Decisions
by SethRyne
Disclaimer: As much as it breaks my heart, I do not own Gundam Wing... This is a non-profit work so people... don't sue me for this...( Notes: This story was originally written under the pen name verge404. I would like to clarify that we are the same person. So no flaming me saying that I copied this out of another person. Moreover, I didn't what came to me when I was writing this. It must have been the rain... But to all you readers forgive me. This is a dialogue between Duo and Heero. Italics are Heero's lines.
"I love you... I've been waiting so long to tell you this... Now I did it! Heero... I love you..."
Duo bowed his head as he stood in front of a stoic Heero Yuy. Waiting for his answer. But nothing came... Instead the perfect soldier just turned to walk away...
"Heero..."
"What do you expect me to say Duo? That I love you back..." Heero asked over his shoulder as he stopped at the call of his name.
No answer.
"You are dreaming Maxwell."
And he walked away...
Forever...3oldier...
My purpose was to love him... His... to hurt me... What happens to man when he loses his purpose? Does he continue on and look for another one? Or does he shrivel up and die, just like the leaves in winter? What about me? Am I one to look for another purpose? Or to just give up and let the wind carry my ashes unto my grave? I am neither. I will continue... but I am dead... where am I to place myself? Where? I have lost it... my humanity... the day I killed that girl and her dog... and I have borne it ever since... I have killed countless men after that... without even feeling a bit of guilt in me... but... I can't understand myself... I didn't kill him... I never even touched him... But... why am I feeling like this... Feel like I have just destroyed another life... the life of one whom I hold dear to my heart... Heart? Do I have one after all? I never realized that... until I met him. He seemed so free, so energetic, so... alive. Everything I am not. Hn. The Perfect Soldier, envying another man for something he does not possess. And never will. How pathetic.
What are you to me Heero Yuy? Why am I being like this just because of you... Why can't I return to myself after what has happened... Why can't I just resolve what happened by just smiling, like the way I deal with the troubles of my life? Why do I feel helpless? What control do you have over me? Tell me, Heero! Tell me... What is going on with me? Why am I acting like this? Why does my chest tighten when I think of him? Why does my heart pound everytime his face passes by my thoughts? Why does my stomach tighten, now that I remember that way you always smiled at me? It could be that... No! I feel nothing for Duo Maxwell! He is nothing to me! Then... why? Is this it Heero? Is everything over? What will happen to us now? What will happen to me now? What I am feeling now is threefold of everything I ever felt my entire life... So much... so much... that it has left me blank... unwanting... void... I am numb... It is over... We are through... My dream has gone... Duo... What have you done to me? Why do see your face everytime I close my eyes? Why can I hear your name when no one speaks it? Why do I yearn for you when you are not there? Why do I want the dream to continue? Could it be, Duo? Could it be... I love you... Duo Maxwell... Notes This is actually an undecided one-shot... Meaning... I don't know if I'm gonna add any more chappies or not. But all the same... Saty tuned... Ehehehehe