Now That I Remember

by Axel-KH

Just a little poem about Cloud and the trouble he has dealing with Zack's death, and the fact that he couldn't live for him like he promised. Short and sweet. Slash intended, but you don't have to read it that way.

A/N: Hey there, readers. I know, I've been gone for a long while, but I'm back. I have another Kingdom Hearts story that I'm thinking of uploading, but for now I'm going to give you a bit of Final Fantasy VII. Here's a little poem about Cloud and his poor tortured soul as he tries to live after the death of Zack. This is after he loses his memory because of mako poisoning and everything. I guess it's after FFVII, not Crisis Core. Anyway, I wrote this in about 15 minutes just now, but I want to get back in touch with my fanfiction account. So here it is! I'm also writing a long Zack/Cloud story that I'm going to start uploading sometime too. I need to get a bit further ahead in it before I do, but it should be good. I guess that's it for me. Oh, yeah, this poem is slash between Cloud and Zack.

Now that I remember you, I don't know how I could have forgotten you

Every day feels like another burden, and I don't know how to let go

I feel you there, but I can't reach you

I try to smile, but I can't make it stay

It's so frustrating, I wish I could break free sometimes

But it would be worse to forget you again than to endure this torture

I'd rather suffer this way, keeping you with me

It's difficult, though, to live like you, to live for you

Especially when I can never be what you were

How can I live when you were my life?

I know you believe in me, but that only makes the burden greater

Because I don't want to let you down

Yet I don't believe in myself

All I know how to do is mourn for you

It's been years, but I can't seem to rid myself of this guilt

You died for me, and I forgot

I know you'd say it's not my fault, but that won't change how I feel

I just spend my time now trying to let you know how much I still need you

I still feel that chill when I crawl into bed and you're nowhere near me

I still cry in the night when I wake up alone

I still walk to that spot where you fought to the death and pray that you'll come to me,

Even just for a minute

So I can tell you that I'm sorry and that I love you

And that I will never forget you again

I would rather live alone forever than forget.

A/N: Reviews might be good. Let me know if my existence is recognized.