Note: Wrote this instead of wallowing in my self-pity. Yeah, this happenened to me. No beta, so all mistakes and suckery are my own. Title ganked from The Goo Goo Dolls. Don't own Glee, blahblahblah.
Rachel liked to pretend that her relationship with Puck was what she wanted. After all, if Puck was happy, she was happy.
She just wished it hadn't played out this way.
Rachel had given so much of herself to Puck, and in turn, he gave nothing. Sure, he showed affection for her in the hours they were alone, but in public, she was his dirty little secret.
At first, she was fine with it; Rachel would've done anything to please Puck. However, as the months passed by, nothing had changed. Even after sex had entered the picture, he showed nothing more than mild interest in her when in public.
And that, hurt Rachel more than anything.
All she wanted was for someone to love her, to show her that she was worth something to someone. But Puck never gave that to her.
No amount of words, wishes or hope could make Puck love her.
She just hoped, wished, feared, that her tears would somehow get through.