Ok so I got this idea after I started thinking that I dont have any angst fics so this one was born. Its about that time that I also got a One Republic album Dreaming Out Loud. Which kind of helped me with the writing so thats why this is kind of a songfic. Its kind of confusing but I hope you like it.
WARNING! Caracter death!
"All Fall Down"
Step out the door and it feels like rain
That's the sound (that's the sound) on your window pane
Take to the streets but you can't ignore
That's the sound (that's the sound) you're waiting for
If ever your world starts crashing down
Whenever your world starts crashing down
Whenever your world starts crashing down
That's where you'll find me
Yeah God love your soul and your aching bones
Take a breath, take a step, meet me down below
Everyone's the same
our fingers to our toes
We just can't get it right
But we're on the road
If ever your world starts crashing down
Whenever your world starts crashing down
Whenever your world starts crashing down
That's when you find me.
(Yeah) Lost till you're found
Swim till you drown
Know that we all fall down
Love till you hate
Strong till you break
Know that we all fall down
If ever your world starts crashing down
Whenever your world starts crashing down
If ever your world starts crashing down
That's when you'll find (find) me
Lost till you're found
Swim till you drown
Know that we all fall down
Love till you hate
Strong till you break
Know that we all fall down
All fall down, we all fall down, all fall down
We all fall down, all fall down, all fall down
Lost till you're found
Swim till you drown
Know that we all fall down
Love till you hate
Strong till you break
Know that we all fall down
...
"Alec! Alec wake up!" I heard someone call me out of the darkness.
I rolled over to my stomach and continued to go back to sleep when it started again. But this time strong hands were shaking me by my shoulders too.
"Alec!"
"What?!" I snapped bringing my head up off of the pillow with a groan.
I barely managed to open my eyes-the sunlight flowing in from the window hurting them-but it was enough to see familiar golden locks and similar eyes.
"Jace…" I groaned again flopping back down. "Let me sleep."
"No more sleeping. Come on. Get up." He said grabbing the back of my shirt and pulling me up and off of the bed.
"You're enjoying this too much." I mumbled sleepily as I rocked unsteadily on legs while he threw some clothes at me.
"Come on. Change." He said looking at me expectedly. "I need a training partner and Izzy is sleeping."
"I was sleeping too." I pointed out.
"Yes but you are my parabatai. You don't have a choice." He smiled sweetly at me. That breathtaking smile of his that always made me just want to stop and stare.
"Bastard." I mumbled instead under my breath as I slowly made my way to the bathroom. Rubbing my eyes as I went.
The shower helped a little but even as I stepped out of the bathroom fully dressed and awake I still felt too tired to go one on one with Jace.
"Ok let's go!" Jace grinned and jumped off of where he was sitting on my bed when he saw me.
"Great." I mumbled but followed him nonetheless.
…
Half an hour later I ended up walking-well more stumbling-through the park with a few fresh bruises and two iratzi's. Cursing Jace for making me train with him.
I was barely able to defend myself let alone get to him.
Lost in my thoughts I didn't notice that there was someone walking towards me paying as little attention to their surroundings as I did until said person bumped right into me.
I winced as he hit right into my bruised side.
"Sorry." I heard a silky voice say making me look up at the man. And was barely able to keep my shock inside when I saw him.
He was wearing a tight green shirt and rainbow leather pants that looked too tight to be comfortable. I mean where did he even menage to find them?! His hair was done in spikes that sparkled a little when the sun hit him. Glitter maybe. And he had eyeliner on.
He looks more like he is in a club not walking in the park. I thought.
That's when I noticed his eyes. I was too shocked by his attire to notice before but now that I did I couldn't keep my shock for myself anymore.
He had gold and green cat eyes.
"A Warlock." I whispered.
I saw a flash of shock on the man too before a smirk found its way on his face making him look even more hot.
Wait hot?! What am I thinking about!?
"Aren't Nephilim supposed to be more aware of their surroundings." He teased.
"Please not now I'm not in a good mood." I groaned but didn't lash out at him like I would at Jace at the moment.
"Why not Blue Eyes? Someone as handsome as you isn't supposed to be in a bad mood." He purred looking me up and down with a smile.
I couldn't keep a blush from appearing at his words. When he saw it his smile turned wider.
"And anyway you're the one who bumped into me." I said quickly to cover it up.
"Indeed I am." He said stepping closer to me. "And I'm more than willing to find a way to…Apologize." He said in a way that made me blush again.
I froze for a second in shock-not used to people flirting with me-before stepping back.
"You're forgiven." I said quickly. "And I need to go." And with those words I hurriedly walked passed him, ignoring the uncomfortable pain my bruised body gave me.
"Oh come on. That's not fair." He called after me making me stop for a second. "At least give me a name."
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. "Alec." I called back before I had time to over think it. I looked over my shoulder at him. "My name is Alec."
I saw a grin find its way on his face before I turned back around and continued walking back towards the Institute.
Only when I was halfway there did I notice that I didn't ask his name.
…
"Alec!" I heard someone call me, snapping me out of my thoughts.
I looked up to see Izzy and Jace looking at me weirdly.
"The food came ten minutes ago." Izzy said and I looked down in front of me. My food was really there.
Has my mind wondered off again? I thought feeling a little embarrassed considering to what I was thinking about in the first place.
"Are you ok Alec?" Izzy asked me looking a little concerned. "You seem a lot more distracted since you came back from your walk."
"I'm fine." I said slowly picking at my food, avoiding their eyes.
Because I couldn't help but feel embarrassed at what I was thinking about. Feeling like if I look at them they will see right through me and know. Know that my mind has been wondering to the mysterious Warlock I bumped into this morning.
And no matter how many times I tried to get my mind to something else for some reason it kept going back to him. The glitter. The tight clothes. And that smirk. I can't get that smirk out of my mind.
I felt my cheeks get red from just thinking about it. Especially in front of Jace.
Why can't I stop thinking about it? I thought with a groan making Jace and Izzy look at me. I just shook my head and continued eating. He is just a Warlock I met. I don't even know his name. And it's not like we will see each other again. But why is it that he can't get out of my mind?
I looked up to see if they stopped looking at me. I felt relieved when I saw that they did. As I went back to eating I something flash from the corner of my eye.
I looked up to see what it is only to choke down a gasp as my eyes met familiar gold and green cat eyes. He had that smirk on again as he watched me.
How long has he been there?! Has he been watching me all this time?! The thought made me blush and I ducked my head so he can't see it. Continuing eating.
I tried ignoring him and just wait for him to leave but I couldn't stop myself from looking at him from the corner of my eye a few times. Every time I did his smile grew bigger and one time he undoubtly winked at me. Making my face as red as a tomato in seconds. Which resulted at Izzy and Jace looking at me questioningly.
Why is he just sitting there looking at me? Why doesn't he just leave already? But even as I thought it I didn't want it to happen. For some reason I didn't want him to leave. I wanted to talk to him. Find out his name.
But...Why?
"I'm meeting Clary in half an hour." Jace said suddenly making me grid my teeth at the mention of the girl. "Izzy I need you t tag along and entertain that Simon kid again."
"Oh come on. No way Jace. I'm not doing that again." She glared at him.
"Please Izzy. I'll owe you." He pleaded getting up from the chair and looking at her expectantly.
Izzy sighed and got up herself. "You owe me big time for this."
Jace grinned at her. "Yes I do. Thanks."
I remained sitting so Jace looked down at me questioningly. "Coming?"
"No. You go. I'll just head home." I answered forcing a smile. But he didn't notice it. When it comes to Clary he never does. I thought with a sigh watching them leave.
I looked towards the table where the Warlock was sitting from the corner of my eye.
He's not there anymore. I thought with a sight as I saw the empty chair.
I couldn't figure out if I was more relived or disappointed at the thought. At one hand for some reason I really want to talk to him. And even thought I don't know why the want for it is incredibly strong. But on the other hand I have never experienced that before. And the fact that the want is so strong is for the lack of any better word scaring me.
Maybe it's good that he left. I thought as I exited Taki's. I mean what would I have done anyway? It's not like I would go and approach him on my own.
"Blue Eyes."
I stopped at the nickname said in that familiar voice that I have been thinking about for half of the day. I looked at my right from where it came from. And there he was. Leaning onto the wall and watching me with those mesmerizing eyes.
Shit I really need to stop thinking like that.
"You know Alec…" He started, pushing off of the wall and walking towards me. "I don't believe in coincidence. So when I saw you enter Taki's I couldn't help but think that this is my chance."
"A chance for what?" I asked him finally able to find my voice.
He smiled at me. Now standing only inches away.
"To win you over of course." He stated making me look at him in disbelief.
What the hell is he talking about?! I thought. There is no way this is happening?! He can't be serious?!
"Why would you want to?" I asked.
"Well I always love a challenge." He answered looking amused. "Plus…" He stepped even closer to me and leaned to whisper into my ear. "You are just gorgeous with those blue eyes of yours. I never could resist blue eyes and black hair."
I felt shivers run down my spine and a blush appear on my face as I leaned a little away. Not used to this.
He smirked at me when he saw it. "And that blush of yours is just delicious."
I managed to fight down another blush at his words.
"I'm Magnus by the way. Magnus Bane, the High Warlock of Brooklyn." He said as we pulled apart a little.
"Alexander Lightwood." I mumbled in return. Or some reason using my full name this time.
That made him grin.
"Pleasure to meet you Alexander." He practically purred. "So what do you say about a walk? Just walk and talk."
Before I knew I was doing it I nodded.
He grinned at me again and took my hand in his without hesitation. Starting to walk and pulling me with him.
I pulled my hand out of his out of instinct but still stayed close. Our elbows touching every now and again as we continued walking. A fact that I was highly aware of.
"So do you usually flirt with the Shadowhunters you meet?" I asked after a few minutes of just walking in silence.
"No." He said looking at me with that smile not moving off his lips. "Your actually the first one to catch my eye. I'm not really fond of your kind actually."
"Then why me?" I asked feeling confused.
"I told you. You're just my type." He answered simply.
After that we continued talking. Talking about nothing really. Small things. Nothing important. But for some reason it made me want to smile.
His smile and a little spark I could see every time I answered his question or even asked him one was making me happy for some reason. It felt odd. I have never felt like this. But I never wanted it to stop.
After hours of walking we ended up sitting side by side on a bench in a park. Watching people pass us by as we continued talking. He even managed to make me laugh. Taking us both by surprise. Because that is not something I do so easily. Or often.
"You have a beautiful laugh." He said. "You should really laugh more often."
"I don't have anything to laugh about." I mumbled looking down at my hands.
"I'll have to make you laugh more often than." He said making me look up at him in surprise.
But as I did our faces ended up being way too close then I thought.
My gaze went to his lips for a second before going back to his eyes. I felt a little scared but in a good way. He leaned forward a little more. Leaving our lips almost touching. Looking me in the eyes intensely. Searching for any sign of me not wanting this. Giving me a chance to pull away if I want to.
I didn't. I stayed as I was and a moment later his soft lips were pressed against mine.
My eyes turned wide in shock from the contact. But after a few seconds they closed and I kissed him back. I didn't know what I'm doing but I took his lead and felt him smile into the kiss as our lips moved in sync.
My hands somehow ended up around his neck while I felt his on my back, pulling me closer.
When the need to breathe became too much we broke apart.
"I knew that being persistent would pay off." He said grinning at me. Still not letting me go.
I laughed making his grin widen.
My gaze wondered off to my left feeling like something isn't right. I saw a flash of something behind a tree but it disappeared as fast as it appeared. A second later a cat jumped down off of a branch of the tree.
Nothing. It was just a cat. I thought already forgetting about it.
That's when I noticed that it is already dark.
When did that happen? I thought confused. Have we really been talking for hours? I didn't even notice.
"I should go." I said pulling away and standing up. "It's getting late."
"Do you really need to go?" He asked looking disappointed.
"Yes." I said feeling a small smile appear on my lips. "I do. But…If you want to we can meet here again tomorrow." I said a little reluctantly. Fearing he will say no.
"I would love that darling." He smiled at me again. Grabbing my forearm and pulling me in for a quick kiss. Taking me by surprise. "So I'll see you tomorrow morning at let's say…One?"
I nodded still a little shocked from the kiss. "Sounds good."
I gave him one last small smile before turning to leave. "Bye Magnus. See you tomorrow." I looked at him over my shoulder.
"Goodbye darling. Dream of me." He said with a smirk making me blush again.
Suddenly I saw a red arrow of magic fly right towards Magnus from behind. My eyes turned wide and time seemed to slow down as I watched it hit him in the back.
Unable to do anything. Just watching in shock as it happened. All happening too fast. Faster than I ever thought possible.
One second he was just standing there and in a blink of an eye he was on the floor.
Unmoving.
Still in shock I felt my legs carry me to him.
I was on my knees next to him in a second. Looking around for whoever did this but there was no one around. Not even a mouse. I couldn't see anyone.
Concentrating on him I could see a big gash on his back. Definitely a fatal gash. But even though a rational part of my mind was saying that he is dead I couldn't accept it.
He can't be dead. I thought turning his body around. He was smiling just a few seconds ago. So alive. He can't be dead.
But as I turned him around I could see that he is.
His cat eyes didn't have that spark anymore. Or amusement. Or anything saw in them in the past few hours. They were dull. Dead. Looking right at me but not seeing. Never again seeing.
I felt choked up. For some reason I felt like breaking down. For this man I have only met today. But even though I couldn't see why this affects me so much I couldn't stop the sudden feeling like just breaking down.
But I'm a Shadowhunter. I'm trained to deal with deaths. I don't cry. I don't break down.
Why do I feel like doing just that right now then? Why do I care so much about this?
I still felt shock running through my body. So many feeling taking over me at once. Too many.
Numbly I got up and walked back home. Feeling like I'm stuck in a nightmare that I can't get out of. Flashes of Magnus going through my mind. His smile. His voice. His lips. The more I thought about it more I felt like I'm on edge of tears. His face right before the arrow hi him was hunting me. I couldn't get it out of my mind.
By the time I got to my room I felt like I'm losing my mind.
Going crazy.
I couldn't take it anymore. I threw the books off of the shelf to the floor as a sudden wave of rage hit me. I started throwing everything at my reach to the floor. Breaking. Destroying. Feeling like breaking down.
Until I finally couldn't take it anymore and crumpled down to the floor.
I'm a Shadowhunter! I'm supposed to protect people! But why couldn't I protect him then?! I thought furiously. Why couldn't I save him?!
That's how I fell asleep hours later. On the floor. With tears there but not falling. And thoughts of Magnus and his death hunting me.
…
"Alec! Alec wake up!" I heard someone call me out of the darkness.
I rolled over to my stomach and continued to go back to sleep when it started again. But this time strong hands were shaking me by my shoulders too.
"Alec!"
Why does all of this seem so- My eyes snapped open and I was awake in seconds. Almost knocking into Jace as I quickly sat up.
All the things that happened yesterday hitting me once again.
But my room wasn't as I last remembered and Jace woke me up like this yesterday. And-
"What day is it?" I asked almost frantically grabbing at his sleeve.
"Tuesday." He said slowly looking at me strangely.
"No it can't be!" I said sitting up. Sleep nowhere near my mind. "That was yesterday. Yesterday was Tuesday." I said looking around for any sign of it. But the mess I remember doing yesterday was nowhere. My room was as clean as it was yesterday morning.
Or is it this morning?
Did you like it? Tell me what you think.
Ok I told you it's confusing. This fanfic will have eight more chapters though so they should clear everything up a little more. And sorry for killing Magnus that was a really hard thing for me to do. But I swear this fic has a happy ending. Maybe.
Anyway please review and tell me what you think.