A/N - I wasn't really intending to make this story known to anyone apart from myself and MJanie001. But after reading this, she really encouraged me to post this here. You can thank or blame her for this story :D I absolutely love the web series Emma Approved and the reaction videos about them (there are some really good ones out there *cough*thecast*cough*). So I decided to get inside Alex Knightley's head and expose his thoughts to, well, myself. If you haven't already, I'd recommend watching EA. Consider this my spoiler alert :D
Disclaimer - I don't own Emma Approved, Pemberley Digital does.
"Look, if this is how you want to make the world better, I don't wanna be any part of it."
I looked away from her, but not before seeing tears fill her eyes. It was my words doing that to her, but once I started, I couldn't see how I could do anything else but leave.
"Wait, where are you going?" I could hear the desperation in her voice.
"I'm leaving." My voice hardens when I'm trying to hold back tears.
"And when are you coming back?" Unlike mine, Emma's voice goes softer when she's doing the same.
"Maybe never." I held my breath in an effort to stop the tears.
I heard from a distance her calling out - no, crying out - my name, and somewhere at the back of my mind I knew I was breaking her heart too. When Emma cries, she means it.
She sounded absolutely distraught, and when I got into my car I broke down too. She's the only woman I could ever love. I tried composing myself again - breathe in, breathe out. I knew full well that I'd never get over her. Again, I broke down and let my body shake with wracking sobs.
I dried the tears and composed myself enough to drive back home. I felt like such a fool, but I couldn't go back. Not yet.