Excitement is overwhelming, this is my first story, i hope you guys like it. I need a Beta as well any suggestions or takers?I would be so happy to know! anyway i'll shut up now :]

Disclaimer- characters and all belong to Stephanie Meyer not me. this plot is mine though :)

Chapter 1

To be loved or cared about is that so much to ask for these days? Must be I can't believe that this is happening to me right now. Is he bluffing? He has lost his mind hasn't he? Or is it just me? It is me isn't it!?

"It's not you it's me," he says. Just when I thought everything was going to work in my favor just this once. It all blows up in my damn face. I don't know what I did wrong here. I had to have done something to bring this on right?

"Look I have moved on and your just not it for me, I love you I do just not in the way you want. A little girl isn't what I'm looking for I just think-"

"A little girl?," I ask incredulously.

"Look Bella no hard feelings ok?" I can only stare at him is he kidding? What the fuck?

"Brad I'm 18 what the fuck is wrong with you?, your only 21!"He gives me a sad look and shakes his head. "This is why we need to see other people...,"he trails off. "Why?" I ask trying so hard not to show emotions. I hate that he has me getting ready to sob. I mean 3 years for nothing?

"I'm a man now I have bigger and better things to worry about." I get a good look at him. 6'2 frame, his short cropped blonde hair barley covering his head, his strong chest, broad shoulders, chiseled face and all. American dream boy for sure. Did I forget he had blue eyes? I feel like all I can really do is laugh. So I do.

He looks at me as if he was missing something. "What is so damn funny?" he asks with a confused look on his face. Must I always explain myself?

"You know what fuck you Brad." The look on his face was priceless. When he realized what I said to him, his face was turning red. Almost looked like fire in his eyes. (Almost)

"This is why I slept with Carrie!"Everything just stopped in my head. As soon as he realized what he said he started stuttering. He looked at me to see my reaction. "Bells I didn't-" I snapped my eyes to his face. "No why would she do that to me Brad? She isn't that low!"I screamed, staring at him waiting for an answer I already knew. "I have my reasons Bella," he said lower than a few minutes ago. My eyes became slits the second he put his hand on the back of his neck. "What could be the reasons for sleeping with my sister Brad?"I asked getting vex with every passing second.

The silence between us was so unbearable I wanted to scream just to make it stop. "What did you expect Bella, you never touch me! You are the biggest tease with your shorts and tank tops and you never once touched me-"before I knew it myself the sound of skin to skin contact was the only thing I could hear at the moment. He slowly turned towards me with dark eyes. His hand shot back so fast I didn't have time to react before my face was stinging with a red hot searing pain. My body lost balance and I flew back on his bed. Tears slid down my face. "Bella...Oh god Bella I didn't mean to- "he touched my arm making me jerk away from him. I got up and grabbed my bag off his dresser and rushed to the door. It seemed so close but not enough.

He grabbed my arm pulling me back again. "Bella wait I didn't mean to I swear you won't tell anyone will you?" I stared at him in disbelief. I shook my arm from his hand but his grip was harder than I expected. "Let me go Brad... I shouldn't be here" I said as firmly as I could muster. I tried to pull my arm away but his grip got tighter. "Brad let go!" I yelled. "He pushed me against the wall near the door so hard the air was pushed from my lungs. "Not until you give me your word" he said grimly. He was holding my hands so tight it hurt. "Brad please your hurting me" I said quietly. He gave me a good look before shaking his head and laughing. He let go, but caged me in with his arms leaning in very close. I was about to push past him, when he pushed me back. "You can't keep me here Brad" I said trying to push past him again but failing.

"Brad stop it." He narrowed his eyes at me then.

"Or what? Hmm you going to slap me again?"He smirked. As quickly as he smirked it disappeared as I slapped him once more.

"Go fuck yourself" I whispered in his ear. I don't know why I did it, but as soon as it happened I regretted it. He spit blood and looked at me with malice. He grabbed me by the hair and flung me on the bed.

"You think you're funny huh? I'll show you funny" he said taking his shirt off. I looked at him and tried to back up on the bed, but he grabbed my ankle and yanked me down the bed. "Where the hell was frisky Bella all this time huh?" he said starting to hover over me. "Brad stop it, you don't have to do this" I said trying to plead. He pushed me down forcefully pulling my legs apart. I couldn't help it as the tears started spilling. "Brad please..." my voice croaked. He sat up and ripped the buttons off of my blouse then ripped my shorts off just as fast. "Brad stop please! Stop!" I screamed. He wasn't listening anymore I tried to get up but he pushed me back down trying to resettle himself on top of me. He grabbed my arms and pinned them above my head. He leaned down and started kissing up my neck. "Brad stop, I don't want this, please" I sobbed. He brushed it off as if I didn't say anything. He sat up enough to try and kiss me. I turned my head to the side when he leaned down, causing him to tighten his hold on my wrists. I whimpered in pain as he squeezed. He grew rigid and stilled, and then he released my hands as he got off of me. I sat up wiping the tears from my face I grabbed my shorts and put them on as quickly as my feet would let me. I slipped my shoes on as quickly as I could. I rushed to the door reclaiming my bag. Just as I was about to leave he chose to speak.

"Bella I... I'm sorry, I just lost my temper. I shouldn't have done all of that, it was uncalled for." I stared at his back for a moment then put my head down. I raised my head slowly to find him staring at me waiting for a reply.

"Go to hell Brad" I said grimly as opened the door and slammed it behind me. When I ran down the stairs I ran into his younger brother Randy.

"Hey Bella what's up?" he said before getting a good look at me. "What the hell happened to you? Are you hurt?" he said panicking. I pushed pass him as soon as I heard Brad coming behind me. As I got to the front door I heard Randy ask him what happened. "Bella wait!" he shouted.

Wait? He wants me to wait for him when he tried to rape me and hit me! He grabbed my arm again spinning me around. "Fuck off Brad!"I shouted as I pushed him backwards. He stopped as I opened the door and ran to my car.

That was the last time I saw and spoke to my ex boyfriend.

P.S excuse any mistakes if they are present.

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