Hey Everyone...I just wrote something about Edward when he was away from Bella in New Moon.
I DO NOT own the Characters or anything else...They are all of Stephenie Meyer's.
Hope you like it!
I was alone, alone in the dark. But I couldn't breath. The pain was so intense. Every fragment of my body was in pain. I cannot do that, I thought.
I cannot live this way. It was like I was blind, like I was dead. But I wasn't and I was sitting on the floor like a crazy person not knowing where I was.
I have lost the track of time. I didn't know what day it was, if it is was day or night. I didn't know anything. I have lost myself when I left her there.
How I was able to do something like that? How? I was certain that if I could die, then I died in front of her. But she didn't see it. She was so shocked when I lied to her and she believed it. She believed it without effort. How could she? How could she believe all these lies and not fight back for me?
I am mourning for my love. I am mourning that I left her. I hate myself for that decision. My decision was wrong. But I cannot change it or can I? And if I ever go back will she accept me? I will beg if I have to. But what if she already has moved on? What am I going to do? I loved her, but I was forced to leave her.
I had to leave her. She has the right to live her life. Without me, like I never existed.
But I am here and I love her more than she knows. I bet, that she thinks that I am fine that I can live, like I did before I met her. But I am not. I wish I could see her face again. Touch her. Listen to her heartbeat again.
But I cannot and that pain in my heart, in my dead heart is killing me. It is like having a hole in my body, a hole that consumes everything. Consumes Me.
I was already dead, but now It feels like I am living in a permanent hell. I am doomed. I have to die. There must be a way. I have to find it. I just cannot concentrate anymore. All these voices, the buzz is killing me. Wish I could sleep. Wish I wasn't here in the dark. I just wish, but I have to empty my head somehow…