"no tony, im not going to be another one of your used girls. Im not going to keep doing this. Goobye." I pushed him aways from me and turned to the door, very ready to leave this place.
"wait! Please Christine, I know that's not why your leaving-" he reached out for me but I wipped around and snapped at him.
"why tony? What possibly could make me want to leave more than my self pride?" he held my arms as I tried to wrestle myself from his grip.
"because you love me!" he yelled. We stared at eachother, Im still as death, till I look down and hide my teary eyes.
"what makes you think that?" I asked, my voice wobbling at the end.
"because why else would you stay up until now?" he brought my face up to reveal salty tears running down my face "that, and your crying right now."
I wiped my eye with the heel of my hand and crossed my arms, holding myself together.
"I didn't want to fall in love with you, and then you leave me for another girl. I thought I would be safe, but I was too late." I didn't want to meet his eyes. I instead focused on the ocean just outside his window, its dark crashing waves so much like love. They would chew you up and spit you out without a second thought.
"we were both too late." He said softly, running a thumb over my bottom lip. A sob shook my chest and I took a hitched breath.
"you lie, why should I believe you?" my voice was not stable. It broke and he took me in his arms. Cradled against his chest I cried softly. He shushed me, kissing my head and petting my hair with a gentle hand. I knew this wasn't going to get me anywhere, it was like indulging in a luxury you can afford to have, but I cant deny how good it felt to be with him. My hands clung to his shirt desperately, it would be a matter of time before he abandoned me.
"Christine, I wouldn't lie to you, couldn't. never will." He squeezed me tightly "what can I do to make you believe me?" his words were sad, as though he wasn't exactly asking me, but himself this question.
"just…don't leave me." I answered. He sighed deeply, pulling my face up to meet his.
"I never planned on it." He sealed his promise with a kiss, a sweet, warm, loving kiss. Actions speak louder than words, and his lips on mine spoke love. He drew away and picked me up bridal style gently. I laced my arms around his neck and buried my face against his skin as he carried me to his bedroom. He set me down on the bed and climbed in beside me. The fluffy black comforter was tucked around me and I was guided by the glow of the reactor to his chest. My puffy eyes were soothed by kisses to my eyelids and my tired head rested on his shoulder. a kiss was set to my temple and he whispered to me gently
"I wont leave."
"youll be there when I wake up?"
"ill be here, I promise."