This story does contain some abuse and suicidal themes.

First chapter is Bella's point of view.

Don't know when I will be able to update again my sisters (Jessica) confirmation is tomorrow and I've got school.

My inspiration for this chapter is Sunday Bloody Sunday by Paramore

(Originally by U2)

Disclaimer: All rights go to original author. Stephanie Meyer.

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Prologue

The ocean was beautiful as the sun set. An extravagant pink was reflected in it from the setting sky above it. I closed my eyes and felt the wind blow through my Brown locks. I came here when I wanted to get away from everything. I had recently been bawling my eye out my life was crap lately and I couldn't deal with it any longer. My father, Charlie was an alcoholic and is abusive towards me. The littlest thing set him off- What I had learnt was if your quiet he might not start. That's he might not.

I was popular, but not the Party-Getting-Drunk-Head Cheerleader-Skanky kind of popular. I seemed to be universally popular; I was friends with mostly everyone at school. But a few of the girls at Forks High School thought I was stuck up and they bullied me. Tanya, Lauren, Jessica and Rosalie were the most glamorous girls at forks high school. They were also cheerleaders and the bulling had become worse. I subconsciously touched the scratch on my cheek, it just used to be naming and I could handle the 'Bitch' and 'Slut' comments they threw at me but now it was physical abuse as well. Lately they seemed to turn all my close friends against me the only really close friends that I had was my older brother Emmett (he was completely oblivious to the pain his girlfriend Rosalie was putting on me. He had become suspicious that she was picking on me at one point but all Rosalie did was flick her blonde hair and pout her lips then she had no wrong in Emmett's eyes), Jasper who was Rosalie's brother and Alice's girlfriend, Alice who was Jasper's girlfriend and one of my best friends and then there was Edward.

Ah Edward...my other best friend. Edward was closer to me than Alice (who was his twin sister) he knew of the bulling and my abusive father and my depression. I had been in love with him since I started at Forks High School in my freshman year. But I never acted on the feeling I had for him, he deserved better than some depressed plain-Jane like me. Everyone falls off the horse at some point in time; some (like me) just fall off the horse more than others. Edward was always there to sit me back up.

I have a full life in front of me; I wanted to go to med school. Edward and I were going to become doctors together. That why I took biology, which is where I met Edward. I still remember his crooked grin and piercing green eyes from the first day we met.

I giggled at the odd spectacle that was me trying to make coherent sentences with the full blaze of his eyes on me. A cold breeze blew through me causing me to shiver. I had written everyone a note goodbye, a final goodbye.

As I said before I have a full life in front of me that I'm meant to enjoy, to live, to be grateful for. I'm not ungrateful for it...that why I can't live it anymore. That might sound a little confusing for you. I will explain it for you in a question; it might be easier for you to understand.

Would you live if you couldn't go on?

If everything was a constant reminder of the pain you felt?

If you couldn't sleep because you would fall into a nightmare, not knowing if you would ever awaken again?

You were beaten and called a 'Slut' and 'Whore' everyday?

Every happy memory was replaced by ones of depression and anger?

And those that remained were quickly drowned in pool of sadness?

That's what I felt.

I stood up. My hair was still blowing out around my face. I stripped out of my clothes but kept my underwear on. I realized that if I didn't drown and if I didn't get pummelled by the jagged rocks on the bottom of cliff...I could freeze to death and hopefully that would be the end of it, my life and the sadness. With tears in my eyes I said my final goodbye.

'Goodbye Alice, Jasper, Emmett and Edward. I love you all' I whispered as I stretched out my arms, bent my knees and flung myself off the edge of the cliff.

I was stabbed in the back by one of the sharp rocks, I could feel the rock penetrate my exposed back and make a gash up my back, I could feel blood pour out of the wound. I screamed in agony, the last of my cries muffled by an intake of water as I splashed into the ocean. I could feel my warm blood colouring the crystal water that engulfed me. This death had the element of pain in it, but somehow dying this way was peaceful, an easier way to go. At that point the blackness completely took over and I smiled slightly to myself that it was finished.

'I love you Edward' were my last thoughts before everything went totally black.

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I will just say this now Bella does NOT die. I know its sad know but she will get happier.

Next chapter will be lots of points of views as everyone will get there goodbye letters.

I hope you enjoy it and I will try and update as soon as possible. I could be anytime in the next few week.

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