Hello to everyone who's really going to read that (o.o)
I'm kinda new here and because I love writing since I was little, I decided to give this site a try.
Please don't be too hard...it's my first fanfiction in English...

Well...It's not my mothertongue, I'm sure there are pretty much mistakes in there... ^^"

The Story is based on Angel Beats!, it occurs after the events shown in the Anime,so there are new characters and of course a new storyline...xP
Hope you enjoy it at least a little bit.

KuroiMato

I do not own Angel Beats!
(I just own my own characters...but I'm not very proud of them .)

The sun set.
Lesson's were already over, something every student should be happy about.
I wasn't.
Lesson's were,however, the only time I could watch that certain person.
Not like just watching him like a stalker from behind...
Watch him,like I did when he found me, encouraged me...like in those days when I just arrived here; lost...completely lost.
What would I've done if he wouldn't have been there at that time? What would I've done if I would've been all alone from the start? I could hardly imagine...
Even now, I wanted nothing more,than being beside him,right next to him.
Was that too much for wishing?
It certainly was.
It would never be the way it was before. Everything has changed.
It was impossible to have that person talk to me, yeah even look at me that way again.
Impossible.
I felt tears dropping down on the desk I was sitting at. I slowly put my head down on the desk. It was cold. I didn't know why,but it felt good to rest my head on it, completely.
Silently I started to cry.
"There is no way...", I heard myself whisper. "There is absolutely no way..."
From far behind I could hear laughing voices.
The club activities seemed to always be a lot of fun.
I tried to remember the time,when I had fun at choir-club as well.
I couldn't.
It was way too long ago.
How the hell did I ever become such a pessimistic person?...Again, an answer, I didn't know.
I wasn't pessimistic at all.
I wasn't...when I thought about it, I always played the strong,optimistic girl.
Every day, every week, every month...
I had to. Right now, I wasn't just an ordinary choir-club member anymore,I was the Leader of that band after all. And every student was looking foward to our performances. I couldn't disappoint them.
But right here...all by myself. Wasn't it okay to cry? Just a little bit?
The tears were still dropping down. I couldn't do anything against it...and I didn't want to.
"Tomorrow even our seats will change...so I can't watch him at all...huh?", I heard myself whispering again.
Damn it! Who the hell was I talking to anyway?
I lifted my head and slowly packed my things.
Finally I stood up.
I grabbed my bag and my guitar in slow-motion and once again turned around,before leaving the classroom.
I remained still for a moment, watching the seat next to mine.
It was like, I was able to see one of those scenes from those happy days we spent together earlier.
Even though I still cried silently, I couldn't help but smile while thinking about it.
I was such an idiot! I couldn't even believe it myself.
Letting out a sigh, I turned around and left the classroom slowly.
I tried to stop the tears as good as I could.
But it was useless. Everybody could tell I had cried.
I let out a sigh again.
They had to bear with it then.
There was no use. Even if those thoughts were turning me down day by day, I had to practice.
Like I said earlier; I was this Band's Leader after all.