"Who do I Love More" was so much fun to write.
I couldn't stop it there so here is a sequel,
I hope you guys like it :)
ENJOY
Jayys POV
During the ceremony I could not look at the casket. Tears streamed down my face like rivers and Dahvie could barley breath he was crying so hard. So many people came. Everybody loved Abrielle, it was hard not to. A part of me just died, and is now being put into the ground. At least she is being buried out here. I will be able to visit her. I am numb, and shaking. Dahvie fell to his knees when she was lowered into the ground. I wipe my tears and look over to the man that took my girl away from me. I do not even have the energy to say anything to him. He is dead to me.
"C'mon Dahvie we need to go," he shook his head and said "I don't know why I am this upset, we had so many issues. But I feel like I have known her my whole life, but I haven't," I nodded and said "Lets go," he got up and wrapped his arms around my neck. I held him close and he kissed me hard in the lips. I pulled away and said "Lets go," I started to walk and followed. This is my fault. All my fault. Dahvie is bi, he could have gotten another girl if I went with Abrielle. If I went with Abrielle she would have stayed with me and not be dead. I do not feel anything, not even love for Dahvie or hate for Chris. The only thing I feel is a burning need to hold Abrielle and kiss her.
We got back to the apartment and I said in a small voice, " I need to be alone right now," Dahvie nodded and kissed my hand.
I walked down the hall and stopped in front of Abrielles old room. I put a shaky hand on the door knob and took a deep breath. I let my tears flow as I walked into the room. It is exactly how she left it. I haven't gone in since. Her bed is messy and her closet still has some clothes in it. I walked over and found her favorite shirt. I cried loudly and held it close. I walked into the bathroom and found her makeup bag and spare rings. I cried harder. My Abrielle is gone. My baby girl is gone. I walked over to her bed and found a piece of paper on the pillow,
Dear Jayy,
I hope you can tolerate the mess I left, haha sorry! But I have some things I have wanted to say to you since I got here but I just couldn't. When I walked in on you and Dahvie in the car I was crushed. I thought I had lost you for good but then we had a heart to heart and I realized I will never lose always will be my number one guy no matter who walks into my life, I love you so much and would kill to be your girlfriend, but you are happy with Dahvie and that makes me happy. I wish you the best and you better invite me to your wedding! But I love you so much and please tell Dahvie I love him to! If things don't work out with you and Dahvie I am always here, I will never stop loving you boo, you are mine forever and I hope I can be your one day...
Love,
Abrielle
I broke down and collapsed on her bed. I wrapped her blankets around me and sobbed. I clutched her note and yelled. "I'm so sorry Abrielle! Come back to me!" The door slammed open and Dahvie rushed in. "Jayy? Are you okay babe?" I buried my face in her pillow and sobbed. "No don't come by me! Please leave me alone!" Dahvie was crying as he said "I want to help," I shook my head and said "Please just go!" he nodded and slowly left.
How can I wake up in the morning knowing my friend is dead? My friend who I knew since I was in grade school? How can I live knowing this is my fault? My Abrielle got taken from me and I wish I read this note before she died. I would have flown out and sleep with her no questions asked. She would have been mine.
I will not go on without her here, with me.