A/N: Another quick Kuroshitsuji FF I wrote! I think it sucks, but please try to enjoy and please read and review!
I Hate Who I Was
I, Alois Trancy, the spider who takes a human form. The one who lived an awful life. I had a lot of pain in my life, but I hurt and manipulated others. But that ends now. It ends now, as my life always ends now as well. I hate who I am...who I was. What I did to people. I'm ending my life, so I can't continue to hurt people...or myself. I was hurt and neglected, and only by a few people. I hurt more people than how many I got hurt by. I can't do that anymore. Not to Hannah, Claude, Sebastian,Ciel...everyone. The sad part is I know once I do this, no one will care and they'll forget me. No one will miss me. They will be glad I'm not going to be here to hurt them. Claude will get my soul. He never wanted me, or cared for me. No one did. But I mean, it's me. So why would they? I know once I die and I'm finally sleeping, I won't be reunited with Luka or my family. I lived a terrible life and I'm going straight to hell. I don't deserve to be in heaven where there is no pain. I deserve to be in hell and pain, because all I did was cause people hell and pain. In the basement of the Manor, there are swords. I run to the basement, and collapse in tears on the floor when I reach it. "Alois Trancy, the butterfly who turned into a spider..." I whisper, as my eyes overflow with tears. I look up and say: "Luka, I know you've watched over me and you've seen all the terrible things I've done over the course of my life. I'm heartbroken to say I won't ever be reunited with you in Heaven, because we all know that isn't where I'm going. So Luka, I love you, and please forgive me for all the awful things I did. Please." I whisper, taking in my last shaky breath. And without hesitation, I force the blade into my chest, falling into darkness. The darkness I will remain in forever.
A/N: It sucks DX But PLEASE read and review. I'd like to hear what you thought of it. ^_^