I just thought this would be nice to do because I read Allegiant and cried forever.
I miss her, I miss her more than I ever though possible. Evelyn suggested I write her letters I haven't tried it yet because I don't think it will work, but she said its worth a shot. So…
Dear Tris,
I don't think that's its healthy to miss someone as much as I miss you right now. Every time I think about you it feels like a knife in my chest that got wrenched out roughly. I hate turning talk to someone to tell them how I feel and you're not there. I have cried more over you than I did when I was a child and Marcus was beating me. God Tris this is by far the hardest time of my life. I know you would tell me to move on, but ,God, I can't you were too perfect for me to ever get over you. Your beauty, your selflessness, your BRAVERY, your love and affection. Tris, I want you to know you ARE all of those things whether you believe it or not, and I love you still. Tris I knew this before but it's hard trying to live without you. I'm pushing through, working hard knowing that you wouldn't want me to just give up. Christina misses you too I've saw her break down in the middle of the pit screaming your name and Will's she can't handle both of you gone. This grief, it's overtaking her, she is going to lose it soon. I think I will too. I wish that I could take all the time I spent mad at you back and spend more of it making memories. I wish that I could have one more day with you, my whole life with you. Needless to say, if yo could go back to the dy you died I would have taken every bullet for you just to keep you alive, even if I we're to die. You are worth more to me than my own life. I guess I'm just a love-sick puppy now, huh? I love you to the moon and back.
Tobias