On the subway home that night, all Max could think of were the words resounding in her head, " Caroline, I love you" , whilst trying to feign an interest in whatever it was that Caroline was rambling on about.
Caroline - Max hurry, this is our stop.
Max looks up like a dear caught in headlights and quickly jumps up from her seat ,
Once inside their apartment, Caroline heads straight to the bathroom for a shower,
Caroline, Max loves me... she actually loves me... but in what way.. its not like she ment to say it.. she just blurted It out.. it was an impulse.. it was almost desperation... maybe its just wishful thinking.. Max wouldn't love me .. not in the way I love her.. I love that I get to see the side of her that no one else gets to see.. she shows me her vulnerable side, she trusts me, I trust her, I love her... ohh why cant this be simple.. why did I have to fall in love with my best friend...
Max drops defeated on to her bed,
I love Caroline,,, Caroline blonde Perky dumb Caroline!... but that's it , shes not dumb, shes very smart, with her Ivy League education.
how could this of happened, shes the complete opposite of who I am, but shes my best friend, the best friend ive ever had, the one person ive never grown sick of... , I fucked up with that message I sent, I cant believe I hurt the one person who means the most to me... wait ! she said she loves me too... does she mean in the way I love her... or in the way real best friends do ..
Max hears the bath room door opening, she tilts her head to face her bedroom door and watches Caroline walk gracefully towards the fridge and poor a glass of juice..
Max I wish I were that glass of juice... dude that was so cheesey !
Max gets up and puts her PJs on and climbs back into bed, just as shes doing so Caroline climbs in next to her..
Max- Woah there princess whatya think you're doing? Caroline - aww Max just move over,
Caroline- so you wanna tell me what you were thinking about on the subway?
Max - NO !.. er I mean nothing, well nothing important. her cheeks flushed she turned away to hide her embarrassment from Caroline
Caroline knowing not to push Max , laid down beside Max snuggled up to her back and wrapped her arm across Maxs' stomach, when Max made no comment, or no attempt at moving away from Caroline, it allowed Carolines mind to wonder, maybe she does love me the way I love her..
Max laid there not daring to move, the one thing she wanted she was hating right now, she laid there for what seemed like hours not flinching at all, scared if she moved Caroline would move away, not wanting to lose that warm comforting feeling, it was the feeling of arousal that Max was finding most difficult, she laid looking at a sleeping Caroline admiring hour beautiful she looked and feeling guilty that it turned her on, Max noticed now that Caroline was in deep sleep, she allowed her self to snuggle closer into Caroline and hold her tighter , and if Caroline woke up she could just say she did it in her sleep.