I have been thinking all day about my mission tonight. Though it breaks my heart to do it, I must fulfill it…I need her to despise me, I need her to hate me because then she'll have no regrets when the time comes to do her job and I will finally be able to forgive myself for what I did in the past…
Passing time in that spectral church with that Orochi sister opened my eyes and at the same time brought me many questions, several inquiries... At first, when she presented all those mirrors I thought she'd show me all the sins I had once committed, but I was wrong. The mirrors displayed the greatest want, the greatest desire of any person's heart…When I saw mine, I couldn't bring myself to believe what it craved for at first, but then I realized how true it was. The love I had towards her was not just friendly as I thought, it was more than that. My world spins around her since she is the sun in my days and the moon of my nights…Her smile is so warm, the look in her eyes is so pure, so innocent, and the glimmer of them is greater than the one of the stars dancing in the night sky…I beat the Orochi and then went straight to find her to tell her my newly found discovery. By the time I did finally find her, she was joined in a kiss with Oogami-san. Suddenly, all those strange dreams and visions I had been having for weeks became clear to me. I finally understood why I felt so much angst, so much sadness in my heart when she went out with him: she was the person I had been waiting for all this time.
That night when she came back home, she had a sullen look in her face. I immediately went to her room and consoled her. She spoke to me about the Kaiawase and how she thought Oogami-san might be the one for her. As I listened, my heart sank even more into the world of sadness and dark. After I left her room, I, Himemiya Chikane, took a decision. That very same night I joined the Orochi not because I wanted to screw the world, but in a desperate measure and ultimate resource to fulfill the last miko act: sacrifice one in the hands of the other so that the world could go back to normal. I knew that since she didn't remember anything of the past it wouldn't matter…
Soon I hear the front door open. Himeko is finally here…I wished she would have stayed out a bit longer, but that would have only been delaying the inevitable. I sit in front of my piano, take a deep breath and start playing in order to draw her attention and come to this room. The first part of my plan works. Himeko opens the door and I stop playing. My mission starts here…