Chapter 1: A New Beginning

Author's note: Hi everybody, this is my first fanfiction. I don't own supernatural or any of the characters of the TV show. This is just a fanfiction for fun. This is an alternative ending to season 11 so enjoy. Also, the first chapter starts out just like the last episode of season 11 but then changes, so don't skip it.

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In the Bunker:

"What do we do now?" asked Cas after their embarrassing defeat by Amara.

"There's only one thing to do," thinks Dean. "Accept defeat and enjoy the last minutes. It was pretty much hopeless and there was nothing they could do. He and Sam have saved the world so many times and every time they do, things just get worse. It's as if the universe is working against them and just wants to die. Maybe the world wants to die and this is the way it finally gets the Winchesters to stop saving it." He heads to the fridge and grabs some beer.

"Really!" says Sam, shocked. "Really," says Dean in a very defeated tone. "Look man, we hit Amara with everything we had, and she walked it off."

"So what, it's last haul?"

"Look man," says Dean. "If you have anything for me to shoot, hunt, or kill I will do. I will do until the day I die….But how are we supposed to fix the freakin sun?"

Sam says nothing. There was nothing to be said. They had lost, the world was going to end, and their was nothing that they could do.

"Ah, you know this isn't going to be enough, I better go make a run, no reason to die sober huh," jokes Dean.

"No!" growls Sam, shaking his head.

Everybody else seemed to have the same idea. Chuck and Rowena were drinking tea and Crowley was drinking beer in the main common room.

"What are we doing?" questions Sam in shock after walking in.

"Nothing," states Rowena.

"EXACTLY, NOTHING!" Sam shouts back. "Amara is eating the freakin sun and we are doing nothing!"

"You have a better idea?" asks Crowley.

"YES!" declares Sam very loudly and boldly. "Yes! Anything! that's my better idea because anything is better than this!" shouts Sam as he points around.

"Sam, I get it," says Chuck sympathetically and sadly. "Even if we could lock Amara away, it wouldn't do any good, I'm dying. And when I die, the cosmic balance between light and dark will be disrupted and that will be the end of everything."

"Alright," says Sam thinking. "Than if we cannot cage her…..we have to kill her."

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Dean and Cas in the Impala:

"How are you doing, are you good?" asks Dean to Cas.

Cas just shakes his head.

"I mean…..with the whole Lucifer thing," adds Dean.

"I was just….uh…..so stupid," replies Cas shaking his head.

"No…no, you weren't stupid. You were right. You were right to let Lucifer ride shotgun, and me and Sam wouldn't have done that,"

"Well it didn't work," mutters Cas.

"Yeah but it was our best shot….And you stepped up," replies Dean.

"I was just trying to help," states Cas.

"Well…..you….you do help Cas. I mean…..sometimes…sometimes me and Sam just have so much going on….and…..and we forget about everyone else," replies Dean.

"Well you do live exciting lives,"

"Well heh, that's one word for it," replies Dean. "But your always there you know…You're the best friend we've ever had…..Your our brother Cas, I want you to know that."

"Thank you"

Soon Dean's phone starts ringing.

"Yo….ok, we're coming," says Dean answering. "Sam's got something."

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Back at the Bunker:

"Wait, so now you want to kill the Darkness?" asks Dean. "Your cool with this?" he says to Chuck.

"Look, Chuck's dying, no offense…..God," states Sam.

"Yeah, yeah I know, I'm dying," responds Chuck.

"Look, um you have darkness and light, you, you take away one," begins Sam.

"And that upsets the whole balance," answers Cas.

"Exactly," says Sam. "So if you take both away, then there will be nothing and the scales will be balanced."

"Ok, look, I get it, I totally agree with ganking the Darkness. But, if I remember correctly, she's God's sister and is impossible to kill," responds Dean.

"Is she?" asks Sam to Chuck.

"Well, um, ….ah…..her only weakness is me. I'm the only one that can kill her," says Chuck. "But, right now I don't think I could, even if I wanted to."

"Ok, well…..we….just need to come up with other ideas," says Sam as Dean shakes his head.

Chuck stares off and thinks for a moment. "Well….I…..I did have this other idea."

"What!" says everybody simultaneously.

"time travel"

"What?" asks Dean, "I…..thought that…..that didn't really work, you know….with…..with that, all paths lead to the same place crap."

"It's not supposed to work," states Chuck. "Look…there is a way to send y'all back and actually make a difference.

"Even…even though it will strengthen him," he says very silently to himself.

"Ok….so, I'm guessing that the plan is to send us back before I get the Mark so that we don't end up in this pile of crap," states Dean.

"Actually…um, I was thinking of sending y'all back even farther. You know…..the beginning," states Chuck.

"What beginning?" asks Dean.

"You know…um, the day that started it all…..November 2nd 1983"

A deafening silence soon follows as the realization hits Sam and Dean,

"So….your saying that we can be sent back and stop…..everything…all of this from…from ever happening," responded Dean skeptically.

"Well that's….."

"Wait a sec," said Sam who had not spoken for quite some time. "Just now, you said something about how sending us back will….will strengthen him?"

"Yes," replied Cas suddenly. "I do recall you whispering something along those lines to yourself. But….it was not meant to be heard by us….was it."

"Look guys…I can't…this"

"Chuck!" everybody shouted simultaneously again.

"There are some things that are just not meant to be known," replied Chuck.

"Huh, well…..the bloody universe is going to end and God still won't give us all the answers," whispers Crowley to himself.

"You know what….Crowley does have a point Chuck. The world's freakin ending and if we're going to save its ass again, then we deserve to know!" shouted Dean.

A sigh escapes from Chuck. "Well…I guess since it will inevitably happen, I might as well tell you…Ok…um, I, I don't know where to start, but….."

"Just start from the damn beginning!" snapped Dean.

"Well….in the beginning, it…..it wasn't just me and Amara…Look you have to understand…In the beginning, it was just me, the darkness, and death. We….we all had this bond like no other…..It was like we were one."

"Ok, so you , Amara, and Death were like siblings that had a strong bond. How does this….."

"Ok, actually I have a better explanation…Do y'all know what the Trinity is?" asked Chuck.

"Uh, the chick in the matrix movie," responded Dean.

"The Trinity is the way you address God completely. It is the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit," responded Cas.

"Bingo…now think about what Castiel said about the complete God, and what I said about the bond between me, Amara, and Death," asked Chuck.

"So…..your saying that both you, Amara, and Death were….were all one being?" asked Sam.

"Uum, yes and no….it's hard to explain since y'all can't perceive it, but, think about the relationship between the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit," answered Chuck.

"Each one in of itself is the one complete God. Each one is 100% God," answered Cas.

"Exactly"

"Wait, so your saying that there are 3 Gods now?" asked Dean.

"No, just listen…..um. Look, you first have to understand that there are limits to the human perception."

"Well I feel insulted," responded Dean.

"Alright….here, so name me a 2 dimensional object?" asked Chuck.

"A square would be one," responded Sam.

"Correct, now name me a 3 dimensional square?" asked Chuck.

"A cube," responded Sam.

"Correct, now name me a 4 dimensional cube?" responded Sam.

…."Huh," responded Sam after thinking for a while. "That is a good question."

"Ok, what about a 5 dimensional cube? How about a 20th or 100th dimensional cube? Do you see my point?" asked Chuck.

"That we're idiots," responded Dean.

"There are limitations to what we can perceive," responded Sam.

"Exactly," responded Chuck, "Now, how do people ad priests usually describe God," asked Chuck.

"They usually describe Him as all powerful, all knowing, all seeing, and everywhere," responded Cas.

"Exactly"

"Wait….but that's all crap. I mean….no offense Chuck, but you got your ass kicked and our about to die," responded Dean.

"Just listen. Now picture the all powerful God as a cube. When you put the cube in front of your face and look straight at it, what do you see?" asked Chuck.

"You only see a square," answered Sam.

"Exactly, y'all can't perceive the entire cube, or the complete and entire God. However, when you do perceive God, you see the square, or in this case me. Flip it around and you may see another square, Amara or Death. To religious people, they look at other sides of the cube and see the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. To atheists, they narrow themselves to only a couple of sides of the cube and see logic and science," explained Chuck.

…"I think I see now," responded Sam.

"Well my head hurts," answered Dean.

"Now, y'all probably noticed by now but…that I am not all powerful….and sometimes was a duosh, right. It may seem as if I myself have a ruler sometimes," answered Chuck.

"Yes, definitely!" shouted Dean. "No offense, but you keep blabbing on about how killing Amara will disrupt the natural order. As God you should be able to just snap your fingers and fix up the damn natural order, not be its bitch!"

"You see….that's the thing….."

"Wait….are you saying that the natural order is…is like the 3 dimensional cube of God and you….you, the Darkness, and Death are the squares that we can see?" asked Sam.

"For the sake of your comprehension and imagination, yes," answered Chuck.

"And when you disrupt natural order you get…." Said Sam pausing to think.

"Are…..are you saying that…..that just how there is the Darkness…there is…..there is the Chaos?" asked Sam.

A grave look crossed Chuck's face and he looked at the floor before whispering very softly, "yes."

"Well is it…..is it part of the God cube, or…..?"

"No…..it's something entirely different. It's….its like its own complete and separate cube. Honestly…..it's….something completely foreign…completely alien," explained Chuck.

"So what's the damn story behind it!" snapped Crowley.

"Ok…..so, by the way, the only other entity who knows about this is Death, not even Amara knows…so in the beginning…..it was just me, the Darkness, and Death. And you now know how we completed each other, and through each other, we completed the natural order….and…..and then it came, Chaos….It…it was something that I had never seen before. It's the reason why Amara became so destructive in the first place…It's also what powers the Mark. It's not the Darkness trapped in the Mark that turns you, but the Chaos itself," explained Chuck.

"And sending us back would strengthen this chaos dude?" asked Dean.

"Yes,"

"Right now, it is kept at bay, but every action that induces chaos, strengthens it…and allows it to…..to awaken," explained Chuck.

"And sending us back would awaken it?" asked Dean.

"It would definitely increase its chance of being awakened, which seems like it will inevitably happen," responded Chuck.

"Let's just get to the point, can it be killed?" asked Crowley.

"I'm not sure about killing it, but it's the strongest weapon I've made against it," explained Chuck.

"Well what is it and where?" asked Sam.

"Not what, who. And it seems to be y'all. You and Dean."

…"W…wait a minute. What do you mean by…..us?" asked Dean.

"Have y'all ever wondered why I created mankind?" asked Chuck.

"No…..you know what…why did you create us in the first place?" asked Dean.

"So, when I locked Amara away…it strengthened Chaos to the point where it almost awakened. It was inevitably going to happen so I had to create the ultimate weapon against it. One that could, you know…fight fire with fire. I made a species that….that understood free will. A species programmed for both order and chaos. A species that….that could stand for what it believed in…even, even in the face of overwhelming odds. A species of survivors, one that was free," explained Chuck.

"Ok, well that's all fine and dandy…but how are we supposed to kill this Chaos dude. I mean, without a weapon, we're…..we're, we can't even take out a ghost," replied Dean.

"Well why do you think y'all were so important during the apocalypse?" asked Chuck.

"Vessels," replied Sam. "Are you saying that….that you need a special vessel to defeat Chaos?" asked Sam.

"It's more than just a vessel, and Amara and Death also need one," explained Chuck.

"What do you mean by more than just a vessel?" asked Sam.

"I would be in y'alls soul but both of us would have 100% control and it would greatly magnify my powers and hopefully, allow us to kill it. We would actually merge into one being," replied Dean.

"Well why can't we just do this gig right now and take out both Amara and this Chaos dude," asked Dean.

"Because y'all aren't ready," answered Chuck.

"What does that mean?" asked Dean.

"The vessel must be of the bloodline of Cain and Abel, and must be conditioned by undergoing a series of tests and trials," explained Chuck.

"What do you mean by undergoing tests and trials," asked Dean.

"Well you know…y'all stopped the apocalypse, killed Eve, bore the Mark and did a crap tone of other stuff," responded Chuck.

"And by sending us back…..even though it will awake Chaos…..it will…..it will prep me and Dean into becoming the true vessels and allow us to ensure that the Darkness is not released," asked Sam.

"Yes," answered Chuck.

"And…this Chaos dude will be awakened for sure?" asked Dean.

"Well…there is a very, very small chance of this happening….but….if you go back in time and do everything correctly…..you can save all your friends and family, ensure that the Darkness is not released, and become the perfect vessels without awakening Chaos," explained Chuck.

"Well we got to take this chance. I mean….if we can save everybody, our family, friends, we got to take it no matter how small of a snowballs chance we've got," declared Dean.

"Is there anything else Chuck that we should know about?" asked Dean.

"Um…..so the Men of Letters are not completely wiped out. There…..there are currently other active branches all across the world….Actually, the British Men of Letters are right now sending in an agent to capture and interrogate y'all," explained Chuck.

"What! British Men of Letters…and why do they want to interrogate us?" asked Dean.

"Well…y'all have caused a big ruckus around here. You know with the apocalypse, leviathans, and a whole lot of other stuff," explained Chuck.

"Well…I mean, they could've helped us instead of just sitting on their asses!...And now they want to interrogate us!...Are you freakin kidding me!" shouted Dean, angrily in disbelief.

"Well…you know….they are traditionalists…You know, um…some of them are more of, you know….observers and knowledge seekers," explained Chuck. "Also, there is some corruption among their ranks…some of them acting as double agents for their enemies," explained Chuck.

"Enemies…what enemies?" asked Dean.

"You know….like the Thules, Stynes. There are other evil organizations out there that y'all haven't faced yet.

"Ok….well…details man?" demanded Dean.

"There main enemies are the Thules and Steins, but there are other minor players. For example, cults, practitioners of dark magic, all kinds of crazy stuff."

"And will this be a problem?" asked Dean.

"I hope not."

"Wait….back to um…..Chaos. How did it come if…..if it was asleep?" asked Sam.

"It's…it's more like a force that came…What I mean by awaken is that it….it will become conscious and aware," explained Chuck.

"And how will we know when it's awakening? Will there be signs or…." began Sam.

"Yes there will be signs. Anything that is completely out of place indicates that Chaos will awaken."

"Well….uh…your going to have to be more specific….cause um…..everything that we do deals with things that are out of place?" asked Dean.

"So….um an example would be if….if the Leviathans were suddenly released and nothing happened that released them," explained Chuck.

"So random bad crap,"

"yep"

"Alright…..well we, we should probably pack our stuff if we're going to be sent back permanently," announced Dean.

"Oh and um, there's one more thing you need to know," announced Chuck. "Um…when, when I send y'all back…..it, it will be different than normal time travel," announced Chuck.

"What does that mean?" demanded Dean.

"Um….I will be sending y'alls soul back, but not body. Y'all will have the body of y'alls child self," explained Chuck. A silence followed as both Dean and Sam stared at Chuck skeptically.

"What!...what!...what!...Ok look, I didn't know God had a sense of humor. I'm guessing that this is your crack at a funny joke but," stated Dean.

"No I'm being serious. This is the only way without awakening Chaos."

"Ok but how exactly are we supposed to do squat when we're in our freakin diapers!" demanded Dean.

"Well….I am sending everybody here back as well, so y'all will have them. Also, if you do it correctly, you and Sam will have your parents who could definitely help," explained Chuck.

"I don't like this idea," stated Crowley. "Look, I was just a bloody punkass crossroads demon back then!"

"Ok you know what, would you rather be dead with the rest of the world or a crossroads demon!" shouted Dean.

"Look Crowley….maybe helping us will help you," stated Sam.

"And why's that?"

"Well, I mean, probably Azazel was the king of Hell back them since Lilith was trapped. If you help us take out Azazel, the spot will open and you can become the King of Hell again," explained Sam.

"True point"

"And none of this Purgatory crap, ok!" demanded Dean.

"Fine, as long as you don't do any of your demon trial nonsense!"

"And no hunting me down," said Rowena. "Fergus, I'm talking about you."

"Yes mother, as long as you don't try to kill me. In fact, you bloody stay as far away from me as possible!" shouted Crowley.

"Alright, you know what….how about this. We go back, kill Azazel, and then we all leave, mind our own business, and never see each other ever again!" shouted Dean.

"Fine!" everybody else seemed to agree.

"Charles, will I be a helpless little baby when you send me back as well?" she asked in a very thick accent that pissed the hell out of Dean.

"No, you had the same body back then as you do now so nothing will be different. Also, Crowley and Castiel won't change since their not human," explained Chuck.

"Alright, so in terms of packing, we probably don't need much since we're going to be kids again," states Dean.

"Yeah….but we should bring or angel gear, just in case they show up. Also, you have the demon knife and Cas has the angel blade, so that should be enough against Azazel, right," states Sam.

Suddenly Crowley and Rowena froze in place. "Uh Chuck….what are you doing?" asked Dean.

"Um, there's stuff that I need to tell you that Crowley and Rowena should not know about," stated Chuck.

"Well that's something I definitely need to hear," announced Dean.

"Um, y'all really underutilize this bunker," stated Chuck

"What does that mean."

"Well, this Bunker has a weapons room that's like a freakin arsenal. It's behind the shelves in the laboratory upstairs. There are some very powerful weapons, couple of Hands of God, and some additional angel blades and demon knives," stated Chuck.

"Son of a bitch! We had this the entire freakin time!" shouted Dean.

"Yeah, I thought that you should probably know, you know with having to deal with the apocalypse all over again. Wouldn't hurt to have some extra fire power."

"No freakin duh!...you know what Chuck….why…why can't you come back with us and just tell Heaven that you don't want the damn apocalypse!" shouted Dean.

"I can't"

"Can't or won't"

"I can't…..it would awaken Chaos," explained Chuck.

"Ok…..how will just explaining the situation to them awaken Chaos?" asked Dean.

"Because the apocalypse was predestined, and every time I interfere, it strengths Chaos….you, you don't know how bad the consequences are of everything that I've done in the last couple of days…..just by telling you of Chaos strengthens it," explained Chuck.

"So the apocalypse was predestined?" asked Dean.

"Yes….it was supposed to be a long term temporary solution to the Chaos problem, but I like this plan better."

"So your against the apocalypse?" asked Dean.

"Yes"

"Alright, just making sure," replied Dean.

"And….and how does admitting that Chaos exist, strengthen it?" asked Dean.

"It just does….I don't know….I don't fully understand what this thing truly is…also, please don't tell the archangels about my interaction with y'all….This Chaos, it's…..it's dangerous and I don't want to take any chances," explained Chuck.

"So this Chaos is really that bad."

"Yes, also…please…..please do your best to avoid killing any of the archangels," requested Chuck.

"What, but their dicks that hate us and want us all dead!" shouted Dean.

"Yes yes I know I know, trust me, I understand how bad they can be. But you know, there…..there still my children. Their family and….and they're, they're your family too," explained Chuck.

"No their not!" shouted Dean.

"Yes! I agree with Dean. Even though I myself am an angel, I do not consider them family!" announced Cas.

"Look…..this, this is my fault. I know. I know I'm not the best dad but….but I still love them. I love my creation….I…I remember when I first made man…..he was like y'all, you know…..both of y'all Winchesters at the same time…He would play with the Archangels and….and they would show him around…Except for Lucifer….he was kind of a dick to him…..But…we were kinda like a happy family…..Man….those….those were the good old days…y'all would get excited every time Uncle Death came….Actually…both man and Gabriel were best friends…it did piss of Lucifer more though…but…..those were good times…y'all Winchesters represent man itself you know…and…even though man wasn't the oldest of them…..man was the best of them….just, please…please be patient…You know, they…their kinda like immature confused kids…try, try to be the better brother," explained Chuck.

"Ok, but if it comes between them and my actual, real family, I'm"

"Well do our best Chuck, I promise," cut in Sam. An awkward silence soon followed.

"There's….there's also something else y'all need to know…something bad….it's…it's my darkest secret that nobody, not even Death knows," stated Chuck….."When I used the energy from Chaos to trap Amara, I…I got a glimpse of where….it comes from."

"And?" asked Dean.

"Where it comes from…it….it's not alone. There are other things out there…horrible things. Things ….that even I don't understand. When I saw a glimpse of what was out there….it….it was scary." The Bunker suddenly seemed colder just from Chuck's explanation.

"If…if we do become your vessel…..could…..could we stop what….what's out there?" asked Dean breaking the moment of silence.

"I…I don't….probably not," answered Chuck. I mean…..this Chaos is absolutely nothing to what is out there," explained Chuck

"And you've seen what's out there? You know for sure?" asked Sam.

"I didn't exactly see it. I…..it….it was more like I sensed it. And it…it was horrifying…And what's worse is…..these things…..they….they…..they worship something….something big….and….and it answered…It….it was calling….something unimaginable….so horrible….so terrifying….and even that thing….it's…..it's also not alone. There…I couldn't identify it at first but….I think even those things are unaware of its existence because…because I heard another call…a call so much deeper…..much more horrifying…..a call that wasn't supposed to be sounded….even by those who were worshipping that…..that other thing…..And that second whatever it is…..is so much, much more massive and bigger than what they were worshipping….What's out there….it's…it's so mysterious….so infinite….it, it's a freakin nightmare of a black hole out there…..madness….such…..such savage madness," said Chuck, suddenly shaking and sweating.

"And…and when I tried to lock Amara away and almost died I…..I saw it again…..more clearly….The things that they worship…..they, they lurk in some deep horrifying abyss out there…..And…..I could hear it….so many horrifying calls and screams from that abyss….and the worshippers, who are worse than Chaos….there…there are just so many of them out there. It's…it's uncountable….The abyss itself is…so infinite…..There are abysses within the abyss…..And the worst of it all…..my darkest secret….there is something….some horrifying abomination that lurks underneathe the abyss itself.

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"So…..we're basically completely screwed," stated Dean breaking the long silence.

"Well…..as long as these things don't come after us…we're…..we're fine," answered Chuck.

"How close are these things to us," asked Sam.

"I don't know…..There is so much uncharted vastness surrounding the universe…But….if Chaos was able to come here, than those things out there could and might find us….That's what concerns me…..Chaos is absolutely nothing to what's out there….I have no plan at all for anything that is out there," explained Chuck shivering.

"Ok…well at least we know what the worse thing that could possibly happen is. I mean, Amara is going to annihilate everything in the freakin universe. It can't get worse than that, right?" asked Dean.

"NO…..NO…there are fates so much more worse than utter obliteration of everything…And I know what your thinking, and no. There are fates worse than utter damnation of everything…There is a fate worse than having Hell and damnation be the universe itself and the only one that exists," explained Chuck in a grave tone that frightened everybody in the room.

"Well…..what should we do?" asked Sam.

"Just…..just follow my plan, don't tell anybody what I told y'all…..and, and pray that those things don't find us," said Chuck and as he finished, everything turned back to normal. Crowley and Rowena were not frozen anymore.

"Alright so are y'all ready?" asked Chuck a little while later.

"Yeah, we have our angel gear and our dad's notebook, plus the key to the Bunker," stated Sam

"Oh, and give that stuff to Castiel, since his vessel will travel back… Alright, good luck everybody," stated Chuck

"See you on the other side," stated Dean.

"Uh, no, you don't want to see me ever again because that means….yeah. Live long and don't blow up the world," and just as he finished, Chuck snapped his fingers.