan of cellphones when we are so busy.

"Hey Ethan." I say as quietly as I can.

"Hey Ana!" He says happier and louder than I could bare these days.

"How was your flight? Hope it wasn't too bad?" I ask

"It was alright.. so hey since I will be back before you get out of work I figured I would just come to your job and pick up the keys if that is alright with you?"

"Of course... i'll text you the address and when I get out of work I figured we could get a bite to eat or something for dinner?"

"Sounds like a plan Steele.. see you soon around 2" he says and than hangs up.

At around two Claire calls me "Ana there is some beautiful .. leonardo dicaprio look alike man here who is asking for you"

I laugh at little "Okay Claire I'll be right there"

I come out and see Ethan standing there with an amazing dark surfer tan and his green eyes glowing. He comes over and gives me a big bear hug "Hey Steele.. wow you look hot" he says as he inspects me. I blush and give my shy smile and give him a little push showing him my mortifying discomfort. "Thank you Ethan" I hand him the keys and tell him i'll be home by five and that we could have dinner than. He nods and goes on his way.

Finally five o'clock rolls around so I go to tell Jack I am leaving.. he just waved and I wondered why it can't always be like that.

I get back around 530 and see Ethan on the couch watching some re-runs of the show Friends. We decide to order some chinese food since Ethan felt a little tired from all the traveling he did today. After we eat dinner we decide to just sit and watch a movie and just talk.. he tells me all about his trip and how Kate and Elliot are doing. Then he asks about Christian.. ugh I so did not want to talk about him.. "So where is that guy .. um whats his name.." "Christian" I say not letting him finish his sentence. "Yea him what happened? You realized you were too good for him?" he says laughing. I thought for a moment that it was weird that he said that since Ethan had only met him once for a brief moment so I instead just decided to ignore that comment. "Things just didn't work out" I say and he senses my uneasiness and sadness in my voice and he just drops the subject.. thankfully.. Soon after Ethan decides to retire and go to sleep and I do the same... well hoping I could do the same.

The night was no different from the others .. lots of tossing and turning and piercing gray eyes in my thoughts and just trying to make up scenarios of us in my head. I need to face the facts that the man I love is just never going to give me what I need in return. I need to get into my "Girl Power" mode if I ever want to get over this man who was never even mine to begin with... plus I'm sure he has already found a new sub and I am just sitting here dreaming and crying over a man who is too busy to even think of me. I am just so lonely without him I miss everything about him .. His smile when we went gliding or the way his face lights up when talking about his car and that look he gave me that made my insides clench and felt like a million butterflies exploded in my stomach.. and I especially miss his touch like the way he used his expert fingers to make my body obey to his every command.. I miss that.. I miss him .. finally after a few hours I am able to sleep not for long but any amount will do at this point.