Drink: Kamatari and Chou
"Why did you
stop me back then, anyway?" He spoke into his drink instead of
at his companion.
Chou glanced up sharply.
"Hmm?"
"I wanted to die."
Kamatari gulped his sake down and grimaced. "At least then I
would've died honorably than to have to go on living like this."
"We-e-ll..."
Chou drummed his fingers against the table top. "Are you telling
me you regret not doing it then? That you resent me for that?"
There was no answer.
"At any rate, dying
for someone who never appreciated you-"
Kamatari slammed his fist
down, making the dishes bounce and clatter. "Beaten! By two
little girls... children, they were children! The brat wouldn't let
me die, either! Am I really that worthless?" His words came out
slurred; his face was flushed from the alcohol.
"Even after all this
time. None of the work you've done up until now makes up for it in
the least?"
"He was the only
thing I treasured, the only... I couldn't even finish myself to be
with him." He was crying now, working himself up into a frenzy.
He got to his feet abruptly, bumping into the table, sending the sake
bottle clattering onto its side, splashing onto the front of his
kimono.
Chou stood as well,
grabbing Kamatari's wrists as his drunk friend wobbled unsteadily.
"Killing yourself this way isn't honor. And what makes you think
things will be different in the next world between you and him?"
"Fuck you!"
Kamatari screamed, lashing out in intoxicated fury. "You don't
understand me! You don't understand anything about me! If I'd been
born a woman! If his attention hadn't been leeched away by that whore
and that kid! I-"
Both of Chou's eyes were
opened now, his expression completely different from the usual smirk
and wink. With the alcohol clouding his mind and the tears clouding
his vision, Kamatari failed to notice the warning signs.
Slap.
The shock hit Kamatari
with greater force than Chou's hand. He stopped struggling, arms
dropping limply to his sides. "You... you..."
"Dammit, Kamatari, no
one is going to hold your fucking hand through your entire life! You
think I don't understand you? I understand perfectly! Life's dealt
you a shit hand. But what is that compared to what anyone else has
been through, especially in this day and age? You know what, if you
really think you're that much worse off than anyone else in this
hellhole of a world, then maybe you should just end it! What's been
stopping you up until now?"
Kamatari's knees gave way
and he sank shakily back down into his seat with a weak hiccup. "Do
it, then! Because maybe I don't give a fuck anymore... maybe no one
does!" Chou turned on his heel and began storming towards the
door.
Kamatari caught his
sleeve, causing Chou to glance down in surprise.
"Don't,"
Kamatari said hoarsely. "...Stay."
