Obsession
Prologue: Internal suffering
Genre: Agast/Romance
Rating: PG-13
Serena looked at herself in front of her full length mirror. She
turned from side to side staring at her self again, with disgust.
She attempted to find some inner and outer beauty but searched in
vain. How could she have ever been a princess looking like this.
How could the people of the moon kingdom ever accepted her when
she looked so terrible. They had probably pitied her and treated
her as they did because of her mother's position in the kingdom
and her influence on the people. Again she searched for that
inner and outer beauty she saw in so many other people: in Rei,
Mina, Lita, Ami, Molly, and Darien-especially Darien. There
wasn't one single good quality about her that made her want to
live, not one. How could any one love her when she looked like
this, when she could not even love herself. How?
Darien always claimed he loved her , and then a few weeks ago
he had proved all those statements- all those words- wrong by
breaking up with her. She had asked him what she had done wrong,
why he was breaking up with her? He never told her. He didn't
even give her a second glance. And she totally understood, who
would want to be with her or even look at her when she was so fat
and ugly. She'd accepted it long ago. He didn't want to be with
her. She loved him with all her heart and even though he'd broken
up with her it hadn't changed what she still thought about him.
She loved him because he was so incredibly good to her, he hadn't
told her that the reason he didn't want to be with her was
because she embarassed him with her stupidity, and appearance.
Now she even hated herself, dispised herself for having had to
put him through all that. How could she have ever thought he was
with her for love. All this time he had after all been with her
out of pity, and maybe now he could go out and find someone equal
to him because he deserved much better then her.
Serena callopsed on the floor in a heap of tears. Sometimes she
just felt like dying, she wondered why her parents had had her,
instead of just aborting her, of course they would never have
known she was gonna come out so wrong. She would have understood.
Serena fell asleep sobbing, hating herself for being such a pig.
Everyday it was the same routine, after she got home from school
she would get home and lock herself in her room staring at
herself in the full length mirror and criticising everything
about herself, wishing herself invisible or even better dead.That
way she would have saved everyone so much trouble.
I am so incredible negative. I mean look at all my fics ( I just have two but I'm working on a third for GW fans) This was just the intro, so chapter 1 will be much longer. Ummm... I'm not really too comfortable about how this came out though. So I might revise it. Comments, suggestions, ideas, etc. are appreciated, even flames. Anything as long as I get some response. Thanx for reading (): ]
Hypertenshi aka Stephy-chan