Hi~
This entire story will be Kairi's point of view only.
I hope you enjoy it.
Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom hearts
~Introduction~
If I'm gonna start from somewhere it might as well be from the beginning right?
It happened around late september, he was with his friends eating at their table at lunch and I was with mine. I was with my three best friends, Namine, Selphie, and Xion.
They all asked me if there was someone I was interested in. I was wondering for a while and then I thought about the schools drummer, Sora.
"Actually girls yeah I am interested in someone" I said
"Who is it?" They all asked in unison
"Its Sora, you know, the drummer" I said while trying to hide my blush
They all started laughing. "Are you serious?" They said between laughs
"Actually yes, yes I am" I stated
I had just told them who the guy I liked was and they laughed in my face. I really did like Sora.
I remembered that when I was still new at school and I was meeting everyone he had come up to me just to tell me I looked familiar. I still didn't know he would be the one who was going to steal my heart at the time.
About a few weeks later, he had sat next to me at lunch and when he left my friend Aqua had told me my face had turned red.
There were a lot of posters around the school for clubs to join so I asked my friends if there were any clubs we could all join together.
I really like to sing so I decided to join the schools music club, Naminé joined with me too. Like I said before, he was the schools drummer which means he was also in the music club.
At our first practice in music club I couldn't take my eyes off him. I kept wondering how wonderful this feeling was. To me, he was radiating the essence of beauty. My other friends would just tell me I had a terrible taste in guys.
Things where moving rather slowly due to timidness and lack of approach. We would just have small conversations. I'm rather shy when it comes to talking with Sora especially since I can tell he's not interested in me.
After 2 months he finally told me where he recognized me from, apparently he used to go the same church as me but stopped going. A month later he told me he was wrong and asked me which school I used to go in kindergarden. Turns out me and Sora where in the same class when we were 5.
Not many things would happen between us and that would put me in a bad mood. My self-esteem kept getting lower a lower as time passed by. It was November and something memorable happened on the 18.
We were having a huge celebration at school and the music club had a participation. We waited 2 hours until we finally finished our performance. As soon as we finished we just started hanging out. I spent the entire night by his side. Sometimes I wonder if it ever meant anything to him. It didn't matter at the moment, I was happy and nothing else mattered.
After that night I was filled with so much hope. It had made us a little closer than we used to be. It was almost christmas and school was almost over, I didn't want it to end. I didn't see him again until january.
We went ice skating with a group of friends it was the first time I had gone ice skating. I had so much fun and he was a really good ice skater. Every time he was next to me I would try to skate better to impress him and it worked for awhile until my nervousness caught up to me and I started falling over. I fell so many times I lost count of how many times I fell.
"This is so embarrassing, I keep falling" I said
"Don't worry if you fall I'll fall with you" he said
It was true cuz' when I fell he had dropped himself to help me get back up again. Maybe to him those memories weren't so important but to me they hold one of the best days of my life.
I didn't like Sora anymore, I loved him. Valentine's day was approaching and I was both scared and excited. I had written him a love letter that he would receive that day.
As the day kept getting closer my self-esteem kept dropping. I was scared, scared of rejection. When that day finally came and he read the letter we had avoided each other for a week. I had entered a mental state of depression, my only thoughts were of his rejection towards me.
I had received a reply letter from him a few days later. He told me I was the type of girl he'd fall for and that he'd rather have his heart broken 10 times instead of having to break mine but that was exactly what happened, he rejected me.
The letter was absolutely wonderful, he had complimented me and said I was pretty, but it still couldn't hide the fact that it was still just a rejection letter.
Ever since Valentine's day, the day I had been waiting for, for such a long time. My mask had been cracked and half of it smashed on the floor the other side still holding my fake smile.
I had been broken… And I still am.