What If
NOTE: I started part of this poem like story in the Sylar/Elle fanforum thread. It seemed sorta related to Ed/Bella but about Sylar and Elle of course hehe.. Enjoy.
i cant control it...
this urge of needing you
wanting you here beside me
to feel your heart beating
next to me
just to feel your arms..
and hold you close..
you being near me
scares me
i dont want to hurt you..
you are all i have left
if i ever hurt you
i would not know what to do
i would be so ashamed of what i have become
i would rather die
than live..
knowing what i have done to you
i would not deserve you at all
the look in your eyes
when I see you..
full of fear
knowing its not love
but hate
the truth is you would not want me anymore
even if you said you still loved me
after what i have done
it would not be the same deep down
what have i become
how did i get this way
these questions linger inside me
the ones i dont want to confront or endure
because living my life without you
is something I dont want to do
because i love you
only you
you are my heart
my soul
my everything
hurting you is seeing a part of my heart
drift away
empty
silenced