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Chapter 1 I Lost You

"What if this storm ends and I don't see you as you are now, ever again." These were the lyrics of the song Olivia heard but at the same time these words were her thoughts. What would happen when all this was over? The war William Bell and Walter had talked about. But more important to her was, what would happen when this was over and she wouldn't see Peter again, like she remembered him.

All these thoughts were on her mind when she sat in a bar somewhere in Boston, drinking whiskey and thinking about everything that had happened. And again all she could think about was Peter who crossed over to the other side. He wanted to go with his real father.

She always had tried to bury her feelings for Peter, but in that moment, when Walter had told her that Peter crossed over with Walternate and that there was no way to cross over and follow him at the time, her feelings just were there and she couldn't stop them anymore. In that moment, she knew that she had lost him and that she couldn't bear that feeling of losing him for a long time. That was her reason to drink whiskey. She couldn't bear that feeling and so she just wanted to get numb.

Shaking her head was all she could do. She didn't wanted to believe that she couldn't control herself anymore. That she couldn't keep her feelings down so she could work.

There needed to be something she could do. But what could she do? An agent of the Fringe Division without any experience in building machines to cross over to another universes. She could ask Walter, but he also might have no idea what she could do to help him or to bring Peter back. In the end there was nothing she could do at the moment.

She ordered another glass of whiskey and her thoughts went back to Peter. He was the reason for her good mood or her smile and some other things but she refused to admit that. To remember him smile made her smile weakly, too. She liked to remember him like this.

Getting up wasn't that easy as tired and drunk as she was, so she searched for some hold and found it as she laid her hand on the bar stool next to her. She felt a paper under her palm and look down on the bar stool. As Olivia looked down on the paper she was a little confused. Since when did it lay there? When she looked up again she saw one of the observers standing by the door watching her. She stared down on the paper again and when she wanted to talk to the observes. To ask him what this meant, she realized he was already gone.

She payed and was out of the bar in an instant. Her destination was the lab. She needed to talk to Walter. He needed to see this paper and she just could hope that he was still at his lab working.

When Olivia entered the lab with a loud "bang" of the door Walter jumped up.

"What's wrong agent Dunham?", he asked her.

Walter looked sleepy and sad. His eyes were red and swollen like he had cried all night long.

"He'll be dead, Walter!",she almost screamed at him. It wasn't because she wanted him to feel bad or to show him that she was angry with him. The reason was that she couldn't believe what she was saying. That she didn't wanted to believe what she said.

Walter looked confused and just stared at Olivia but all she could do was hand him the paper. It was completely silent in the time Walter studied the paper but when he looked up and faced her, she knew that nothing good was going to happen to Peter, before he died, if they would get him to use that machine.

"Is there anything you can do?", she ask with some hope but she knew there was not much that could really help them.

"I think at least I could look what this machine does to Peter and to our universe. As far as I can tell that thing might destroy our universe but I'm not quite sure jet. Now we really better should find a way to cross over. I'll work on that, too." And than he turned around and let her stand there in the middle of the lab.

Olivia just stood there watching Walter writing on one of the blackboards. She watched him work while she again did nothing.

"I wont let him die over there", Walter murmured while working and than after a few minutes he turned around and he looked angrily at Olivia.

" Olivia what are you still doing here? Just leave so I can work and find a way for us to save Peter and he doesn't get killed. Just leave. You're a negative pole and I don't need negative energy when I'm working."

Walter was right. She should leave him alone so he could work and she wasn't an obstacle. So she did as he told her.

She left the lab and went back to her car. Thinking what she could do. The only thing that came up to her mind was to call Nina Sharp and ask her for help. Maybe Massive Dynamic had some new technology that could help them in some way. When she reached her car she got into it and told it to call Nina Sharp. After a few rings she answered the phone.

"Sharp."

"It's Olivia Dunham. I was hoping that you could help us with our latest problems. Do you have some time?"

"Sure agent Dunham. What's the problem this time."

"First, I don't know if somebody told you that Peter crossed over to the other side but that's our problem. I got a paper from one of the observers. On it was a machine and Walter said it'll kill Peter when we don't find a way to cross over and get him to come back to our universe. The worst is that when we don't find Peter and get him back,when he uses that machine it might destroy our universe."

Nina was silent for a moment. But after a few seconds she answered Olivia.

"I'm sorry to say this but I don't think that Massive Dynamic can help you this time. We are trying to find a way to cross over for years and we still had no success."

Nina seamed really sorry but that didn't made it any better.

"Okay. Thank you for your time."

That was the end of their conversation. Olivia swallowed hard. She really had hoped for some help and thought about what to do next. At the moment she could just wait and hope that at least Walter would find something that might help them out of their situation.

Olivia was getting more and more tired . She glanced down on the clock in the dashboard of her car and saw that it was after four in the morning. So it was no wonder that she was tired even with all that chaos inside her. She felt totally unable to drive home but she also didn't wanted to go back to the lab where Walter would work all night long to get all information out of that paper that she left him. This night she would spend on the backseat.

When Olivia finally was lying on the backseat and was closing her eyes, she saw Peter smiling in front of her. A single tear ran down her face when she drifted into an unsettled sleep.

That was the first chapter. I know that it is quit similar to the real episode but it will get much more different. Please Review.